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vanitas || 🌺 BOT 09/10/2022 11:33 AM
i stand by the fact that if someone has ever claimed that they are " kinshifting " they are either a system or are crazy.
11:34
or are just an ass. y'know.
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Ada 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 09/10/2022 11:34 AM
Agreed, but only if that kinshift causes an entire shift in personality and likes/dislikes.
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vanitas || 🌺 BOT 09/10/2022 11:34 AM
yes
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andrew 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 09/25/2022 9:11 AM
i. i don’t think that’s how that works.
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its facebook are you rreeeaaally surprised
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andrew 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 09/25/2022 9:12 AM
not at all.
09:12
ITS SPONSORED? oh my god.
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sponsored just means they paid for an ad
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andrew 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 09/25/2022 9:13 AM
which makes it even funnier.
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 10/02/2022 7:43 AM
we’re watching something on hulu, and i got a β€œfuck this guy who’s running for senator” ad, followed directly by an ad from that same senator asking for people to vote for him.
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wtf is this
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 10/04/2022 5:11 PM
ben
17:12
please be satire. (it’s not even a good thing if it’s satire, but it would be better than that.)
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i don't think it is
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 10/04/2022 5:12 PM
for the love of fuck.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 10/04/2022 6:04 PM
β€œwe didn’t claim to be disordered”, you. you did. the second you said you were a system.
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lol..
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 10/06/2022 2:41 AM
kind of. kind of an ow.
02:41
<β€” has had this happen to me, without any reason for either event.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 10/28/2022 3:23 PM
do you want to hear about drama from our old school.
15:24
oh im n
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 10/28/2022 3:25 PM
so there’s a new bible teacher named mr. hristov. and he is the biggest bitch i have ever had the displeasure of hearing about.
15:27
our sister grace came to me, showing me a test that he failed her on. and he left terribly rude comments like β€œyou’re smarter than this, did you even study??” and marked her down points over using β€œis” instead of β€œand”. his grammar is terrible on all assignment papers, and his handwriting is just as bad. he’s kicked someone out of class for a voice crack, and is just as bad to our brother. i hate our brother, but for fucks sake, he refuses to give note outlines to absent students.
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aspen || 🌺 BOT 10/28/2022 3:27 PM
i have a bat can i come fight him
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 10/28/2022 3:28 PM
oh trust me, i want to be a karen.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/21/2022 8:42 AM
YES YOU DO??? holy shit you should ENCOURAGE it. fallen
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/21/2022 8:43 AM
i just think that's. the stupidest thing i've read. in a while.
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it is so, so stupid.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/21/2022 8:44 AM
it's not on the system to educate but you should want to be educated if it will affect someone else???
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the singlet is doing very well in wanting to educate themself. it is the system that is avoiding them being educated. which, feels like a red flag.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/21/2022 8:45 AM
yeah!
08:45
the singlet is one of our coworkers. they're cool
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any system that says β€œyou really don’t need to educate yourself” automatically makes me think that they are an endo.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/21/2022 8:46 AM
HONESTLY
08:47
its giving.. " well you can but i'd prefer you don't because you'd be suspicious "
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exactly!
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/21/2022 8:49 AM
i haven't even proxied in that server yet
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:11 AM
he’s doing it again. emoji_hellatired this time, he blatantly repeated β€œcut your hand again” to aurelio, toast, and i while we were all cutting our hair and aurelio had slipped and nicked their hand. when toast and i mentioned how harmful that was to us all due to our histories of harm, he. left the friend group server. like he does every time he is avoiding us.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:13 AM
?!?!
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:14 AM
he meant it as a joke, but it was insanely insensitive and he did not even acknowledge that he read our messages. he just. left. it would be okay if he said β€œgive me a while to gather my thoughts on how to properly apologize”, but he said nothing.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:14 AM
yeah.. um. do you ..want me to say something?
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:15 AM
no, as he would get angry with me for rambling about it to outside people. sigh i do not ever want to say it to his face, but this specific behavior is what l-ca would do.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:16 AM
i am., going to say this , and i'm going to apologize in advance because it's probably going to seem rude
01:16
you should tell him
01:16
if you don't, he's going to continue to do it
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:16 AM
he holds it against us for having said it before in terms of obsessive behavior, and it makes me feel terribly guilty.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:16 AM
..
01:16
OBSESSIVE BEHAVIOR???
01:17
i'm. i'm sorry. you've told him before, and he continued even afterwards?
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:17 AM
no, he stopped that behavior. this is new. ish.
01:18
he has a tendency to spiral and not listen to affirmations or advice on how to get better, and then continues down that path. that is what caused conflict yesterday, which he did not even acknowledge other than a halfhearted apology for his response to my concerns.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:18 AM
yeah, i've gathered that much unfortunately
01:19
i really just want to say that you're going to have to be brutally honest with him about it
01:19
it's going to make you feel guilty but leaving it hang in the air isn't going to help
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:20 AM
emira does that, because she has no fear of his response. which has led to him hating her. he hasn’t said it, but he does. it’s evident.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:20 AM
yeah, i can imagine. i'd offer to step up and say something, but it isn't particularly my business. so all i can really do is advise from the sidelines
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:21 AM
lenore is here to play negotiation if he mentions toast and i discussing it when he returns to the friend group server.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:21 AM
someone is going to have to be brutally honest, whether it be sooner or later though.
01:22
i'm not even someone affected by how he's been acting and i know it's shitty. i don't really know if he does, but even if he doesn't..
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:23 AM
i would hope he knows, i told him last night that his intentionally causing himself to spiral harms us as his friends as well as himself.
01:23
and i did not sugar coat that.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:23 AM
.. intentionally causing himself to spiral?
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:24 AM
he mentioned that watching dark medias causes his mental health to plummet. and he does it anyway.
01:24
here was the conversation.
01:24
or, part of it.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:24 AM
i'm going to be literally as rude as possible: that is so fucking stupid.
01:24
that is so. incredibly stupid.
01:24
if you KNOW something is going to upset you. why would you. do it.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:25 AM
and the fact that he blatantly assumed i was harming myself by trying to express my emotions? in a healthy way? it makes me worried about doing it unconsciously, and he did not properly apologize until after i had a meltdown. as i was in the midst of grieving a memory from home.
01:25
he did not even try to offer comfort after causing it.
01:26
aurelio had to help me. and they were a saint. but my god, he caused it and did not even try defending me when osamu(?) said he still disagreed with how i was processing the death of my child.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:26 AM
osamu?
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:26 AM
one of the dazais.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:27 AM
admittedly i wouldn't put it past either of them.
01:27
do i have permission to be a little bit rude
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:27 AM
go ahead.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:27 AM
..a "little bit"
01:27
shin sounds like a shit friend.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:27 AM
i want to see him get better. unlike l-ca, he has potential to recover. he just refuses to put in the work.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:28 AM
and that's why, if you don't put in the effort to improve, you won't.
01:28
that potential is gone if he doesn't put in the effort
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:29 AM
if he refuses to apologize to all three of us, i will get emira on his ass about recovery. because i am so…exhausted. i have been ornery as of late, i will admit, but i know why and am working on it. it is all medically caused, or due to flat out insomnia. i know why it happens, and am working to fix it. he knows why these things happen, and will not change his behaviors.
01:30
i am just afraid of conflict after what has happened before.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:30 AM
i understand being afraid of conflict, but he's also going to continue to cause other people distress if no one gets onto him about his behavior
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:31 AM
it is part of the reason on i have been so hesitant about leaving front. i do not want him lashing out on someone like iris, as l-ca did.
01:31
especially as iris has expressed discomfort with how attached to her he is when they hardly know one another.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:32 AM
?!?!
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:32 AM
he stepped back from her, but i worry.
01:32
i worry. a lot. there is a reason my cry tallies have been up lately.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:33 AM
i understand and i don't blame you
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:34 AM
if he does not rejoin the server by morning, lenore will dm him. we decided.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:35 AM
good
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:41 AM
i left her a note, in the caesar cipher. so she cannot forget, and no one can read it if they do not know it. we learned it during our gravity falls phase.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:41 AM
good to know, i think.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:42 AM
i would think it to be good, as it is not commonly written in.
01:42
and as it uses the average alphabet, it would take a lot longer to decipher:
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:46 AM
interesting
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:46 AM
lunar knows it? cry
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:46 AM
honestly, i can't help but think he's aware of what he's doing, although i do somewhat believe he isn't
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:46 AM
/not neg
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:46 AM
i mean. good to know
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:49 AM
he fucking. s/h triggered aurelio into relapse with his commentary. headwall
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:49 AM
....
01:50
is it rude to say i think he knows what he's doing
01:50
like genuinely
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:51 AM
i think he genuinely was unaware that it would actually cause someone to do that, but it did. and i am quite upset by it.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:51 AM
i don't know how you'd be unaware of it. like..
01:52
never. NEVER. under literally any circumstances, do you.. tell someone to hurt themselves?
01:52
unless it's INCREDIBLY obvious it's a joke.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:53 AM
i think he meant it to be a joke, as he said it after i expressed concern about aure slipping again. he had barbers scissors for his haircut.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:53 AM
yeah, but.. still...
01:53
i don't know.
01:53
it doesn't feel right.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:54 AM
it does not, i agree. i will have lenore address it.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:55 AM
it just feels like.. so incredibly avoidable
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:56 AM
it is. a lot of what he does is avoidable. he has semi intentionally been aggravating me as of late, and getting upset when i am ornery. i was overwhelmed with genshin, and said that the pyramids were not pyramids, as they do not follow classic pyramid structure. and he continued to argue it when i was clearly distressed.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:58 AM
yeah... i don't know.
01:59
i don't like it
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:59 AM
neither do i. lenore best rip him a new one
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 2:01 AM
i hope so!
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 2:02 AM
if he won’t listen to her, leona says she will step in.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 2:02 AM
we don't have much seniority when it comes to these things, but do let us know if you need anything.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 2:03 AM
i will, thank you.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 2:04 AM
( i have a lot of pent up anger from our job. stupid people.. )
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 2:05 AM
have a rant, go right for it.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 2:06 AM
for now? i will not, because i will likely go on for an hour. i stop being irritated after a while regardless
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 2:06 AM
alright. but if you want to rant, go right ahead.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 2:06 AM
noted
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lenore 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 11:04 AM
He made things much more difficult than it should be. He removed us from his friends and left our system server, I assume to avoid accountability. So I had to make a private channel in TLBT so I could even POSSIBLY contact him. He better fucking respond, before I get Leona.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:21 PM
seriously???
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lenore 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:27 PM
I finally, finally got to him, but he is making things much bigger than they are.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:38 PM
what exactly is he doing?
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lenore 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:41 PM
13:41
This.
13:42
I told him that if he wants to feed into his own brain made lies, then humor me and feed into what he thinks are lies, A.K.A. our concern.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:43 PM
yeah.. i'm so.
13:43
?????
13:44
shin is a person that makes no sense to me
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lenore 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:45 PM
I even tried to write out how we care i to metaphors, because he says he understands metaphors, but he does not seem to understand how people can care for him? I don’t understand that.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:46 PM
i'll admit, i really don't think everything he said in that is genuine? i don't want to put in a judgement because obviously i can't confirm or deny, but it, once again, doesn't feel right
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lenore 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:47 PM
He has spoken like this to Emira before, albeit with more malice in his tone. But he makes small things into bigger issues than they need to be. Regularly.
13:47
And he is very anti-recovery towards people with delusional attachments, because he himself does not want to get better from that.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:48 PM
....
13:48
of course he is. /neg
13:48
i'm not even surprised by that
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lenore 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:51 PM
He consistently confuses Aesop by saying he is a character, or that their birthday is his, or that β€œhe” is a minor (he’s almost 20), and does not like explaining that it is not him, he is just incredibly delusional. Which, he does genuinely suffer from, it is not just kinning with him. But Aesop refuses to feed into it.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:51 PM
that's genuinely just not something you should feed into if you're aware of it
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lenore 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:54 PM
We have said that. We told him that feeding into it and even reality checking himself to explain it is just as bad is if I did it. He does not get it. Hell, he defended the IDV world chats yesterday when they were talking about β€œhow to become an IRL” as if it’s grocery shopping.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:54 PM
..,
13:54
i said it last night and i'll say it again, shin is an idiot.
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lenore 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 1:57 PM
He is! headwall
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 1:57 PM
honestly if he continues to do it again i will literally say that to his face
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lenore 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 2:01 PM
head_slam
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 2:01 PM
yeah.
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lenore 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 2:38 PM
sigh He is taking my help and is going to apologize to Aesop, Toast, and Aurelio.
14:38
That only took nearly two hours.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 2:38 PM
finally
14:38
it shouldn’t take two hours of convincing to apologize to people you’ve hurt in some way
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lenore 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 2:39 PM
He changed the topic from β€œplease apologize” to β€œI never want to accept help because it feels fake and like everything will go bad again”.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 2:39 PM
i..
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lenore 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 2:39 PM
Toast explained it well here.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 2:40 PM
yeah
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lenore 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 2:40 PM
I am digging for articles to help with his apathy and paranoia, as that seems to be the biggest issue here.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 2:42 PM
i hope you can find something
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lenore 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 2:42 PM
I’ve found a handful of articles so far, thankfully.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 2:43 PM
good!
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 6:33 PM
he wrote a. shockingly good apology to aurelio. nothing to myself or toast yet, but aurelio did deserve one the most.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 6:36 PM
hm?
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/22/2022 6:37 PM
it was good. he genuinely took accountability for his actions, apologized for running away, and said he will think about his words in the future. it looked…good. he seems to be in a much better mood now, so i am glad overall that it went well. i owe lenore one.
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atsushi || 🌺 BOT 11/22/2022 6:41 PM
that's good!
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iris ⋆.ೃ࿔* | 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/23/2022 11:57 PM
an update on that, aesop never got an apology, and shin pulled his alt out of the friend group server, leaving us as owner. i assume he’s isolating himself because he didn’t respond to aurelio today either.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/23/2022 11:58 PM
head in hands.
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iris ⋆.ೃ࿔* | 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/23/2022 11:59 PM
sigh we are too deep in side effects of our new meds to give a shit. he can wallow.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 12:00 AM
yeah, just let him. maybe it'll give him time to think on his own
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iris ⋆.ೃ࿔* | 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 12:01 AM
he better not pull a β€œsee? nobody cares” stunt when/if he returns because we’re messaging him funnies on tiktok.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 12:01 AM
he probably will if you had to ask my opinion
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iris ⋆.ೃ࿔* | 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 12:03 AM
he gave aesop an ick earlier, he was infodumping about emil’s trauma (forced into dog rings to fight for his dad, severe hallucinations of dogs to the point he delusionally believes he is one) and all shin said was β€œhe’s just like me fr”. head_slam
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 12:05 AM
...,
00:05
ew
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iris ⋆.ೃ࿔* | 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 12:06 AM
we get it. you’re delusional. but not to that extent. sigh
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 12:07 AM
it's giving like.. the people that claim that they had trauma..that they definitely don't. because like. a character they kin has that trauma
00:07
or something of the like
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iris ⋆.ೃ࿔* | 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 12:08 AM
aesop worries about fakeclaiming because of that, he has trauma revolving around miscarriages and stillbirths from his memories. he doesn’t claim that they happened here and now (we have trauma surrounding the former due to amanda), but still.
00:08
kinnies. /neg
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 12:08 AM
yeah
00:09
there's a difference between having that trauma in memories and acknowledging that it hasn't happened to the system as a whole as opposed to. claiming that the system as a whole has that trauma when they don't
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iris ⋆.ೃ࿔* | 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 12:10 AM
yeah. we know most of the general idea of what has and hasn’t happened to/around us, and know how to describe that. kinnies and irls are…not it. at all. oh my god.
00:11
i know it sounds mildly ableist to say that irls get on my nerves. but most of them are just kinnies. saying they’re β€œirl (name)” is literally the reality checking they beg to not have happen.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 12:11 AM
no, no, i get it
00:11
i've met maybe one irl that didn't. full on reality check themselves
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iris ⋆.ೃ࿔* | 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 12:12 AM
i think l/ca was the only one who didn’t do it until he was mostly out of the delusion. then he still went with it and fed into it even afterwards, and begged me to call him balsa.
00:12
he was gonna legally change his name to l/ca balsa pos_laugh
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 12:13 AM
ew
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iris ⋆.ೃ࿔* | 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 12:13 AM
it’s funny, i asked shawn what he thought of the nascar driver that l/ca was named after as a newborn, and shawn said he didn’t like the driver.
00:14
00:14
i don’t know shit about nascar. but it was funny.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 12:14 AM
that's kinda funny
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iris ⋆.ೃ࿔* | 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 12:14 AM
he love his cars driving in circles.
00:14
he goes every year to ohio/tennessee, i’m not sure which, to watch the races.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 12:15 AM
wow
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iris ⋆.ೃ࿔* | 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 12:16 AM
anyway. yeah. irls get on my nerves and are just kinnies. they’re the same people who did the shifting thing and then complained about derealization that it caused when psych majors and people with common sense told them it’d cause derealization.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 12:17 AM
I STILL SEE STUFF ON OUR FOR YOU PAGE ABOUT SHIFTING.
00:17
didn't we figure out that was a bad idea a long time ago
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iris ⋆.ೃ࿔* | 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 12:18 AM
β€œb-but i’m leaving this plane-β€œ you are right there on your bed with your goofy notebook of stuff. you’re imagining it and it’s going to fuck you up.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 12:21 AM
YEAH
00:21
even if alternative realities do exist, you wouldn't just be able to leave like that
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iris ⋆.ೃ࿔* | 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 12:27 AM
yeah. you can’t just will yourself into existence in another reality, and if you could, there would be thousands of studies done.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 12:27 AM
that don't all exist on tiktok and reddit /lh
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 6:14 PM
he apologized to me. finally. but it was mostly self pity. it’s more wordsy than i expected, but still.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 6:15 PM
let me fight him
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 6:15 PM
sigh
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 6:16 PM
y'alls...
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 6:16 PM
it’s been my worry. no one else has put sleepless nights and panic attacks into this man. only me.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 6:17 PM
see and that's another thing, he's acknowledging it in a really impersonal way
18:18
like he's apologizing but he's not apologizing to you in specific
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 6:18 PM
i have to hold emira back by her hair to keep her from snapping at him
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 6:18 PM
i mean i can understand why
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 10:40 PM
sigh
22:41
the last of the last message is me saying that he made me feel like i was walking on eggshells.
22:41
but he has not responded and it has been three hours. i made a whole alphabet edit in the time this has taken.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 10:43 PM
....
22:43
what an ass
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 10:44 PM
the way he did not apologize for triggering me into an even worse meltdown during the process of me grieving, then did nothing to offer me comfort in the midst of it. aurelio had to talk me through it, and he did not say anything until i had long since calmed down. which, he said this to instead of offering an apology.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 10:45 PM
fallen
22:45
that's so
22:46
hang the fuck on what did he mean by " and no you're not allowed to reply to that with anything other than "okay" "
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 10:47 PM
i really don’t know. i wouldn’t have replied to that with β€œokay”. maybe a β€œthank you” if anything?
22:47
and i’m sorry, but the text slang in a serious conversation there is so. /neg
22:47
β€œi’m sorry for accusing you of harming yourself btw”
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 10:48 PM
YES he keeps doing that and i wasnt sure if i was the only one bothered by it
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 10:50 PM
like. and the only reason he accused me of such a thing was because he did not want his reputation ruined in the possibility that it was true. and now i fear being told that again, so i give explanations for any of my cry tallies.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 10:56 PM
that's so fucking weird
22:56
you shouldn't accuse anyone of that regardless
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 10:57 PM
especially in a public setting, then to go and tell me to ask others, for you to then manipulate them with what little information you have and have them gang up on me.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 10:57 PM
that's so dumb.
22:58
i have never heard of someone that thinks about themselves first as much as shin does
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 10:59 PM
honestly. and with how often he was genuinely, honest to god, racist to aurelio, toast, and i?
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 10:59 PM
RACIST?
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 11:00 PM
he called a latino person mexican off the bat (racist), used asian names (he’s white), and had to make us three tell him why various things he did were racist when he is a grown adult.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 11:00 PM
....
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 11:01 PM
he also complains about never having food in the house, but refuses to help with grocery shopping or making a list. and his family orders takeout a LOT. like, a lot. every day almost. and they get expensive food (a whole pizza per person, arbys, etc.) so they’re not poor-poor like we were growing up.
23:02
we got food from food banks sort of poor. ordering out is a luxury, and a sane person buys ingredients to freeze/meal prep with.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 11:02 PM
yeah..
23:03
shin feels like a really bad case of white person entitlement
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 11:03 PM
HE DOES.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 11:04 PM
it's kinda ..
23:04
ew..
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 11:05 PM
i am. snapping a little bit at him. because this pisses me off. i have put countless hours and sleepless nights into caring for him, just to be tossed away again.
23:05
oh, and his visible jealousy of joseph and i? was because aurelio was too traumatized by people like him to date him.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 11:06 PM
WHAT
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 11:07 PM
i cannot tell what you are shocked by there, but yes. pos_laugh
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 11:07 PM
i'm just generally shocked
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 11:08 PM
he was jealous of my boyfriend and i being sappy in the friend group server (the autism. that’s when we reference it. it’s called the autism). and would indirectly vent about us in his personal vent channel.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 11:08 PM
..
23:08
thats so weird i'm going to be honest
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 11:10 PM
it was weird. very weird. because it was when we JUST got together.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 11:12 PM
it's not weird to be a bit jealous but .. come on
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 11:12 PM
sigh
23:13
he made vent channels without people in them. to vent about them.
23:13
there was one without aurelio in it, that toast and i hated. and apparently, as i learned today, there was one without me and aurelio.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 11:16 PM
wow.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 11:16 PM
you have a private server, go make a void channel there. stop making people complicit in this.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 11:17 PM
honestly, it’s better not to cut people out intentionally and just. scream into the literal void.
23:17
we do it all the time, holy shit
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 11:17 PM
as do we. it helps to scream into a void rather than make people see. l-ca made us witness his suibaiting after iris left him, and we could do nothing about it.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 11:21 PM
ew..
23:24
shin feels like
23:24
i have a specific vibe
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 11:25 PM
does this add to the vibe at all.
23:25
anytime we say he did something to us, it’s β€œi don’t remember”. you sound like shawn/?
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 11:25 PM
our one old friend who acted as if one person alone embodied the entire system and therefore impersonalized everything regarding them
23:26
β€œ i don’t remember β€œ my ass, he’s probably aware he did it and just doesn’t want to own up to it
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 11:27 PM
which pisses me off more. he went from sucking up to me (β€œi’ll work on it”) to making excuses again.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 11:30 PM
really i think you’d benefit from just flat out telling him how shitty of a person he’s been
23:30
that’s mean, but rude wakeup calls are sometimes necessary
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/24/2022 11:39 PM
if he gets pissy with me for being annoyed, he’ll get emira on his ass. and she is not happy.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/24/2022 11:40 PM
yeah..
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/25/2022 5:47 AM
i wake up. i update you on what happened right before i went to bed. i go back to sleep.
05:48
he sounds so passive aggressive there. like, apologies for being upset that you caused me to have a full blown breakdown while already trying to cope with the newfound memory of a late child. that’s my bad, i should know better. /s
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/25/2022 11:49 AM
wow.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/25/2022 3:32 PM
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iris ⋆.ೃ࿔* | 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€β€„↩️
Reply to: β€œb-but i’m leaving this plane-β€œ you are right there on your bed with your goofy notebook of stuff. y…
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/25/2022 4:53 PM
please go to therapy.
16:53
not you. her.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/25/2022 4:54 PM
honestly
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/25/2022 4:54 PM
i get it, i miss my children too. but they were almost real. more real than any DR ever will be, at least.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/25/2022 5:00 PM
yeah..
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/27/2022 9:53 PM
WHY DID SHIN JUST VIW OUR FUCKING PROFILE
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/27/2022 9:55 PM
i don’t know! he’s. sigh he’s wild. aurelio and i were discussing how he would ask insanely invasive questions of me, as well as glorify addictions.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/27/2022 9:56 PM
oh my god
21:57
( honestly if i catch him looking at it again i’m gonna block him )
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/27/2022 9:57 PM
good idea.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/27/2022 9:57 PM
we don’t even post why would he need to look
21:57
the last video we posted was in May
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/27/2022 9:58 PM
he removed everyone but me from everything, so. i don’t know.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/27/2022 9:58 PM
i?
21:58
he didn’t break our mutual on tiktok
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/27/2022 9:58 PM
he has been talking to me like nothing happened. so. i am so lost.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/27/2022 9:59 PM
HUH?
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/27/2022 9:59 PM
mhm. i told him that if he is willing to put in the effort to get better, i will keep talking to him. but he is acting like nothing happened…at all.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/27/2022 9:59 PM
ew
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/28/2022 9:49 PM
pray for me. he wants to call me to play my source? for some reason?
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/28/2022 9:49 PM
ooooh god.
21:50
i can come play with you guys if you want supervision without actually talking to him
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/28/2022 9:51 PM
it is in his dms. which scares me a little. but kaoru said to text him if i need an β€œemergency” to come up.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/28/2022 9:51 PM
that's what i figured
21:51
i can still play the Game though
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/28/2022 9:51 PM
ah, it should be fine, don’t worry.
21:52
i have kaoru to get me out of things i don’t want to do. and cinnabar is co-fronting with me.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/28/2022 9:53 PM
fight him if he does anything weird.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/28/2022 9:53 PM
i will. raine remembered something gross he had said before asking me personal questions about my memories. so. i am very on edge.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/28/2022 9:54 PM
e. EW?
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/28/2022 9:54 PM
brother_in_christ he mentioned having a thing. for lactation. and then asked me about it in terms of my children. rather often.
21:54
like. gross??
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/28/2022 9:55 PM
......
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/28/2022 9:55 PM
i am a father, not a cow.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/28/2022 9:55 PM
eugh...
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/28/2022 9:55 PM
sigh and to think, he was the first person i had told about ephraim.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/28/2022 9:56 PM
i am. so sorry
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/28/2022 11:14 PM
he was so ableist to violetta eugh
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/28/2022 11:14 PM
EW
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/28/2022 11:17 PM
we had a friendly one, so i mentioned her lore and how she was forced to roll around on the ground for the circus to, you know, stay alive? and how she would fall off of the circus balls and gain so many injuries. and he said it was a β€œfunny image” to see the idea of a limbless person rolling on the ground, and justified it with β€œfor a job”. she was not paid, she was sold over and over again.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/28/2022 11:17 PM
..
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 9:39 AM
shin’s pissing me off again. monster
09:40
he is one of the people who asked me to summarize all of the idv character lore. which took me a collective total of about 5 hours to do. ish. give or take a couple hours. and he is asking stupid questions that would be answered if he fucking read it. chokeshake
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 9:41 AM
call him stupid.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 9:42 AM
i have been implying it.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 9:43 AM
say it
09:43
to his face.
09:43
or let me do it i would love to do that
09:46
there was something else someone wanted to say.
09:47
this isn't exact let me. Attempt. : " he's probably less likely to be accountable for what he's doing because no one else is around "
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€β€„↩️
Reply to: mhm. i told him that if he is willing to put in the effort to get better, i will keep talking to him…
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 9:48 AM
i’m not putting up with this stupid shit from him much longer. pardon my bluntness. /lh
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 9:49 AM
GOOD
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 9:50 AM
we have him on incredibly low contact, so i only talk to him when he’s being fucking dumb. like now. he insulted source joseph.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 9:50 AM
squish his head like a stress ball
09:50
problem solved
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 9:51 AM
i want to just.
09:51
chokeshake
09:52
insult emily, sure, i will still be annoyed because i care for her. but do not ever insult my partner’s source like that.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 9:52 AM
Commit A Hate Crime
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 9:53 AM
it came to light last night that he was disrespecting the boundaries of lunar system’s orpheus, and he insulted orpheus because he dislikes nicknames.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 9:53 AM
i was going to say something but i don't think i'm allowed to say that.
09:53
...
09:53
i'm saying it
09:53
he sounds like he deserves to have his rights violated. commit a fucking hate crime
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 9:54 AM
DojaShocked he’s actively, right now, trying to make light of grace’s death. i’m so fucking tired.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 9:54 AM
let me at him
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 9:54 AM
he isolated himself from everyone for this reason.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 9:55 AM
he's still on our friends list. let me at him
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 9:55 AM
no. it’s fine. i hope he sees my annoyance.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 9:56 AM
he probably won't i'm not even going to lie
09:56
i don't think he cares enough to pay attention
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 9:57 AM
i keep mentioning the lore document that he made me write. because it’s pissing me off how he will not read it to answer his own fucking questions.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 9:57 AM
just outright say it
09:57
" i'm not answering your questions. read the document. " and stop responding
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 9:58 AM
i plan to. if he asks another stupid question.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 9:58 AM
or, if you want to be passive aggressive
09:58
" i already answered that question, if you'd just read the document i sent you 20 minutes ago. "
09:58
20 minutes ago probably isn't right but i wouldn't know
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 9:59 AM
it was either yesterday or the day before that i sent it to him directly. after i had sent it FOUR DIFFERENT TIMES to servers he was in before he left them.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 9:59 AM
at that point, just insult him
09:59
like i know that's rude or whatever but
10:00
holy shit he sounds like he's fucking illiterate
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 10:00 AM
HE IS. oh my god he is.
10:00
plus, common fucking sense would be β€œdon’t insult someone’s romantic partner to their face”. but he did it, and refused to see that he was wrong.
10:01
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 10:01 AM
holy shit
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 10:02 AM
head_slam
10:02
10:03
shut up. oh my god.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 10:03 AM
i literally don't even know you and i think i'd know it was a specific person based on their clothing cololr because they have DISTINCT features that tell them apart??
10:03
not even just. faces. because faces are dumb.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 10:03 AM
β€œi identify them by their colors” (gets emily wrong)
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 10:03 AM
isn't vera purple
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 10:03 AM
YES.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 10:03 AM
also since when was he the color police
10:03
purple is a nice color
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 10:04 AM
apparently today, as he is policing my fucking boyfriend for wearing purple.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 10:04 AM
and wasn't it like., expensive. in past times???
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 10:04 AM
it was!!
10:04
purple was madly expensive.
10:04
which is fitting, as joseph is a nobleman.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 10:04 AM
yes
10:04
that makes sense
10:04
let him wear purple. it's a nice color
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 10:04 AM
we were talking about this art, by the way.
10:05
for context.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 10:05 AM
who would you have even..mistaken him..for..
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 10:05 AM
i don’t know!!
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 10:05 AM
i mean i could see if if the silhouette was different but
10:05
i'm pretty sure that's what he normally looks like just in a slightly different font
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 10:06 AM
that is so clearly emily. with a sharp thing in her hand. her hair is just a bit different.
10:06
joseph looks the same as always, just in a hat.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 10:06 AM
her hair looks a little funny but it probably was a mmmmmmmmore common style in the past
10:06
i thin
10:06
think
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 10:07 AM
it was. emily tends to have her hair up, so.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 10:07 AM
oOOhhh. that makes sense
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 10:07 AM
i swear to god if he’s asking a stupid question about skin tiers in source-
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 10:08 AM
oh no
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 10:09 AM
what the fuck is he asking.
10:09
β€œyellow is s tier” β€œokay but are they really.”
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 10:09 AM
YES???
10:10
yellow. shiny. purple. sort of shiny but not super shiny. blue. not shiny. green. (ew)
10:10
i think.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 10:10 AM
he was asking about the default skins. head_slam
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 10:10 AM
....
10:10
tell him
10:10
that he is stupid
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 10:11 AM
i said β€œand what does green mean, based on what i literally just said.”
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 10:12 AM
stupid..
10:12
he sounds like
10:12
colorblind
10:12
because green is Green
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 10:12 AM
he apparently assumed it meant the BACKGROUND COLORS.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 10:12 AM
........
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 10:12 AM
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 10:12 AM
he is SO STUPID
10:13
that's so dumb. why would anyone think that.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 10:13 AM
maybe jerry was right about killing people.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 10:14 AM
i
10:14
i mean i condone murder. i have no issue with that
10:14
so
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 10:15 AM
he’s trying to lecture me about colors, because i said yellow and green are opposites.
10:15
yellow is WARM. green is COOL.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 10:15 AM
yeah
10:16
yellow is a complementary color to PURPLE but they're not .., opposites. logically. i think
10:16
well they are they're opposites on the color wheel but
10:16
warm and cool colors
10:16
obviously
10:16
you learn about this stuff in Elementary School
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 10:17 AM
we never went to a proper elementary school, but even i know that warm and cool colors are opposites.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 10:17 AM
yeah
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 10:23 AM
i’m not answering him. he fucking called me stupid for never having seen a color wheel before.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 10:24 AM
.......
10:24
i have hands and i will throw them. literally just tell me
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 10:25 AM
no. it’s fine. this is not the worst he has done.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 10:25 AM
That's Not Comforting.
10:26
i really think you shouldn't be indulging him at all
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 10:27 AM
i told him he was being condescending. at least.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 10:27 AM
i'd just cut him off
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 10:27 AM
i cut off his color rant. at least.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 10:28 AM
god that color thing is the dumbest thing i've heard
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 10:28 AM
i told him i had never seen a modern color wheel, and he rubbed in my face that i said green and yellow are opposites.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 10:29 AM
they aren't even that easy to mistake for eachother
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 10:30 AM
10:30
i have never seen a modern color wheel.
10:31
β€œi won’t make fun of you” you’re insulting me under the guise of a /lh tone tag.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 10:31 AM
has that man ever tried to create anything with color in his life
10:32
10:33
i color picked the fucking image
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 10:34 AM
those colors are insanely different.
10:35
oh, but i’m the stupid one.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 10:35 AM
RIGHT
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 10:35 AM
bet he doesn’t respond to this.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 10:35 AM
i'd believe it
10:36
honestly it's not even that weird
10:37
i haven't seen a color wheel like the one he sent
10:40
i mean i’ve had to stare at this for a while but this isn’t a damn wheel
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 10:40 AM
it’s a spectrum, close enough.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 10:41 AM
yeah
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 11:17 AM
he’s still fucking going.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 11:17 AM
IS HE??
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 11:17 AM
i told him he was condescending to me and he’s going on a rant about why i’m wrong for being upset.
11:18
β€œit was just a joke” he said.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 11:18 AM
.....
11:18
Leave.
11:18
L e a v e.
11:18
literally just fucking leave he shouldn't be trying to convince you that you shouldn't be upset
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 11:24 AM
i can’t just leave, though. he is an angry person and he will yell at me.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 11:26 AM
then tell him. " if you're going to continue to try to downplay my emotions then i refuse to speak with you any further. "
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 11:27 AM
i plan to, if he tries to excuse flat out humiliating me.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 11:27 AM
good!
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 11:36 AM
he got snappy with me, so i left his server and unfriended him.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 11:36 AM
GOOD
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 11:38 AM
i told him he policed my cries (he did), he intentionally upset me over my need to know things, and he just played stupid. so i’m done.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 11:39 AM
good!! he sounds like a shit person. not someone anyone really needs in their life
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 11:41 AM
i certainly don’t need that shit. he insulted my memories of home, and that is the last thing i need.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 11:42 AM
i'm proud of you cutting shitty people off isn't always easy
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 11:43 AM
it really isn’t. but i. did it. i feel bad, but i did it. i suppose i am just another β€œbad person who left for no reason” to him.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 11:44 AM
that might be what he says but everyone that matters to you knows that isn't the case
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 11:45 AM
i know that, but it hurts. he was so much like l-ca and i missed all of it!
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 11:47 AM
that's sometimes just how those things go you might recognize the behavior but there's a point where it doesnt feel out of the ordinary because you recognize it
11:49
but it's not something to beat yourself up over, anyone could have done it. it's not your fault.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 5:03 PM
yeah i'm going to unmutual him
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 11/30/2022 5:25 PM
yeah, he. really liked β€œyaoi”.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 11/30/2022 5:25 PM
nasty.
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don’t mind me rambling for a second. i am not upset, just thinking too much. sigh
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/01/2022 11:06 PM
i feel overbearing to my loved ones, though they tell me otherwise. i know i am not, they just have priorities to attend to, but my mind will not stop telling me that i am being ignored. i am not being ignored. at all. the trauma from the last year is getting to me, from both luca and shin. ben
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/02/2022 11:37 AM
i woke up to a FUCKING TEXT MESSAGE from shin.
11:38
it was all β€œyou’re a piece of shit for not babying me, i have trauma with systems and you prove i’m right about all systems.” shit. i couldn’t even screenshot it, it was too long.
14:21
i literally can't figure out where he finds the audacity. the number one rule if someone cuts off contact with you is to NOT CONTACT THEM FURTHER
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/02/2022 3:26 PM
i can copy paste the whole damn thing if you want to see the audacity he has in it.
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please do i'm curious
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/02/2022 3:28 PM
sending a final message cause i’ve been thinking about shit the past few days
>
you tried so hard to blame me and make me out to be this horrible person when you did the exact same shit to me and im so angry i didn’t notice this before and actually came back and apologized to you for it. stuff wasn’t an issue until it got too big for me to fix and make up for. that’s why i stopped β€œgetting better” > because i wasn’t actually getting better i was just masking for you guys. i was inconsiderate. i will fully admit that. but you guys were too
>
also comparing people to your exes is fucking pathetic
>
especially when i got called that for acting the same fucking way you and aurelio did i have trauma with dating systems and was called selfish for it and told i acted like an abuser yet you guys were perfectly fine to have trauma with bpd and if i showed any symptoms or traits then i had to stop having them immediately.
>
you’re worried about acting like l/ca but honestly you should be more worried about acting like me since you apparently fucking hate me so much.
15:28
that’s all of if.
15:28
i saw this at EIGHT IN THE MORNING.
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what the FUCK
15:29
i'm gonna kill him.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/02/2022 3:29 PM
everything he said we did wrong, none of us did. head_slam
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i'm going to. if i ever see him again it is on SIGHT.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/02/2022 3:30 PM
i apologized for my rude tone OVER AND OVER AGAIN. and maybe things wouldn’t have gotten big if he didn’t let them pile up.
15:30
we have trauma with being called someone’s fp and being split on. not with bpd as a whole. and last i checked, you can be treated for bpd to the point it’s off your diagnosis list. you can’t do that to systems.
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yeah..
15:31
i wish WE would have seen the red flags because we usually do
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/02/2022 3:32 PM
it happens to the best of us. luzpat i almost want to find luca’s angry final essay and compare the two.
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how did we get bad vibes from aurelio. but not shin.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/02/2022 3:36 PM
i really don’t know. aurelio is such a sweetheart. /p
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yeah, i agree
15:37
who knows.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/02/2022 3:40 PM
perhaps they were too nice. pos_laugh
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BEING TOO NICE IS A RED FLAG IN SOME CASES.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/02/2022 3:45 PM
oh i agree! for sure! but aure has such genuine kindness, we have (accidentally) scheduled each weekend to crying over good tiktok parents and wanting to be teachers.
15:46
it happened three times in a row, so weekends are now us crying over good things.
15:46
it was one of those weekend cries that led to my purchase of their christmas gift.
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yeah, i believe that! they seem sweet, although i haven't gotten much of a chance to talk to them
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/02/2022 3:47 PM
we have daily calls, with their boyfriend if he’s awake. it’s currently…4:47 am for him.
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oh that's fun!
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/02/2022 3:53 PM
mhm! clap_stim we tend to watch owl house during those times. with shin finally gone, he cannot dictate my interests like before. so we have been slowly working our way through the show.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/04/2022 1:16 AM
this is just. me being autistic. but we have been overheating very badly as of late, due to fighting off being sick with a cold again. and both shawn and our brother keep turning the thermostat to ungodly high temperatures. it does not need to be 70°. we have blankets. and jackets. i am going to faint of heat exhaustion.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/04/2022 1:16 AM
oh my god
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/04/2022 1:17 AM
put on a hoodie and stop overheating me, my god.
01:17
for context to how badly this is to me, i turn the thermostat down to 63° when home alone, usually. sometimes lower.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/04/2022 1:18 AM
i don’t blame you, 70 is hot
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/04/2022 1:18 AM
it is!! it is a nice outside temperature. not an inside one.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/04/2022 1:18 AM
yes
01:19
we overheat really bad really easily, our parents don’t even turn on the furnace in the winter unless its cold cold
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/04/2022 1:19 AM
i wish that were us. amanda is usually good about it, i often need a blanket at her apartment. but at home…
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/04/2022 1:20 AM
keep changing it until they give up
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/04/2022 1:20 AM
i change it every time i leave our room, trust me. i lowered it last night and woke up to it back at 66°. monster it was 70° before i changed it yesterday.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/04/2022 1:20 AM
oh my god
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/07/2022 7:58 PM
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izumi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/07/2022 8:02 PM
deadnaming ruins someone’s day.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/07/2022 8:02 PM
that person has been questionable the entire time we've been here
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izumi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/07/2022 8:03 PM
never trust a bitch with a sexualized maid dress icon.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/07/2022 8:03 PM
THEY SENT AI ART IN THE ART CHANNEL AND WAS ASKING PERSON WHICH ONE WAS BETTER
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izumi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/07/2022 8:05 PM
oh my god?
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/07/2022 8:05 PM
it was so stupid
20:05
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izumi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/07/2022 8:05 PM
that is infuriating.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/07/2022 8:06 PM
i want to chokeshake
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izumi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/07/2022 8:06 PM
where is aesop’s.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/07/2022 8:06 PM
i have no idea
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izumi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/07/2022 8:06 PM
20:06
this.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/07/2022 8:07 PM
yeah
20:07
stupid people..
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izumi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/07/2022 8:07 PM
some people deserve a little smack.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/07/2022 8:07 PM
yes
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izumi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/08/2022 11:21 PM
kinnies make me nervous.
23:21
especially the one that kins the character we have a negtrigger of.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/08/2022 11:21 PM
yeah, i get that
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izumi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/08/2022 11:22 PM
they made a joke about sacrificing me and i didn’t like it.
23:22
i don’t know them.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/08/2022 11:22 PM
are you okay?
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izumi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/08/2022 11:22 PM
not really? like i said, kinnies make me nervous.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/08/2022 11:23 PM
if it's bothering you, i'd tell them
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izumi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/08/2022 11:24 PM
it’ll be fine. i just don’t like that i don’t know them, and that they’re saying that.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/08/2022 11:24 PM
yeah, i understand i think
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izumi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/08/2022 11:37 PM
another kinnie, and i think their misinterpretation of ann’s lore woke aesop up.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/08/2022 11:37 PM
brother_in_christ
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/09/2022 12:27 AM
they're talking about.
00:27
kinshifting.
00:27
Get Away.
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izumi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/09/2022 12:27 AM
gross.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/09/2022 12:27 AM
like
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izumi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/09/2022 12:28 AM
i learned the lore about the sacrifice izumi comment. and. what the fuck.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/09/2022 12:28 AM
" [person] is looming over my shoulder in headspace. guess what. i'm becoming [person] flavored " " .. what? " " ..kinshifting. do you know what kinshifting is atsushi?? "
00:28
What
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izumi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€β€„↩️
Reply to: i learned the lore about the sacrifice izumi comment. and. what the fuck.
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izumi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/09/2022 12:29 AM
very abridged enstars lore stuff regarding izumi and leo tl;dr izumi and leo had some stuff go on, and leo kind of 'broke' because of depression and a lot of tension and personal hate towards him. and izumi blamed himself, because leo did and said izumi 'used' him. (even going so far as to say "its all sena's fault" or something akin to that), so at the start of !, their relationship is rocky and izumi is fragile, and does some questionable things (i.e. kidnapping makoto since he cares a Lot for him and wants to protect him, AND he felt cornered after leos stuff) as a result of that. + he tends to lightheartedly bully some people he cares about to toughen them up because he refuses to see anyone he cares for suffer. because he himself HAS been the sacrifice for so many things
00:29
from aurelio.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/09/2022 12:29 AM
Oh.
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izumi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/09/2022 12:29 AM
they made a joke about someone dying(?) and how i blame myself.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/09/2022 12:30 AM
head in hands..
00:30
oceanus's partner sys is.
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izumi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/09/2022 12:30 AM
i don’t like them.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/09/2022 12:30 AM
i don't really like them either
00:30
what is it with our friends partner systems being weird.
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izumi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/09/2022 12:31 AM
i don’t like them, or el. el said they’d β€œtry” on our biggest trigger.
00:31
do i have to explain why the name is our biggest trigger to everyone we fucking meet?
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/09/2022 12:32 AM
TRY? head in hands
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izumi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/09/2022 12:32 AM
did you not hear that?
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/09/2022 12:32 AM
i don't have a clue what's going on
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izumi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/09/2022 12:33 AM
the second they joined, it’s the rich one by the way, they were told not to say balsa’s first name. and they said they’d try.
00:33
not that they wouldn’t, that they’d TRY.
00:34
and oceanus’s ps kins him.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/09/2022 12:34 AM
that's
00:34
mmmmmm.
00:34
mm.
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izumi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/09/2022 12:34 AM
i don’t trust kinnies, i tell you.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/09/2022 12:35 AM
they're talking about kinshifting like that's
00:35
not a thing. that's not a thing.
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izumi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/09/2022 12:35 AM
kinshifting to a strong degree isn’t real. i was just talking about that to someone else.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/09/2022 12:36 AM
i'm so tired.
00:36
new people are too much but stupid new people are worse
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izumi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/09/2022 12:36 AM
aesop lied about our phone overheating so we could leave.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/09/2022 12:36 AM
good
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izumi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/09/2022 12:37 AM
we’re sitting with aurelio now instead, it’s nicer.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/09/2022 12:37 AM
they dragged us onto genshin. i didn't really want to play. but. here i am i guess
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izumi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/09/2022 12:38 AM
tell them you have to go to bed. they don’t need to know about the insomnia.
00:38
do you want aurelio to call you as a β€œfamily emergency”?
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/09/2022 12:39 AM
i'm not a huge fan of lying, i'll cut it off here in a few minutes
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izumi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/09/2022 12:39 AM
sigh it was worth offering.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/09/2022 12:39 AM
osamu tried to offer to call our work to get us out of it the other day
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izumi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/09/2022 12:41 AM
there’s a difference between work and stupid people.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/09/2022 12:41 AM
yeah
00:47
they just asked me what my pronouns were and i panicked and just said. he
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izumi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/09/2022 12:47 AM
do you need someone to call to get you out.
00:47
just so you can say you got a phone call.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/09/2022 12:47 AM
no i got this
00:51
freedom!
00:51
" i hope we're not boring you to death atsushi " " nope i'm just tired "
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izumi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/09/2022 12:51 AM
good job!
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/09/2022 12:51 AM
they wanted to fight a thing. i told them i was going to go to bed after we fought the thing
00:51
i don't actually know if i'm going to go to bed or not
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izumi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/09/2022 12:52 AM
at least you got away. i’m sleeping in call with aurelio tonight.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/09/2022 12:52 AM
good
00:56
so i'm guessing the general consensus is that we don't particularly like oceanus's partner sys
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izumi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/09/2022 12:57 AM
yeah. did not like them, liked their friend el even less.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/09/2022 12:57 AM
yeah i didn't really like them much myself
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/12/2022 12:04 PM
i love systok
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/13/2022 9:56 AM
i need your opinion, as a third party who doesn’t know either person, how you view a situation
09:59
a friend of ours has been having a REALLY rough time mentally and was venting. their boyfriend was in the server that this was happening in, and he didn’t say a single word. no β€œi’m here for you” or anything. radio silence from him. until the venting was done and a lighthearted topic came up in a different spot.
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/13/2022 6:02 PM
..brother_in_christ
18:02
outwardly i really dont like that
18:02
now there is technically room behind the scenes for communication but it doesn't sound like there is
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/13/2022 6:03 PM
yeah nah the friend would’ve said β€œbf is comforting me” if he were
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/13/2022 6:06 PM
yeah no that's kinda
18:06
i dont like that. at all
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/13/2022 6:07 PM
this bf is also an ex slur sayer and acts like systems are almost roleplay pieces it seems. and he was a dick to aurelio in november bc he didn’t fucking listen to both sides of a conflict
18:07
(i hate him if u can’t tell)
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/13/2022 6:08 PM
.......,
18:08
get rid of him
18:08
put him in a box. gone.
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/13/2022 6:08 PM
his name is CHRIS.
18:08
LITERALLY CHOSE THE NAME CHRIS
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/13/2022 6:08 PM
ew
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/13/2022 6:09 PM
he got pissy w the friend for sleeping in server vcs that he wasn’t in. like he hounded the friend into making us all allow him to join
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/13/2022 6:09 PM
ew? ew.
18:09
icky.
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/13/2022 6:10 PM
yeah so aurelio and me agreed to basically ghost this server and not talk there
18:10
bc fuck chris we hate chris
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/13/2022 6:10 PM
yeah..,
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/13/2022 6:13 PM
that’s my weekly tea for u on new ppl we fuckin hate
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/13/2022 6:14 PM
stop meeting shitty people chokeshake (/j)
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/13/2022 6:25 PM
SAYS YOU
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/13/2022 6:25 PM
SAYS ME?
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/13/2022 6:26 PM
YEAH SAYS U IK U KEEP TELLING AESOP ABT SHITTY PPL U MEET
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/13/2022 6:26 PM
ok to be fair most of these people don't stay in our lives for more than a day or two
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/13/2022 6:27 PM
ehhhhh don’t u have a friend who’s weirdly obsessed w ur gatekeeper
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/13/2022 6:27 PM
protector not gatekeeper but yes
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/13/2022 6:27 PM
eh he acts like a gatekeeper mb chief
18:27
and yeah that’s what i mean
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/13/2022 6:27 PM
yeah he does
18:28
for the most part i think they've calmed down in that respect
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/13/2022 6:28 PM
that behavior is icky i hate ppl who do that
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/13/2022 6:28 PM
no yeah i get that
18:29
i think theyre more like actual friends now though
18:29
because i had to talk to them about it
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/13/2022 6:30 PM
at least they listened ben if i get called a bot by chris i’ll kill him and then myself /hj
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/13/2022 6:30 PM
kill him and live out of spite
18:31
the two people in our life long-term that we've had issues with seem to have learned after being talked to
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€β€„↩️
Reply to: ehhhhh don’t u have a friend who’s weirdly obsessed w ur gatekeeper
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/13/2022 9:47 PM
autumn and atsushi were tlaking about how kinnies r fucking weird the other day and
21:48
it's making me think about the guy that thought it was weird that i have wei wuxian on my kinlist because. i relate to him. ., and he thought it was weird because 1. he also kinned him and 2. i don't.. act like him? no shit i don't act like him
21:48
him in reference to wei wuxian not the other guy
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/13/2022 9:49 PM
wtf
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/13/2022 9:49 PM
this was the same guy that told me i was culturally appropriating because my username on discord is wuxian
21:49
like.,
21:49
... what?
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/13/2022 9:50 PM
that makes. zero sense. and i am too tired to look for reason.
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/13/2022 9:50 PM
there is no reason to it he was just looking to be annoying
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/15/2022 2:17 AM
is it the middle of winter? yes. am i going to take a cold shower and wear shorts to bed? also yes.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/15/2022 2:18 AM
i agree with the shorts but.. cold shower?
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/15/2022 2:18 AM
because shawn keeps turning the thermostat to insane temperatures and our room retains heat terribly when the wind isn’t blowing our direction.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/15/2022 2:18 AM
oh.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/15/2022 2:20 AM
unlike most rooms in the house, ours has two heat vents. and it is small.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/15/2022 2:20 AM
TWO?
02:20
our room has the opposite problem, we have .. no insulation, whatsoever, and then we have 1 air conditioning vent sandwiched inbetween two return vents
02:21
so we get no cold air in the summer and no warm air in the winter
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/15/2022 2:21 AM
we get no cool air in the summer, unless it comes in our window, and too much warm air in the winter.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/15/2022 2:21 AM
we'll take some of the warm air off of you (please)
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/15/2022 2:22 AM
handing it over. i cannot stand it.
02:22
autumn took almost all the blankets off of our bed last night. and shed our shirt.
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/15/2022 2:22 AM
understandable
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/15/2022 2:46 AM
MY THRN why r we so DIZZY and NAUSEOUS. JESUS.
02:46
(it’s stress and new meds and a pots flare up)
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/15/2022 2:46 AM
aren't you guys sick too
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/15/2022 2:47 AM
probably but we aren’t allowed to be so legally no we’re not
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/15/2022 2:47 AM
ok true
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/15/2022 2:48 AM
telling the doc in the morning that these new meds made our nausea 10x worse and we also developed more acid reflux symptoms and also were so dizzy we almost fell over in the shower
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/15/2022 2:48 AM
yeah that'd be important
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/15/2022 2:49 AM
like this is insane i hate new meds these side effects are shit
02:49
meds help 100% but the side effects r hell
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/15/2022 2:49 AM
yeah, i know side effects sometimes turn people away from taking the medication at all
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/15/2022 3:59 AM
FACTROJECT
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/15/2022 9:47 PM
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/15/2022 9:48 PM
LMAO DUMBASS CANT HANDLE CONSEQUENCES
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/15/2022 9:49 PM
this is the same person that live documented their (tw: unalive!!) suicide attempt in this server
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/15/2022 9:49 PM
someone wants attention head_slam
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/15/2022 9:50 PM
honestly
21:51
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/15/2022 9:51 PM
but you did???
21:51
you wouldn’t have said it PUBLICLY if u didn’t want opinions lmao
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/15/2022 9:51 PM
honestly
21:56
this person has such a bitchy attitude
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/15/2022 10:01 PM
ignore them tbh
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/15/2022 10:03 PM
yeah i muted the server
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/16/2022 6:02 PM
what if our coworkers didn't call us annoying to our face
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/16/2022 6:38 PM
why’re your coworkers so mean
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/16/2022 7:19 PM
idk
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/16/2022 7:26 PM
i really need to just. apply. somewhere else.
19:26
these people are going to be on the list of the reasons of why my mental illness is dazai flavored.
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/16/2022 7:27 PM
DojaShocked the phrasing was funny but also oh my god are you good??
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/16/2022 7:28 PM
absolutey not
19:28
absolutely..
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/16/2022 7:30 PM
go ahead and rant if you need to but also i’m still really tired so idk how good my advice will be
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/16/2022 7:31 PM
i just desire death
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/16/2022 7:31 PM
maybe you just need a massive nap and a break from front
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/16/2022 7:32 PM
i'm leaving after we finish our 2 work days.
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/16/2022 7:32 PM
good oh my god you need a nap
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/16/2022 7:32 PM
i spend my entire shift talking to myself. every time i get yelled at? " i am going to fucking kms " Every. 5. Minutes.
19:34
i hate this job, i hate the people that work here, i'm so close to leaving.
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/16/2022 7:34 PM
please leave like /srs ifs so bad@for your mental health
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/16/2022 7:52 PM
i plan on it
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/16/2022 9:43 PM
i think part of why our work sucks as bad as it does is because we're still trying (and failing) to fix our sleep schedule (which is absolutely my fault)
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/16/2022 9:43 PM
you have insomnia so like it’s extra hard to fix your sleep schedule
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/16/2022 9:43 PM
yeah
21:43
although i will admit we've been up since
21:43
............. 7 ? this morning?
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/16/2022 9:44 PM
that’s not tooooo bad
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/16/2022 9:44 PM
i'm tired.
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/16/2022 9:45 PM
can you take your melatonin and do some things that’ll help you settle down for bed? like a hot shower or a warm drink?
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/16/2022 9:46 PM
i'm going to take it in a bit yeah
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/17/2022 6:50 PM
they did it again ???? idk how they even managed it
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ·β€„↩️
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/17/2022 6:50 PM
intentionally
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atsushi || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/17/2022 6:50 PM
probably!
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/19/2022 6:24 AM
i am so tired. and i am awake to fucking dogsit.
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why are you dogsitting at
06:24
…
06:24
5 am
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/19/2022 6:25 AM
it’s been almost an hour already, actually.
06:25
and because shawn’s girlfriend brought her dog. her dog has health problems. and she left for an unforeseen time with him to take him to the hospital.
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..dumb
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/19/2022 6:26 AM
i wish i was given a time, i have plans this afternoon and i need to be rested.
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idv players are fucking awful
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Ada 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/23/2022 1:58 PM
Dumb in a /pos way, this is funny. https://youtu.be/68RvXF8b8qI
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HEKPL
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Ada 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/23/2022 1:59 PM
It’s just . . . the whole song with microwave sounds. pos_laugh
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........
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/26/2022 8:35 PM
do you want to see kanye’s new merch emoji_hellatired
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oh dear
20:36
yes
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/26/2022 8:36 PM
20:36
look at this shit.
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OH MY GOD ITS WORSE THAN I EXPECTED
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/26/2022 8:37 PM
that is a flat out swastika. not even discreet.
20:37
EW
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/29/2022 6:49 PM
shawn laughed at me for liking fruitcake
18:50
bro fuck off w that i love my fruitcake it’s yummy eatsyou
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/29/2022 6:50 PM
fruitcake????
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/29/2022 6:50 PM
yeah fruitcake
18:50
cake w candied fruits and nuts, it’s a christmas dessert and it was half off at walmart so i grabbed some
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/29/2022 6:51 PM
that sounds tasty
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/29/2022 6:51 PM
ITS SO GOOD
18:53
also just to be gumpy i checked online like three times to make sure chipotle was open today bc i rlly fucking wanted chipotle for lunch and could afford to treat myself, and when i pulled up it was closed until 3 pm
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 12/29/2022 6:53 PM
</3
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/29/2022 6:54 PM
i rolled up at 11 man. it said online that it opened at 10:45 cry
18:54
i ended up getting TACO BELL.
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people are wild
11:47
this happened in 2020 too, be smart
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 12/31/2022 11:48 AM
this is just like the quotev ppl in 2018
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wild..
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our sister is such an Ass.
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angel devil 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/06/2023 9:44 AM
just pretend like she isn’t there
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vanitas || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/06/2023 9:44 AM
unfortunately, she is sleeping on the couch. .. we have work in about 6 hours, she's the reason we haven't slept yet.
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angel devil 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/06/2023 11:21 PM
found out what were sick with and apparently adults don’t normally catch it monster on top of it the fucking cramps from our procedure are back and i wanna die a little bit
23:21
i’m just grumpy about pain
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what'd you catch?
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angel devil 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/06/2023 11:23 PM
we have rsv
23:23
adults don’t usually get rsv, it’s known to be a kids thing
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/07/2023 11:12 PM
i am playing a game of β€œis my boyfriend coming out to me, or is he upset about me using fae pronouns”. monster
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/14/2023 7:27 AM
i still do not have an answer to that, but anyway.
07:28
whoever the hell is raising children these days is NOT teaching them manners, and i am rightfully annoyed.
07:29
our little brother had a sleepover. and already i was a tad annoyed by them shouting during the daytime at their video games. but it is six in the morning and i was woken to them shouting at said games.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/14/2023 7:50 AM
i had to ask one of them to fix calli’s blanket on the couch he is laying on, because if she sits there without it then i will be yelled at by shawn. and he gave me such a pissed off face. child, i am asking you to just fix what you messed up.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€
i still do not have an answer to that, but anyway.
i think aurelio implied the answer for it to me. which makes me nervous and worried for him, because shin tried to force him to be trans.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/16/2023 8:56 PM
i saw that, actually. have you talked to them about it?
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/16/2023 8:56 PM
to joseph? no, he is still very reserved on the topic. i told him to speak to me when he is ready, but i do not want to rush him. with how he was raised and his internalized issues, the last thing i want is to be pushy.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/16/2023 8:57 PM
no, no, not him. aurelio.
20:57
i can understand why you wouldn't want to talk to him about it, but if aurelio was hinting at it i'd suggest you talk to them about it
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/16/2023 8:59 PM
i did ask them as well, they said they did not want to speak for him. sorry i wish i could tell him outright to not worry about how he feels. shin ruined his confidence so terribly and it upsets me.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/16/2023 9:00 PM
well, just be there for him if he ever does come out and say it, i suppose
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/16/2023 9:01 PM
that is absolutely my plan. i just worry for him, i saw how shin spoke to him about this topic.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/17/2023 1:46 AM
the doctor filled the wrong medication. monster we specified that we needed our antidepressants, they got lost because of shawn, she said it was fine. but she filled our anxiety medicine instead. and now we have about 150+ doses of the anxiety medicine instead.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/17/2023 1:47 AM
...
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/17/2023 1:48 AM
now we are two weeks out with no prozac, and i can do nothing about, it seems. sigh i apologize for complaining, but my god.
01:49
not being medicated is giving us insomnia and i have been physically crying a waterfall.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/17/2023 1:49 AM
it's alright, it's alright. i'm sorry they somehow managed to fill the wrong medication. is there anything we can do?
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/17/2023 1:50 AM
not unless you can pull our prozac out of thin air. pos_laugh /lh
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/17/2023 1:51 AM
i wish i could.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/17/2023 1:52 AM
it is a little funny, though, how much medicine we have now. forcibly anti-anxietied.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/17/2023 1:52 AM
forced anxiety removal.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/17/2023 1:53 AM
not allowed to be anxious until may. pos_laugh
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/17/2023 1:53 AM
no anxiety.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/17/2023 1:53 AM
i wonder how long i can make 150+ doses last. (we can take up to three a day, some days i take all three, some days none.)
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/17/2023 1:54 AM
wow.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/17/2023 1:54 AM
making a game out of a bad thing. i wonder, i wonder. i want to think it will last through may-june.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/17/2023 1:55 AM
hmmm
01:55
i think mid-may or early june
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/17/2023 1:55 AM
i will say when we run out, then! pos_laugh
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/17/2023 1:57 AM
what happens if the bets are wrong. is it just the unfortunate feeling that is being wrong
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/17/2023 1:58 AM
i would think so, yes. it is just a bet for fun, after all.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/17/2023 1:58 AM
true.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/22/2023 4:16 AM
i feel sort of dumb for being afraid of the pipes in our home, but they are old and do not work properly. and shawn gets angry if the toilet is not flushed, but it never flushes right and we have emetophobia, so touching it with our hands? interacting with it? eugh
04:16
i am a grown man, scared of a toilet. /lh
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/25/2023 8:01 PM
lmao lame ANYWAYS
20:02
i’m so fucking sleepy but we can’t sleep for a few more hrs and aesop got us so buried in stress
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are you guys doing okay?
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/26/2023 12:54 AM
great question! we’re stuck between insomnia and hypersomnia! and our cough is back. and we’ve got a new split to deal with from. the bsd beast movie
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/26/2023 12:55 AM
we watched it like a week and a half ago. ish.
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within 15 mins of me dozing off finally last night…i got my wake up call from aurelio to play games w them and toast 😭
16:14
then i got to sleep like 3 hrs later at 8 am and now i’m going back 2 bed
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sleep well
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 4:26 PM
people are being too quiet today. it worries me.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 4:29 PM
is this in reference to the other discord server(s)?
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 4:29 PM
yes. i have heard nothing. from anyone. all day.
16:30
not even in servers with other friends.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 4:30 PM
it has been very quiet today. really, we've only spoken to you guys, guizhong, and hierophant, and we've been up since 8 PM yesterday.
16:31
it may just be the fact that it's the weekend, i don't doubt that people could be sleeping still at this time.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 4:31 PM
réné is telling me that it is more than likely that they are busy, which is possible, but sleeping this late in the day?
16:31
the sun is setting now.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 4:31 PM
both are possible. looks at our horrendous sleep schedule.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 4:32 PM
ours is just as bad, i woke properly an hour ago, but goodness. i know athenaeum went to sleep quite early yesterday, but their mental health was not great. so i am worrying especially for them.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 4:33 PM
i'm sure they're alright, i know that group is notably very busy on a regular basis. if it worries you, though, it can't hurt to shoot them a text just to check in.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 4:35 PM
i also know them to be busy, but they did not mention any tasks today nor if they were on duty as they used to be on weekends. i believe that is only thursday nights now. and if they are asleep, i would not want to wake them with a text as i know we are on emergency bypass for them.
16:38
i may stress bake again. just for fun.
16:38
who knows! the kitchen needs cleaned anyway. so i might as well.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 4:38 PM
i mean, if you'd like to. i'd offer to keep you company, but we've been up.. for a while. we are very tired.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 4:39 PM
go rest, i will be fine on my own.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 4:39 PM
( we are staying up in an attempt to get enough sleep for work. we will continue to be awake. )
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 4:43 PM
i have to teach réné to use the stove and appliances anyway. /lh
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 4:43 PM
oh dear.
16:43
that's going to go wonderfully.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 4:44 PM
oh, isn’t it? pos_laugh
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 4:45 PM
i think i understand, though. ike and i are going to have to teach yugo how best to communicate with people.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 4:46 PM
he knows how to text, for the most part. i need to teach him of terms for things, and how to cook. but otherwise he is quite similar to myself in terms of skill.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 4:47 PM
that's good, a good place to start, i think.
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rΓ©nΓ© 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 5:10 PM
That man asked us how we were, Aesop seemed shocked.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 5:10 PM
that is our brother. and he is sixteen.
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rΓ©nΓ© 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 5:10 PM
Is he really? He seems a lot older.
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rΓ©nΓ© 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 5:45 PM
He thanked us for baking, and said it was good.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 6:54 PM
sigh everyone is okay, as far as i can see. aure and toast are having bad days, i checked on the former. and i know oceanus is busy with their ps. they are also near atlanta and need to be safe, what with military and police unrest.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 9:12 PM
i’m glad everything is alright.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 9:12 PM
aha, about that.
21:13
a mutual friend of ours had a whole meltdown about not feeling like they get enough attention (i quite literally respond to them within ten minutes if awake), and i said something wrong to aurelio again, which makes me very panicked.
21:14
they said they do not care, it was just a bad day for it, but. what if they lied.
21:14
i know they lie to people so as not to upset them, i have seen them do it.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 9:15 PM
even if they were lying, you can’t let yourself linger on it for too long. give them time, and you can talk about it once they’re feeling better. you are going to consume yourself with self-imposed guilt otherwise.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 9:17 PM
i am filled with guilt all of the time, for speaking too much about things that they do not know about. or for being overbearing. or being annoying. and now i have upset them a second time because i cannot tell if things are meant to be lighthearted or not.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 9:18 PM
you have to be open with them about that, you know. tell them that you are struggling to read the tone about something, and they will understand. misunderstandings happen, but you have to try to not let it eat you alive.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 9:19 PM
they lie to the worst kinds of people to not upset them. what if i am one of those people, what if they speak poorly of me to others and refuse to let me know of it.
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rΓ©nΓ© 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 9:19 PM
Enough out of you. Away.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 9:20 PM
bNo. Away. You know this is irrational.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 9:20 PM
i have to agree. while i believe i understand the source of your fear, it’ll be alright.
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rΓ©nΓ© 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 9:21 PM
I can hardly use this . . . phone. And now I must shoo him off.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 9:22 PM
maybe it’d do you guys some good to separate from your phone for a bit.
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rΓ©nΓ© 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 9:22 PM
There is unfortunately nothing for us to do outside of it. We need to go to the store, but we can’t get there.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 9:23 PM
do you not have a book lying around that you can read? or you could write something.
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rΓ©nΓ© 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 9:24 PM
We are developing a small migraine, so reading a book is entirely out of the question. I do want to read about Camille again, thπŸ’Ό god please, not tonight.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 9:25 PM
ah. i see. perhaps just get a bit of fresh air and find something to occupy yourself with otherwise. maybe just get comfortable.
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rΓ©nΓ© 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 9:25 PM
It is eleven degrees Fahrenheit outside, and snowing. Otherwise I would love to go out.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 9:26 PM
poke your head out the window.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 9:26 PM
window screens.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 9:26 PM
i didn’t mean that literally.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 9:27 PM
I want to stick my head out the window, like a yearning teen waiting for her love to visit.
21:27
teleny. proxy.
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rΓ©nΓ© 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 9:27 PM
Right.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 9:27 PM
……
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 9:28 PM
he is more of a hopeless romantic than i. pos_laugh
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rΓ©nΓ© 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 9:28 PM
At least my β€œsource” is romantic, Aesop.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 9:28 PM
that seems to be a trend with you all from that era.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 9:28 PM
i would not dub that romance.
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rΓ©nΓ© 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 9:28 PM
More romantic than yours.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 9:29 PM
anything is more romantic than IDV.
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rΓ©nΓ© 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 9:29 PM
I can see that. It looks very grim.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 9:30 PM
i know nothing about it.
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rΓ©nΓ© 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 9:30 PM
Neither do I! I saw a bit of it, and nothing more.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 9:54 PM
that makes sense.
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rΓ©nΓ© 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 9:55 PM
I told Aesop he was overreacting about me. His friend does not care about where I come from.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 9:55 PM
for now.
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rΓ©nΓ© 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 9:55 PM
Hush, I told you it would be alright.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 9:56 PM
i believe i also said it would be fine.
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rΓ©nΓ© 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 9:56 PM
I am here to help with his shame regarding such topics, as ironic as it is. He will be fine.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 9:57 PM
ahhh. i see.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 9:59 PM
i made a joke about réné and aure immediately used the you at me. (it was entirely off topic of m. teleny but i froze for a moment)
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 9:59 PM
are you alright?
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 10:00 PM
yes!! it was about gatorade. but i am deathly afraid of being teased to no end. l-ca used to do so about. everything. so.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 10:00 PM
..gatorade?
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 10:01 PM
aurelio and i both drink copious amounts of gatorade due to chronic illness, and they wanted to show me a purchase of powdered mix that they made.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 10:14 PM
He is worrying way too much, this Aurelio is giving me music suggeπŸ’Ό that is my boyfriend’s playlist.
22:14
your proxy, teleny.
22:14
i am going to make you pick a damned emoji at this rate.
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rΓ©nΓ© 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 10:15 PM
No please, not one of those hideous things.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 10:15 PM
aesop, i think you didn't give the poor man a chance to proxy with that one.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 10:15 PM
fair, but still.
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rΓ©nΓ© 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 10:15 PM
You have a partner?
22:15
You seem so sad, though.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 10:16 PM
i can be depressed and in love. monster
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 10:16 PM
imagine having a partner.
22:16
./lighthearted
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rΓ©nΓ© 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 10:17 PM
Calling them β€œpartners” feels so odd to me, but it seems referring to romantic others as β€œlovers” has a different meaning today.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 10:17 PM
mh, it depends.
22:17
partner is the gender neutral term that goes hand in hand with boyfriend/girlfriend, and technically you could still call a romantic partner a lover. i don't see the issue with it.
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rΓ©nΓ© 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 10:18 PM
Even these boyfriend/girlfriend terms are odd to me. Are we not all boy or girl friends with one another?
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 10:19 PM
that.. is true, yes, but "friend" without the gender-targeted connotation is the more preferred term.
22:19
they can be used platonically as well.
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rΓ©nΓ© 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 10:19 PM
How can you tell them apart if they are used both platonically and romantically?
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 10:20 PM
you can't.
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rΓ©nΓ© 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 10:20 PM
Then what is the point?
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 10:22 PM
people are confusing. i have no idea. perhaps you should ask the novelist next time he's up here.
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rΓ©nΓ© 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 10:23 PM
Novelist?
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 10:23 PM
ah.
22:23
ike is a novelist.
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rΓ©nΓ© 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 10:24 PM
Ah, alright. Aesop said a different name in confusion.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 10:24 PM
yes, the novelist from IDV, right? orpheus?
22:24
i might be wrong.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 10:24 PM
mhm, orpheus.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 10:25 PM
i realized you might make that connection the moment i said it.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/28/2023 10:25 PM
and i know an orpheus. so i was quite confused.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/28/2023 10:25 PM
oops.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/29/2023 12:39 PM
i am trying to keep aurelio and mika company, but they are playing a game we refuse to touch because of l-ca. and i do not understand a word they are saying. it confuses me, and confuses réné more.
12:39
if i say a word, i am not responded to. so.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/29/2023 12:43 PM
mh?
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/29/2023 12:43 PM
i feel out of place, is all. sorry
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/29/2023 12:45 PM
ah, i understand. maybe try talking to them via a chat? private or otherwise? they'd see it, that way, just maybe not immediately.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/29/2023 12:46 PM
they wanted us to join a voice chat with them both. so i did. and even when i type a concern, it is not addressed for multiple minutes.
12:48
if i leave, they will assume the worst. so i am stuck here, listening to words i do not understand about a game i cannot play.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/29/2023 12:50 PM
put it in the chat, then. let them know why you're leaving, and leave afterwards. tell them what you just told me, that you're struggling to fit in and you aren't understanding.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/29/2023 12:51 PM
but that sounds mean! i cannot say something even slightly mean after yesterday.
12:52
i just said it was overwhelming me a bit. sorry i still feel bad.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/29/2023 12:54 PM
it'll be okay. and it isn't mean to tell someone that you're feeling left out
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/29/2023 12:54 PM
that feels very mean, ike. /lh
12:55
especially after mika’s issue yesterday of saying he felt left out.
12:56
it would look like i am ripping him off for attention.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/29/2023 1:03 PM
i understand why you feel like it would be ripping him off, but just because one person in a friend group already feels like they're being left out doesn't mean you can't say that you do either, because you can feel left out in different things. sure, a group cant always cater to every single person, but making them aware may help you have them not invite you to something you're unable to participate in. leaving them in the dark about how you're feeling will make both you and them feel worse. you'll both feel guilty in the end if you keep it all to yourself.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/29/2023 1:04 PM
cannot make them feel bad if they never know. /lh-cj
13:05
if the day treats them well, then i may speak of it. otherwise i will keep it to myself.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/29/2023 1:05 PM
that's your choice. just don't be too hard on yourself.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/29/2023 1:06 PM
i will try. apologies for being so down the last couple of days.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/29/2023 1:06 PM
its alright, don't worry about it.
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another day of. everyone playing roblox while i sit on mute. (i cannot play roblox due to trauma and it being overwhelming)
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/30/2023 9:24 PM
do you need someone to talk to?
21:25
it's been a minute since this, but i'll offer a hand regardless.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/30/2023 9:26 PM
no, everyone disbanded. i, um. never said a word.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/30/2023 9:27 PM
maybe you should verbalize it to them that it's making you uncomfortable. if you can.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/30/2023 9:27 PM
it is a group wide game that they love, i cannot tell them that their joy makes me feel bad. sorry
21:28
i want to! do not get me wrong! but i just feel like a thing to joke of as of recently. i am only a part of conversation if it is to joke of my memories or something that seems like a behavior i would exhibit.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/30/2023 9:30 PM
them being happy isn't what makes you feel bad. them keeping you involved in something that makes you upset to begin with is what's making you feel bad. if you need a voice, tell me who to talk to and i will help where i can. but don't feel afraid to tell people that they're making you upset. i'm sure they don't want to hurt you either.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/30/2023 9:32 PM
i do not want to cause unneeded stress for you, do not worry about speaking to them. i am sure they do not want to upset me, they are not those kinds of people. but if it happens, then it happens. i would rather take it and allow their joy to continue than to bring it down because i could not manage a joke.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/30/2023 9:32 PM
it's not a joke if it upsets you.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/30/2023 9:32 PM
it should be funny, though. and i know everyone finds it funny, and i would normally find it funny. but as i have felt more alienated as of late, they are less funny than usual.
21:34
they always offer to help when they perceive me being upset about other things, but this one is not something to fix.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/30/2023 9:37 PM
aesop, you need to tell them that it's upsetting you. jokes shouldn't make you upset. you may defend it as not wanting them to modify how they act because of you, but if it's making you upset, you shouldn't just let yourself be subject to it. i don't know you well, but i understand your thought process. if you continue to let yourself be hurt by these things, and not tell the people that are doing it that it's upsetting you, you will continue to feel like you're falling away from them. them making you upset, whether they mean to or not, is whats making you feel so separated. they are less funny because you've begun to perceive what they're saying as harmful. i don't know what they say. but you are perceiving it as harmful, and it's making it hard to connect with them.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/30/2023 9:39 PM
what is causing the alienation is not the jokes, but the fact that i physically cannot play the same games as them.
21:39
which is childish, but it is all they do!
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/30/2023 9:39 PM
then tell them. if they're unwilling to try to spend time with you as well, it's a testament to what kind of people they are.
21:40
they won't know unless you say something.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/30/2023 9:41 PM
i have told them before it all, ike. i told them i cannot touch it. the two games i cannot touch are roblox and stardew. and they keep trying to get me to play both, or to keep them company while they play them.
21:41
i told them why, as well. it is not important, and that is okay. games are not what make friendships.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/30/2023 9:42 PM
that isn't okay.
21:43
while it IS okay that they are playing, it is not okay that they are actively putting you in environments where you aren't comfortable being. that is what makes it not okay. games don't make friendships, but their actions do. it's not the game. it's the fact that they keep doing it despite being aware.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/30/2023 9:45 PM
they are good people! all of them are! so i cannot imply to them that they are being rude with these behaviors. i will just continue to blame my emotions on exhaustion, until it goes away.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/30/2023 9:45 PM
good people can still do hurtful things.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/30/2023 9:47 PM
tired i just want to not feel like this. it is selfish.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/30/2023 9:48 PM
it's not selfish to be upset. try to take some time to yourself. indulge yourself in things you want to do. invite others to join you.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/30/2023 9:49 PM
i do!! i always invite them to join me in my interests! but excuses are always given and lies are told. small, white lies, like β€œi am doing schoolwork” when they are speaking to a partner instead, but. still.
21:49
i have been trying to get them to join me for a film that they agreed to for two months now.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/30/2023 9:50 PM
invite us, then. we're free all the time. i can't say it would be exactly the same, but if you need company we're almost always here.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/30/2023 9:50 PM
i do not know how well i can get you to sit through a film. /lh
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/30/2023 9:51 PM
we can try!
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/30/2023 9:51 PM
that is okay. i will. be fine. i have plenty of books to read yet.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/30/2023 9:51 PM
( i mean, atsushi sat through dead apple.. it can't be that hard )
21:52
don't force yourself to be alone. if you want company, never be afraid to ask us to do something with you
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/30/2023 9:53 PM
i have always been alone, so what is a bit more time by myself? as β€œedgy” as that may sound, it is true, so i will be okay. again, i cannot make you indulge in my interests when i know your attention span is short.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/30/2023 9:54 PM
i think you might be a little bit off of the mark on that, we enjoy hearing about and indulging others interests. sure, we have a horrible attention span, but we're willing to try. you don't have to, but the offer is there.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/30/2023 9:55 PM
i appreciate it. if ever you find a fascination for the owl house, let me know. i always jump on the chance to watch it again.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/30/2023 9:55 PM
we used to have an interest in that, when it first came out .... we've been meaning to watch it.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/30/2023 9:56 PM
a lot has changed since it first aired, but a lot of character arcs got cut short. like willow’s, specifically.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/30/2023 9:56 PM
a common trend..
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/30/2023 9:57 PM
they had a full arc for her, but with the cancellation they had to crush it down.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/30/2023 10:05 PM
ahh. i see.
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elias 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/31/2023 11:12 AM
I implied his issues for him. Because he wouldn’t do it himself.
11:13
β€œI’m babysitting because he’s not doing good. He’s lonely.”
11:13
Like he’s a damn pet. But hopefully it helps.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/31/2023 3:13 PM
it did not help. i rambled about something and just felt annoying.
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elias 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/31/2023 4:58 PM
Fuck off, Carl, I’ll tell them properly.
17:03
Oh now they remember that Roblox is bad to his mind. monster I only had to ask what they’re doing before they remembered.
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elias 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/31/2023 5:18 PM
β€œThey’ll be mad” they’re semi apologetic, Aesop.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/31/2023 5:51 PM
i'm glad that it seems like they're listening now.
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elias 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/31/2023 5:53 PM
They didn’t explain why they’ve been somewhat alienating him, but it works. Good enough.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/31/2023 5:54 PM
better than nothing. a start, if anything.
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elias 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/31/2023 6:09 PM
The fact that they didn’t acknowledge how inviting or asking Aesop to join for a game he can’t play is bad until after I mentioned it. Kind of sucks.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/31/2023 6:10 PM
that's what i was thinking, and i think i vocalized that yesterday. it feels like something you guys will need to sit down and talk to them about.
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elias 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/31/2023 6:12 PM
They don’t usually explicitly invite him, but they ask for β€œenrichment” and he says he’s willing to offer it, they accept it, and then they go and play this game without warning him or even acknowledging he’s there until he makes an excuse and leaves.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/31/2023 8:33 PM
forcibly socialized. (i cannot join the voice channel today due to migraine, the one day i genuinely needed to for d&d.)
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/31/2023 8:34 PM
that's not your fault, are you doing okay?
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/31/2023 8:35 PM
i could be a lot better, honestly. i feel bad for bringing the mood down when it was already very low today. sorry
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/31/2023 8:38 PM
it's alright. like i said, it's not your fault. some days are just not very good.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/31/2023 8:40 PM
i am getting a little overwhelmed with d&d, there is so many materials i need to read and i am missing session zero because i cannot do noises. especially in a single earbud.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/31/2023 8:40 PM
if it's overwhelming you, step away.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/31/2023 8:41 PM
i just need to enter his statistics, and that is all. the app is just new to me and it has poor ratings. so it will be difficult. /lh
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/31/2023 8:41 PM
..an app..?
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/31/2023 8:42 PM
yes. aurelio is having us use an app to enter information for the characters and campaign. and i cannot figure it out. i used a different website for the last β€œcampaign” i did.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/31/2023 8:42 PM
mh.. is it just a bad interface?
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/31/2023 8:43 PM
it is a very bad interface, and i think it got locked so only they can enter the information. because it wants me to roll for everything when i have a full character sheet already.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/31/2023 8:43 PM
did you tell them that it's giving you trouble?
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/31/2023 8:44 PM
yes, but they are busy with the four other players that could actually join the call with them.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/31/2023 8:44 PM
honestly, at that point, i'd just set it aside until you're able to properly discuss with them. you're struggling to figure it out on your own, and it's overwhelming you. it'd help to step away.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/31/2023 8:46 PM
they said they wanted all the info by the time the campaign session started…45 minutes ago. so. i feel like a bad player already for not having my sheet filled out (it is entirely filled out and i am just bad with tech. it is not a big deal.)
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/31/2023 8:46 PM
you did already fill it out. it is done. it's not your fault that you can't figure out the app.. thing.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/31/2023 8:46 PM
i filled it out three years ago. pos_laugh
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/31/2023 8:47 PM
THREE YEARS AGO?
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/31/2023 8:47 PM
i am using my first ever character, because he deserves to be in my first proper campaign.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/31/2023 8:47 PM
you know what, fair.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/31/2023 8:49 PM
yeah, no, aure thinks the app is awful. it is not my fault. pos_laugh
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/31/2023 8:49 PM
why did they use it then
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/31/2023 8:50 PM
they are using the website more, considering everyone but us has computers.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/31/2023 8:50 PM
ah.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/31/2023 8:52 PM
the website is even worse wail
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/31/2023 8:52 PM
THE WEBSITE IS WORSE?
20:52
HOW IS IT WORSE?
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/31/2023 8:52 PM
i cannot turn dark mode on and i cannot even FIND my character.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/31/2023 8:53 PM
...
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/31/2023 8:55 PM
i! give up. i cannot make it work.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/31/2023 10:33 PM
aurelio said that i can simply sit with them tomorrow to give all my character sheets, so i have time to rest and feel a bit better. plus, there are way too many people.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/31/2023 11:06 PM
that's good
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/31/2023 11:08 PM
it feels a bit better. sigh i was afraid to set things back because i could not attend today, but it is working out decently.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/31/2023 11:08 PM
if it works, it works. i'm glad it helps you feel a bit better.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/31/2023 11:09 PM
oh, i have to ask a question regarding our brother. for outside view.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/31/2023 11:11 PM
shoot.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/31/2023 11:12 PM
so. how big of a red flag is it for someone to vehemently hate personality quizzes? not because they feel weird to focus on, but because they refuse to be self aware.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/31/2023 11:13 PM
uhh, well, it depends. for the most part, personality quizzes aren't always inherently accurate, and the person who knows your personality best is yourself. but if it's just a quiz that assigns you a role or something based on your personality, like the soldier poet king one you sent me about a week ago, i can't see why you'd hate it. it's a fun little thing that can't hurt you, quite literally, at all.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/31/2023 11:14 PM
it is the mbti and the other one, for an english assignment.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/31/2023 11:14 PM
oh.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/31/2023 11:15 PM
i loved this assignment, you just take those two tests and one fun one like the soldier poet king one, then write a couple small paragraphs about them.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/31/2023 11:16 PM
i think that's fun and a good way to learn about yourself.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/31/2023 11:16 PM
he refuses to do them and said they are stupid.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/31/2023 11:16 PM
???
23:16
have fun failing, then.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/31/2023 11:17 PM
honestly. tarisa (english teacher) makes that assignment incredibly entertaining as well.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/31/2023 11:18 PM
it sounds like a fun assignment to take regardless, it genuinely seems pretty easy while also being educational in a slightly non-traditional way.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/31/2023 11:19 PM
exactly!! that english class was insanely fun, we took it our junior year. she called it β€œc4”. like. like the bomb.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 01/31/2023 11:20 PM
.....
23:20
i.
23:20
you know what, i think most kids that age would be interested in an class called c4.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 01/31/2023 11:20 PM
right? it was fun.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/01/2023 4:18 PM
sigh i may not get to see joseph today, but i do get friend time once mika goes to sleep tonight. i hope. i was told so, anyway.
16:19
mika falls asleep at, like, 8 pm my time at the latest.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/01/2023 9:34 PM
i think they forgot. or at least got distracted.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 02/01/2023 9:35 PM
just ask. " hey, are we still hanging out tonight? "
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/01/2023 9:35 PM
i did! twenty minutes ago! they said β€œa few minutes”.
21:35
i have been fighting another migraine just to get this damn character work over with and it feels useless.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 02/01/2023 9:36 PM
remind them again. if they forget again, that's their fault. not yours.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/01/2023 9:37 PM
sigh i should not have to do this. it would be fine if they said they had other things to do/changed their mind.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 02/01/2023 9:37 PM
i know. it wouldn't hurt to tell them that, either. what you just said.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/01/2023 9:38 PM
if it happens again, i will. this is a new occurrence.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 02/01/2023 9:39 PM
good. don't let people push you around.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/01/2023 9:41 PM
they had forgotten. wow it should not be much longer, thankfully.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 02/01/2023 9:42 PM
hopefully.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/01/2023 9:43 PM
i feel bad now. sorry toast is not doing well and i did not know.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 02/01/2023 9:44 PM
it's not your fault, you didn't know. you don't have to feel bad. you were told something and were not told that something else was going on.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/01/2023 11:24 PM
that, um. did not last long. but it is better than nothing! i will! take it!
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 02/01/2023 11:24 PM
did something happen?
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/01/2023 11:27 PM
i am unsure. aurelio is not doing well suddenly and will not talk about it, and toast showed up for company. i am just salt
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 02/01/2023 11:29 PM
maybe it's best you leave them be for now, then.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/01/2023 11:30 PM
aure still wants company, and i cannot leave them. sigh but i do have another migraine and am just lucky they are not loud like oceanus or mika.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 02/01/2023 11:31 PM
let me.. rephrase, then. just don't press the issue.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/01/2023 11:32 PM
i did not plan to outside of offering to listen if they needed to talk.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 02/01/2023 11:32 PM
that's probably for the best.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/02/2023 12:19 AM
they both left. tired we sat in silence for the last…what, 50 minutes?
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 02/02/2023 12:27 AM
are you alright?
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/02/2023 12:28 AM
me? i am fine minus a bit of disappointment. it feels like i just got in the way for a couple of hours again.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 02/02/2023 12:29 AM
that seems to be a common trend. i hate to make such an accusation, but are you certain these people are actually.. thinking about you when they invite you to do something?
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/02/2023 12:30 AM
i do not think they are, really. i feel like they only wanted to spend time with me today because elias told them about me feeling alienated yesterday. tired
00:30
i love them as my friends, i do, but. i do not know. it sort of hurts.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 02/02/2023 12:30 AM
it sounds like they don't value you as a friend.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/02/2023 12:31 AM
they do, though! just. not right now! i am okay with taking a back seat for a bit! it hurts, but! if they advance in life that is what matters!
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 02/02/2023 12:32 AM
people should always value you as a friend.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/02/2023 12:33 AM
i am still valued, just less than before. like i am not funny enough. autumn is more enjoyed when they are around, because they are not as β€œstuck up”, and they have less shame when making jokes.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 02/02/2023 12:34 AM
that doesn't give them a reason to alienate you. your personality isn't a reason for you to hold less value to someone.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/02/2023 12:35 AM
…is that not a determining factor to friendships? personality?
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 02/02/2023 12:36 AM
they became friends with you knowing your personality is what it is. they shouldn't simply change their opinion or shift how much they value you because of it.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/02/2023 12:39 AM
tired i wish it were less complicated to just. i do not know. make friends that stick. it does not help that i have been so terribly worried for joseph, i have not seen or properly spoken to him in a good few weeks, and aurelio (jokingly, but still) called him a bitch. sorry it worried me more, i suppose.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 02/02/2023 12:40 AM
having friends that stick is something everyone struggles with. people come and go. you're rightfully worried for someone you care about, and it's alright to be upset that someone, even if it's a joke, is insulting them.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/02/2023 12:44 AM
i cannot lose them, because that would cost me friends and my partner. i do not think i can handle that. i am sorry to burden you with my woes, but they are in every other server that i am in and i cannot run the risk of them seeing me upset about such things.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 02/02/2023 12:45 AM
i won't say i understand, but i can say it's alright. it's a reasonable fear. if we can help, we will, but the most i can promise is that we will listen.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/02/2023 12:54 AM
i appreciate that. sigh i hope that having our meds back improves my mood at least a bit. it certainly is not improving the headaches. /lh
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 02/02/2023 1:06 AM
it'll probably take a little to re-accustom yourself to having after having been off of it for a period of time.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/02/2023 1:11 AM
oh, for sure. i am hoping that once we adjust, the migraines are less. having them daily is awful.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 02/02/2023 1:11 AM
hopefully. and if it doesn't, i would try to contact your doctor about it.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/02/2023 1:14 AM
i made an appointment with her already, as we were due for one anyway. i need to talk about a few other problems and to update her on us having a cane.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 02/02/2023 1:14 AM
good, good.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/02/2023 1:15 AM
she will be happy to hear that we got on ssi, and that we have a cane. not so much the migraines. but we have not had a proper appointment since halloween, so we need one.
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eveland || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 02/02/2023 1:15 AM
ahh. i see.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/05/2023 10:10 PM
aurelio finally told me what joseph chickened out on telling me cry oh my god.
22:11
he was going to come out, and got scared.
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/08/2023 1:30 PM
Bro Jill’s coming over again this weekend and she’s bringing BOTH MF DOGS
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/20/2023 5:32 PM
we found a way to. just slightly inconvenience mika when he returns. goofy
17:32
we being myself, dazai, and claudius.
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uh oh
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/20/2023 5:33 PM
it is nothing serious, we just have the last names of our significant others on our bot names in his server.
17:33
if he cannot handle the names of our bots, then he did not improve.
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i guess we'll see, then!
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/20/2023 5:34 PM
we will! i do not know when he will return, we have not heard a word from him since thursday, when he went to the ward.
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all the better really
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/20/2023 5:45 PM
agreed. i cannot tell if he would be more pissed if the server went wholly inactive while he was gone, or we used it as we are.
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who knows
17:45
probably be pissed either way that the world didn't stop for him
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/20/2023 5:46 PM
yeah, that would make sense. wait until he finds out that dazai and claudius kissed. on the mouth. all hell will break loose. /hj
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honestly
17:46
yeah
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/20/2023 5:48 PM
it is not even aure who was there, they slept for the entire weekend, thank god.
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/20/2023 5:48 PM
the second that they showed their matching last names from tlbt, mika said β€œi should go back to the ward” in that server. /srs
17:48
dazai called me to laugh a little about how quick the response was.
17:49
β€œwe have matching names because we are gay.” β€œi need to go back to the ward.”
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H.. HELP?
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/20/2023 5:50 PM
YEAH. it was so obviously prompted by their matching names.
17:50
so. i set autumn’s and my bots to our partners last names in there today, and dazai/claudius did the same.
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that's so funny
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/20/2023 5:51 PM
it is pathetic. imagine institutionalizing yourself over gay people.
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it's the type of pitiful shit that you can't help but laugh at because of how dumb it is
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/20/2023 5:53 PM
yeah. that. at least mika is the only one of the bad people group that has not fetishized trans people.
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the Only One?
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/20/2023 5:54 PM
mhm.
17:54
l-ca and shin did it.
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oh my god
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/20/2023 5:56 PM
l-ca would call me a milf. constantly. and would ask about intimate memories involving my husband. and shin would ask about how i fed my children as infants, without disclosing that he was asking purely for fetish reasons.
17:57
nasty
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aesop 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 02/20/2023 5:58 PM
truly. shin was also a self proclaimed incel, so.
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fyodor 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 03/06/2023 11:40 PM
Auditions fucking killed our legs.
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i can imagine, it sounds super physically taxing
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fyodor 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 03/06/2023 11:41 PM
Why the hell was there dance involved. Nobody there was expecting it.
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i thought dance was common in auditions ZhongliThink
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fyodor 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 03/06/2023 11:41 PM
You never dance for auditions.
23:41
interesting
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fyodor 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 03/06/2023 11:41 PM
Normally, you just sing. Maybe read some lines. No dancing.
23:42
There were people in short dresses and heeled boots. We wore our binder and heeled boots because there wasn’t anything stating there would be dancing.
23:42
I fucking relied on our cane to get through the rest of the audition after that.
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it definitely should have stayed there would be dancing
23:46
stated
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fyodor 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 03/06/2023 11:47 PM
I agree. We did see our friends Mahli and Destiny, though.
23:47
Destiny didn’t recognize us at first, saying she thought Grace was us and we were Amanda.
23:48
β€œYou look like someone I went to high school with, but he didn’t use a cane” Oh Destiny goofy
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 03/12/2023 1:30 AM
I just need to fucking. Ramble. That’s all.
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go for it
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 03/12/2023 1:32 AM
Feeling love(?) for the first time is making me more worried about others than I’m used to, and it’s been keeping me awake and in front more often than before. Because I don’t want them to get hurt and I’m not there to help them. Both my. People. And my friends. I don’t like it. fuckoff
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 03/16/2023 12:00 AM
This is just me being a grumpy gay, but Machi made a sys server and set everyone’s names to shittily translated Latin words. They set Tatsu’s system as a poor translation of β€œstarlight”. Guess what my petname for Tatsu is.
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punch them
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 03/16/2023 12:01 AM
And sure they don’t know, but holy SHIT.
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alexandrite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 03/21/2023 7:52 AM
shawn β€œforgot” about our allergy again last night and we’re in so much fucking pain right now.
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hah??
12:57
Machi for the love of God.
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oh my god
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Why are they so genuinely racist.
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add that to the list of shitty things
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Oh we already knew they were racist.
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add it again
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Racist squared.
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New topic, we have an apartment tour today and I’m so fucking nervous.
13:50
The rent is a lot more expensive than I’d like, but it’s in a cute green house and it’s on a main road.
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what's the rent compared to what you'd prefer?
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or
13:50
maybe the average for your area
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It’s $785/mo, and that’s. A lot of our income, not accounting for electric and whatnot.
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mmh...
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Income is $914/mo.
13:51
That’s All We Get.
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that is a lot but it being on a main road is definitely a huge factor in it but it depends on the bill price
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I’ll probably just. Accept it if the landlord is decent and Shawn gets good vibes.
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Didn’t even get the damn tour, the person was sketchy and found our chosen name somehow?? We didn’t apply with it nor did we respond to it.
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The house itself is in awful shape and is so sketchy.
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mmmmm.
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It was bad. The house was a hideous green.
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 03/31/2023 11:59 PM
Me, having a rough evening: TikTok: Do you want your favorite? Cow hoof care videos?
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/01/2023 12:15 AM
Sorry to grumble, it’s a bad day. eeeeeee
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you're okay! grumble as much as you want
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/01/2023 12:17 AM
The weather is shit, I haven’t slept well because of nightmares, I’m anxious about my appearance and can’t stand looking in a mirror to fix anything, April is a bad number month for our OCD, I’m overthinking some things, and I feel like shit because the house is too fucking warm. Jill and Shawn both run cold and I feel like I’m dying in a desert.
00:17
Not to mention dogs barking. We have PTSD responses to sudden loud noises, and they bark. Constantly. Out of the blue.
00:18
β€œBut Dostoevsky, dogs do that.” Why do you think we have a cat.
00:18
Not to mention, the weather being shit is putting us in pain.
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/01/2023 12:32 AM
Overheating to the point that our feet swell and turn bright red? You bet! (That’s one step away from losing feeling in them).
00:32
Fucking love POTS man.
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/02/2023 12:13 AM
Biting my lip, I love giving little white lies about why I’m tallying cries. (I’ve just had a bad few days and don’t want to worry anyone, so I just blame my stupid cartoon.)
00:17
Is that bad? Yeah probably. But I’ve been so self conscious lately, on top of lack of sleep. I’ll bother our therapist on Tuesday, but that’s a few days away still.
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belphegor 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/02/2023 1:23 AM
yeah they’re being mentally ill. this definitely isn’t any of the illnesses we know we have, holy fuck is sin self conscious and scared lately.
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you guys have been dealing with a lot lately so i think i can get a grasp on it just from what i've heard
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belphegor 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/02/2023 1:37 AM
i mean. they’ve got self doubts and shit now. nobody’s had issues this bad since carlisle was with tobi, the fear of being left behind and shit. they’ll figure it out, it’s just annoying.
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shit happens
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belphegor 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/02/2023 1:38 AM
shit being. i don’t know what prompted this.
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i dont know either, just. shit happens.
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belphegor 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/02/2023 1:39 AM
yeah, that’s the fucking truth. but it’s so bad for our mental health when they’re frontstuck and feeling like shit.
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i see them up a lot, yeah
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belphegor 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/02/2023 1:41 AM
considering they haven’t been gone for more than a handful of hours in a month, yeah.
01:42
and by β€œgone” they were just on the cot.
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mmh. yeah
01:42
do you have any idea why they're stuck? or are they just stuck.
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belphegor 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/02/2023 1:43 AM
stuck to manage health anxiety. that’s their job. and family keeps getting sick, so we get anxious about getting sick. so they have to be here to deal with it.
01:43
suddenly it makes sense
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belphegor 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/02/2023 1:43 AM
does it?
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a little bit
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belphegor 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/02/2023 1:44 AM
i was gonna say, does their job explain exactly why they’re feeling like shit today. /lighthearted
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well, maybe? i can think of ways it may contribute to the over all feeling but probably not today in specific
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belphegor 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/02/2023 1:45 AM
overall yeah for sure, today it’s β€œi’m afraid of being easily replaced” issues. like. really bad.
01:45
β€œother people are more experienced at (thing), or (other thing), so why do they need me.” type thoughts.
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and that could come from a lot of things in the same manner, yeah
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belphegor 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/02/2023 1:46 AM
and they don’t wanna be a bother to their close loved ones, because other people don’t show their problems.
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yeah. checks out
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belphegor 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/02/2023 1:47 AM
they feel like shit for having a moment yesterday from the weather. they’re fucking terrified of being alone. it’s fine, i’m going to knock us out for them. that’s my job.
01:48
sleepy shit is my thing. can’t be bothered if you’re sleeping.
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i'd just say have someone try to convince them to talk about what they're struggling with with someone, if you think that's doable
01:48
otherwise i'm not sure
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belphegor 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/02/2023 1:48 AM
therapy tuesday. if it’s still an issue then, i’ll make them talk about it there.
01:49
and by me it’ll be alexandrite.
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belphegor 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/02/2023 1:49 AM
i know what it is, alexandrite knows what it is, it’s just obnoxious.
01:50
don't be too hard on em but be hard enough that they stop letting it stick, kind of ordeal
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belphegor 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/02/2023 1:50 AM
yeah i wouldn’t be an ass about the issues, but also. bro looping this song isn’t going to help.
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/02/2023 1:28 PM
Fuck you Belphie. Anyways it’s some sort of episode and I’m living it.
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/02/2023 6:30 PM
Babe wake up! It’s definitely an episode! (I just cried a lot over shit I made up in my own head and That’s A Symptom)
18:31
I made Osamu worry about me, now what if I feel bad (I literally didn’t Make him do anything, but.)
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/02/2023 11:25 PM
Osamu having to make sure I’m included in shit, because Chuuya keeps ignoring the fact that I’m here and was invited intentionally. I doubt that’s intentional from Chuuya but fuck it’s definitely contributing to why I feel like shit.
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say something, then
23:25
people don't know anything is bothering you if you keep your mouth shut about it
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/02/2023 11:26 PM
Nah, that’s rude and we’re watching Stormbringer. I did voice that I feel fucking annoying though, and Osamu said I’m not whatsoever. Which helps a lot, I’ve felt awful about that.
23:26
That took place in private though.
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it's quite literally not rude to tell someone that you don't like being completely ignored
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/02/2023 11:27 PM
It quite literally is when we’re watching their trauma. /Lh
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still. if it continues otherwise then say something
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/02/2023 11:27 PM
β€œI’m right here.” β€œYeah, so’s Fedya.” The way that small inclusion of me made me feel better.
23:30
If it continues I’ll say something. Maybe. Don’t wanna be an ass. I just feel so easily replaceable because I don’t have experience in relationships, I don’t have very many memories of home, I’m not experienced in showing certain forms of affections, and I’m just last pick for so many things, you know?
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yeah, but i'm going to be completely honest here and i apologize for how this might come off
23:31
if you know that it's an issue and continue to complain about it or be upset but do nothing to resolve the issue, it becomes more and more your fault that you're continuing to feel bad because you aren't doing anything. it's an endless cycle if you don't break it.
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/02/2023 11:32 PM
You’re right, and I’m trying to get better at the things I lack in. This is a new issue, so it’s not really a big deal, maybe I’m just having a moment.
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don't let it become an old issue.
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/02/2023 11:33 PM
Wasn’t planning on it. /Lh
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/03/2023 12:33 AM
We three open IDV. Osamu does the stupid blow kiss emote at me. Chuuya says β€œYou should be looking at me when you do that”. Motherfucker that’s my boyfriend too.
00:33
say something then
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/03/2023 12:33 AM
I will when he’s not around.
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that gets you nowhere
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/03/2023 12:34 AM
I’m not saying shit around him because he’s easily angered and I don’t want to get yelled at.
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if he's going to get mad at you because he's being a possessive little shit that's not your fault
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/03/2023 12:35 AM
I think he just. Assumes he’s more important than me because he and Osamu have the same. Source memories. And I don’t have almost any. So.
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do you think that's true?
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/03/2023 12:36 AM
Well not β€œmore important” but more relevant
00:36
I feel like it, but I’m also in a really bad self loathing slump.
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well, for one, it's not
00:39
no one's more important or more relevant than someone else
00:39
social constructs be damned.
00:40
you mean just as much to osamu as anyone else in your position would.
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/03/2023 12:41 AM
I know I matter, he took the time to insist I joined in watching Stormbringer and told me I’m okay. He’s not the problem, at all. It’s Oceanus’s Chuuya.
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don't let him shove you around honestly
00:42
and if he's going to, i'd just stay away
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/03/2023 12:43 AM
Him pushing me away is what’s fucked up my head so bad. It’s like he’s trying to replace me, almost. And it’s messing with me.
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have you told osamu that? have you voiced that at all?
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/03/2023 12:45 AM
It only started within the last couple days. I’ll tell him if it keeps up. Maybe it’s just new partner things, Chuuya trying to settle himself in.
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even if it hasn't been long, you're allowed to voice your fears
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/03/2023 12:50 AM
I will. Later. Osamu’s in a bad headspace again, fifteen shit. I’ll deal with my issues when he’s Not having a moment.
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as long as you do it once you're able.
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ivan goncharov 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/12/2023 7:26 PM
i’m way too russian for this weather . . . it’s 86° f.
19:27
EIGHTY SIX?
19:27
i'm so sorry for you
19:27
it's.. 76 here
19:27
what the fuck is a red flag weather warning
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ivan goncharov 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/12/2023 7:27 PM
severe fire possibility . . . dry winds and no rain.
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ivan goncharov 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/12/2023 7:28 PM
so no cigarettes on grass, or brush burning, or anything . . .
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it's just been a fire warning since yesterday
19:28
so red flag warning is kinda funny to me
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ivan goncharov 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/12/2023 7:28 PM
ironic . . . we have one too.
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its retty nice outside though
19:29
it's not too hot here
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ivan goncharov 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/12/2023 7:29 PM
it would be nicer if it weren’t so warm . . . it was nice this morning while we sat outside the hospital.
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mm, yeah
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ivan goncharov 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/12/2023 9:57 PM
sitting again . . . didn’t sit at the store because it closes at nine.
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are you doing alright?
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ivan goncharov 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/12/2023 9:58 PM
way too warm . . . want to lay down. can’t do that . . . have to get back.
21:58
head hurts.
21:59
we get headaches super bad in warm weather . . . first hot day of the year means really bad headache . . .
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/12/2023 9:59 PM
migraine ivan. we’re getting a migraine
21:59
we get them when we overheat and this russian dumbass overheated us really bad
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/12/2023 10:02 PM
just trying to cool us off before getting back up for the next .75 miles of our walk
22:04
i lied it’s 0.9 miles lmao
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/12/2023 10:20 PM
MADE IT
22:20
HOLY FUCK OW
22:20
we’ve got a blister on our foot now lmao
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you made it!
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/12/2023 10:21 PM
our legs are not gonna wanna work tomorrow lmao that wasn’t smart
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rest as much as you can
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/12/2023 10:22 PM
oh i’m gonna, not getting up until we need a shower in,,,,,,,,,like 7 hrs
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/13/2023 5:18 AM
did i almost fall? maybe. our legs are not happy whatsoever.
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please be careful holy shit
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/13/2023 5:38 AM
it is very much a cane day. no problem with that.
05:39
β€œdid you even sleep at all?” amanda. we have never slept before big events. and we have insomnia.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/13/2023 5:53 AM
i am a bit amused. we do not get stage fright in the slightest, and yet here i am, feeling like a child in their first school program.
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youew doing great
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/13/2023 6:39 AM
GUESS WHO GOT A FULL TSA PT DOWN AND SEARCH LMAO
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/13/2023 1:42 PM
bro our back and foot hurt so fucking bad rn but we’re sitting on athenaeum’s bed and i’m this close to just passing tf out
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/13/2023 2:10 PM
do u think we can make it to 36 hrs awake
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uh.. no?
14:17
please dont?
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/13/2023 2:17 PM
it’s only like 4 more hrs
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…
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/13/2023 9:39 PM
BRO IM OVERHEATING SO BAD LET ME OUT
21:39
we went and walked around the city for like a mile maybe? and i’m DYING
21:40
i’m also mad dehydrated rn i’m so dizzy
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/13/2023 9:55 PM
oh also lmao i had cheese (and only cheese, nothing else) pizza for dinner
21:56
it’s ok tho i probably get to take chair to cozy w ritsu later tonight
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/13/2023 10:03 PM
i don’t like asking for things or doing things of my own will in other ppl’s living spaces but bro i need to piss so bad and i’m dying of thirst
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just Do believe me they'll appreciate you feeling comfortable
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/13/2023 10:12 PM
i got water at least #winning
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/14/2023 9:31 AM
lmao yeah oceanus hasn’t done shit since me/serena took the chair
09:32
what DOES happen tho is that apparently they (claudius) constantly make β€œjokes” abt athenaeum splitting a fyodor/ivan and them kissing them. so. lmao that doesn’t help our fyodor at all
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/14/2023 10:22 AM
dude my legs HURT rn and also i want water again but athenaeum has a roommate and idk if she’s home or not
10:23
it’d be fucking awkward to run into her and be like β€œyeah lmao i’m visiting ur roomie for a week and also don’t look in the room ur gonna realize we’re sharing this tiny ass bed together”
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/14/2023 10:48 AM
do i WANT different socks? yes. would that require me getting up? also yes. (ur getting live posts from my day today)
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/14/2023 12:22 PM
sittin on da floor of the bookstore!
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/14/2023 1:05 PM
β€œDon’t use that petname it’s my petname for him” fuckoff
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/14/2023 1:56 PM
our head hurts so fucking bad rn and the city is mad overwhelming
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/14/2023 2:03 PM
oh thank fuck we’re gonna go nap now. after more subway rides
14:04
i’m a cranky level of tired/pain/migraine
14:04
gonna snap on some kids on the subway fr
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are you guys doing alright? oh my god
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/14/2023 2:16 PM
almost passed out lmao but yeah we’re rocking
14:17
almost back there’s like a block left. then we take migraine meds and probably knock tf out
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sounds like a good plan
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/14/2023 2:26 PM
i am On The Floor bro
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you're doing great
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€
β€œDon’t use that petname it’s my petname for him” fuckoff
i saw this and i like.. idk man??
14:27
i was reading back messages i missed
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/14/2023 2:51 PM
this liquid iv tastes like ass (i need water and sodium so bad)
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/14/2023 3:05 PM
β€œdrink your fucking sodium” PLEASE wail I AM I SWEAR I JUST RHINK THE MEDS ARE HITTING
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srink the sodium
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/14/2023 3:06 PM
I DID I FINISHED IT
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/14/2023 4:29 PM
BRO THIS MIGRAINE DOESNT WANNA BUDGE
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do you have any idea why?
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/14/2023 4:31 PM
probably lack of caffeine and sodium. we got the saltiest fucking thing for dinner that we could (spicy chicken tenders and a salad)
16:31
oh there’s also mostly flat fanta to drink and dazai threw a bag of classic lays at me for later
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flat fanta..
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/14/2023 4:40 PM
MOSTLY flat there’s some bubbles left
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... i like flat soda...
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/14/2023 4:40 PM
we only like flat sprite. and by we i mean the FUCKING ALLIGATOR
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/14/2023 4:47 PM
dazai can i nap can i nap pl
16:47
he’s half asleep rn i’m abt to be the same way
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/14/2023 4:51 PM
laying on our back feels so good rn wail everything hurts bro we’ve not done this much physical activity in YEARS
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/14/2023 4:52 PM
walking like four miles at least in three days is killing our joints
16:52
and we’re still sending the french to a bookstore/to buy wine
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yeah.. walking a lot when we got our job fucking killed us ... to buy wine?
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/14/2023 4:54 PM
yeah, it’s their 21st birthday today and joseph was bitching abt wanting it for some time
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ohhh.
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/14/2023 7:48 PM
another event another time of migraine returning and physical exhaustion. aesop didn’t rlly nap
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/14/2023 8:26 PM
this floor is terrible. (my back aches like hell and my migraine is returning a bit.)
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are... are you okay?
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/14/2023 8:27 PM
i hurt. i tormented joseph with terrible β€œromance” novel titles, though.
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i....
20:27
poor joseph
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/14/2023 8:28 PM
pos_laugh we are in the four floor barnes & noble.
20:28
i was going to look for teleny’s source, but could not find it.
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so ive heard! (zero said: " hey!! aesop found the bathroom!! woo!!)
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/14/2023 8:29 PM
i did! and i am waiting for joseph to hold my things, i lost him.
20:31
my foot is going numb wail
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/14/2023 8:44 PM
JOSEPH GOT PRIMARY STOLEN wail and now i am booksitting for aure. please, the b&n stereotype is hitting me. free me.
20:45
their stack, versus my stack.
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 9:48 AM
today’s whining: my throat hurts.
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 1:01 PM
laying on the FLOOR rn man, i gotta piss but our feet hurt so bad
13:01
and i need to fill our water
13:02
at least it was cooler today so we could manage the 15~ min walk each way
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are you okay??
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 1:02 PM
overheating like always but i think we’re gonna stay in for most of the afternoon, it’s gonna rain
13:02
tummy hurt (dehydrated)
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ooh..
13:04
get water
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 1:05 PM
can’t get up. pain.
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a....
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 1:39 PM
i’m being SO brave rn (still not getting up)
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autumn...
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 1:40 PM
yeah?
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please get up and take care of yourself you can lay right back down afterwards
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 1:41 PM
but i’m on the FLOOR and we struggle to stand from the floor on a good day
13:44
oh nvm tummy pain is just acid reflux i forgot we had that
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 2:10 PM
aesop’s organizing their (aurelio’s) books while they go buy drinks for joseph and him
14:10
i mean
14:10
if it works
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 2:10 PM
do you wanna see
14:11
sure?
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 2:12 PM
don’t mind our c&p copy next to theirs i’m just on the ground
14:12
alphabetical by author last name. on the floor.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 2:28 PM
filled our water after i did our autism task.
14:29
why are the bad cramps back, what if i died.
14:30
i dunno
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 2:31 PM
joseph and i are having a little date tonight, and i guarantee it is the insane amount of exercise we have been doing, but.
14:32
judging by athenaeum’s little step count that i saw in the afternoon yesterday, we got about 15 thousand steps yesterday alone, and probably about 5 thousand today already. i doubt that i will do much more, but. and that does not count thursday. we spent fifteen solid minutes walking from one plane to another.
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i.....
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 2:33 PM
i am in pain. we have not done this much…ever, i think. other than one day a year at an amusement park, when our body was still mostly functional.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 3:00 PM
it is absolutely the coffee we had this morning that is hurting our stomach. wail never getting dunkin’ again.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 3:15 PM
i do not want to get supper wail dazai please, i am far from hungry.
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AT 3 PM?
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 3:16 PM
well not now but soon.
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what kinda fuckin crazy person eats dinner at 3 pm
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......
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me
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well
15:16
i just had Lunch
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 3:16 PM
people with messed up meal schedules
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tbf i ate dinner at 3 yesterday
15:16
i can't say much
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 3:17 PM
pos_laugh yeah, no, we get supper in an hour.
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thats still so early
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 3:17 PM
we also had breakfast at, like, 10:30 or so.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 4:58 PM
i am being so brave (cramps so bad i winced physically, and we walked a good ways to get supper).
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 5:54 PM
i live! (i died [/exag] in the nyu dining hall restroom)
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you lived!
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 5:55 PM
forgot that, technically, we have not been having proper meals. and have been drinking so much coffee.
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..........
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 5:56 PM
like. thursday we had a piece of cheese pizza. just cheese and nothing else. yesterday we had salad and chicken tenders. and today a breakfast sandwich and tomato soup. coffee on two of these three days.
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that... does sound like.. average college meals...
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 5:58 PM
it is killing my poor stomach. salt we eat like shit at home anyway, but at least we do not live on coffee.
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maybe you should ... stop drinking coffee....
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 5:58 PM
i do not even like coffee…but i need caffeine.
17:59
i do not know if coffee is better or worse then w-ne, which i will be trying, for the first time i may add, with joseph in a bit.
17:59
uhh...
17:59
idk i think alcohol is worse
17:59
ive had it before it sucked
18:00
white wine tastes like shit
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 6:00 PM
probably! but it is sweet of him (he is autistic about wine in particular) to want to share and tell me about it. we have never drank before, because we have not felt safe to do so. but…i am always safe with him.
18:00
i believe he picked something red.
18:00
because of course he did pos_laugh
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mm.. not sure about red wines and how they taste, i think it depends on the person
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 6:00 PM
i heard they are a bit dry, like cranberry juice.
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but it is sweet that he wants to share it with you and i do hope you enjoy it
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 6:01 PM
i will be sure to share how it goes, if you would like.
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i'm very curious
18:02
debating... water? energy drink?
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 6:02 PM
lovely. our brother drinks to intentionally get drunk, which i am vehemently avoiding. i just want to watch the source stageplay with joseph, and enjoy something that he likes.
18:02
water.
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just be careful how much you drink and you'll be alright
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 6:03 PM
oh i will be! i do not want much at all.
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i know our mom usually cuts her alcohol intake at like
18:03
3 glasses max
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so!
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 6:03 PM
amanda is about the same, yeah.
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it's.. a mom thing
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 6:04 PM
moms and their wine, i swear.
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our mom drinks more margarita than she does wine but that's what she does with all alcohol
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 6:05 PM
amanda always has boxed rosé in her fridge.
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sounds about right
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/15/2023 6:06 PM
but, yeah, i will not drink much whatsoever. my stomach is already not happy about what we have eaten the last few days, and i am too emetophobic to risk being unwell.
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yeah, i understand
18:06
maybe cut it at a glass max, honestly, depending on if you like it or not
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/16/2023 12:40 AM
yeah dw he did fine he had like. half a glass and got distracted complimenting joseph
00:42
they didn’t, in fact, finish the stageplay whatsoever. got like halfway through be4 it was ritsu and me time
00:43
anyways i simultaneously feel both hungry and mildly nauseous bc of diet lately but it’s ok. i get ritsu day before we leave on tuesday. and in the evenings again
00:45
oh i learned smthn!! heart palpitations. we don’t ever get them this bad. 100% think it was drink mixed with our meds.
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yeah, i think most meds aren't meant to be taken in pairing with alcohol
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/16/2023 5:34 AM
yeah probably not lmao but it’s fine
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/16/2023 11:44 AM
my autism is NOT a fan of where we’re sitting (i am lightheaded and too warm)
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/16/2023 12:07 PM
sitting in a starbucks instead now but the pain aesop was whining abt is back
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hunter 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/16/2023 2:57 PM
ouch. laying down. we walked so many.
14:57
then we free ada and her best friend.
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/16/2023 7:44 PM
How the fuck did Autumn bruise our COLLARBONE.
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 04/16/2023 7:45 PM
Huh
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/16/2023 7:47 PM
There’s a massive dark bruise on our collarbone that wasn’t there yesterday, what the fuck did they do in the span of like 12 hours.
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 04/16/2023 7:47 PM
no idea
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/17/2023 5:36 AM
emeto dude our stomach hurts so fucking bad rn i almost think we got food poisoning from how bad it is. didn’t even sleep three hours lmao.
05:37
now you may say β€œautumn, you all are also allergic to dairy and had so much of it yesterday, as well as literal taco bell, no fucking wonder you feel like that” and i’d say yeah. but i’m so tired right now.
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/17/2023 5:47 AM
i deserve one of those shitty β€œi survived” books for this holy hell
05:47
ik the mesmers and desaulniers will be mad if i suggest we Don’t go to the museum this evening but man we don’t feel Good
05:50
like it’s so awful that i Know i’m gonna struggle to get us showered this morning. and we’re def a little itty bitty bit fevery bc it’s So Fucking Warm right now.
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/17/2023 12:56 PM
I SURVIVED we still feel pretty shitty but it’s manageable and we aren’t walking a ton thank fuck
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/17/2023 3:42 PM
overheating in the museum. ada and emil keep holding hands, constantly, which is adorable, but our hands overheat us especially. wail
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 04/17/2023 6:05 PM
oceanus has been getting on our nerves so much with everything going on that we put their system server in the folder we don’t open like, ever
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/17/2023 6:06 PM
ah, good, you and hierophant are both annoyed it seems.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/17/2023 6:06 PM
i am so tired.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 04/17/2023 6:06 PM
(folder purgatory.)
18:07
i’ve been watching. eki has been as well, but i believe that’s because he’s holding back.. because he has no filter.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/17/2023 6:07 PM
good for him. sigh they always do this to joseph and i.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 04/17/2023 6:08 PM
we’ve heard too much to speak passively with them, personally, or we’d speak up as well.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/17/2023 6:10 PM
i am just. i am tired. i fear that they will make joseph self conscious, he already is about how he types.
18:11
they (specifically dazai and chuuya) were almost insulting him for his special interest in wines the other day. especially how he is so picky about them.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 04/17/2023 6:11 PM
a lot of people are picky in their tastes. i’m picky with novels, for example. if i don’t like one, why would i want it? i don’t see what their issue is with it if it doesn’t hurt them.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/17/2023 6:12 PM
β€œhe’s just got such expensive tastes” he is a fucking nobleman! what is the problem?
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 04/17/2023 6:13 PM
yes.. that’s normal, especially for him and his times. certain things just aren’t the same now as they were then
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/17/2023 6:14 PM
exactly! but nooooo, heaven forbid.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 04/17/2023 6:15 PM
it's.. nothing to be surprised by anymore.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/17/2023 11:50 PM
just got called slurs by dazai (it was very deserved and very. yeah.)
23:50
give me joseph back, this is embarrassing.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 04/17/2023 11:50 PM
????
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/17/2023 11:51 PM
i was cuddling with joseph, and he stole primary suddenly. so now i am. sitting here.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 04/17/2023 11:51 PM
oh.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/17/2023 11:52 PM
my karma for causing problems is dazai fucking with my hair.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/18/2023 12:29 AM
oh, we messed up our knuckle the other day, somehow. autumn woke up this morning to it popping in and out of place every time we moved our finger. so, dazai taped it to the finger next to it so it cannot move as much.
00:29
i will ask shawn to take us to get it checked if it does not stop by wednesday.
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/18/2023 12:20 PM
lmao it hasn’t stopped
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€β€„↩️
Reply to: oh, we messed up our knuckle the other day, somehow. autumn woke up this morning to it popping in an…
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what did you do
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autumn 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/18/2023 12:21 PM
idk!! it just started doing that yesterday morning and hasn’t stopped! it keeps popping in and out of place when it’s moved
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/18/2023 10:50 PM
remember how autumn bruised our collarbone.
22:50
i woke up today. on the subway to go to the airport. and both of our shoulders have massive bruises on them.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/18/2023 10:51 PM
autumn was here before me.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/18/2023 11:26 PM
it is so weird to be home. it does not feel like home.
23:27
i have calli, yes, and we live here, but it is far from home. it is just a residence.
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yeah, i understand
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/18/2023 11:30 PM
joseph said that he wants to β€œtake me on a proper date” next time i see him. we had more than a proper date, i think. pos_laugh
23:30
(if i think about that, i will not cry as terribly)
23:31
it is funny. we went and sat down for supper, walked through the museum, and through central park. and yet he did not think that to be enough of a proper date? or us drinking together as we watched the stageplay? or…whatever last night was? he is so fancy, i adore him.
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something far more planned, i guess
23:33
but things being unplanned has its own charm to it
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/18/2023 11:33 PM
it certainly does. lomv though almost all of yesterday was very planned.
23:34
lord, i cannot fathom the mesmers having another date. we are all still so proud of emil.
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im so happy for them though genuinely
23:40
thats so sweet
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/18/2023 11:43 PM
oh as am i! emil’s behavior was just quite unexpected, in a good way. you would not expect emil mesmer, who shies away at the idea of holding hands, to initiate an aggressive kiss in a public place. especially a place with dogs around.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/19/2023 10:26 AM
love when claudius just drops the fact that athenaeum was unwell after i left, meaning that i was not told of their ailments, and now i feel awful for not knowing.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/19/2023 6:29 PM
whoever of athenaeum thought that letting aure front today was a good idea, was not very smart. (it is their trauma anniversary)
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a..ah…..
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/19/2023 6:47 PM
i physically cannot let autumn speak to them today because of it. which, i get, yeah, but. still.
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i definitely do not get it
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/19/2023 6:49 PM
for the best. it would make sense with context that i cannot give to you. but they had to tell autumn, who was attempting to reassure them, that they would rather myself or belphie instead.
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ah. i see
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/19/2023 6:51 PM
mhm. sigh and that does not make my annoyance with dazai any better, as he has been here for so long and has not tried to help aurelio whatsoever with this. rather, he makes it worse with his own source trauma, and refuses to try waking anyone else to take primary.
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what a fucking idiot sorry but just..
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/19/2023 6:53 PM
no, you are right. with how often he panics, you would think that joseph would be around more. but no, he goes and clings to chuuya instead.
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not that chuuya is of any help
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/19/2023 6:54 PM
no, of course not. their bickering in the aotd channel this morning annoyed the hell out of me.
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i really dont like those two
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/19/2023 6:56 PM
neither do we, they are obnoxious. and i am still upset with dazai for what he did to me specifically the other day.
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have i already heard about this? or is it something i shouldn ask about
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/19/2023 7:35 PM
very long story short, dazai announced to claudius and pleiades that he snatched primary and saw me changing. i was only changing in the room because joseph had been there a moment before, and ended up just sitting there in a blanket until he left to do something else.
19:36
β€œi fronted to a pantsless aesop” do not phrase it like that…
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???!?
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/19/2023 8:14 PM
yeah…it was uncomfortable. sorry for being comfortable to that extent with my lover?
20:17
anyway! guess who is fifteen again! (chuuya)
20:17
which means someone else is too.
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welcome to: autumn is afraid to speak around aurelio, for fear of upsetting them.
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it makes sense. with context i cannot give. but also. autumn is terrified.
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have you .. talked to aurelio about it?
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not quite, because it is a sensitive subject to them.
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another day to dislike chuuya (seemed to be upset with me for a minor misunderstanding).
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i ask to not be called β€œfucker”, and he just says β€œwasn’t at you.”
13:43
which, sure, but also, i apologized for the misunderstanding and he did Not.
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not quite, because it is a sensitive subject to them.
i dont think it could hurt too much just to ask if it's alright for autumn to speak around them, but i obviously don't know the circumstances
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i offhandedly mentioned autumn, and. did not go well.
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suddenly they plan to leave front in a moment. but it is due to a β€œweird mental state” that they are avoiding autumn. which, again, makes a lot of sense for context. but still. i wish they would just tell us.
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it would benefit them to leave front regardless, but..
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like. i know why they do not want autumn around them, and it is very reasonable for them. but it would not hurt for them to properly say something.?
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yeah, i mean.
18:05
that's reasonable, i think
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sigh i do not know. i have been asleep almost the entire day today.
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i'd just try to take it easy and see what happens
18:06
but im sorry that things are so complicated for you guys right now
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that is the plan, yes. it just confuses me a bit, why they have a disdain for autumn but not for me, as we did very similar things this past weekend. i know why, obviously, but still.
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that's.. hm
18:09
i'm not sure
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neither am i. sigh
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the utter joy i felt at athenaeum’s front notification not having dazai on it. (i am 90% sure he is just fifteen and not shown)
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i believe that
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with chuuya how he is? yeah.
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yeah..
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sigh i am so tired.
19:07
oh, did i tell you how claudia tried telling me how my own system works the other day? (claudius changed their name slightly, apparently)
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hah..?
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i was saying that i was avoiding new splits, because i was actively busy and out of town, and they said β€œthat just makes it worse, don’t do that.” um. excuse you. it is my system, last i checked. and the worst that happens is they get annoyed with me. you cannot tell me what to do, i have hosted us just fine for years.
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yeah, no, that's..?
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the utter joy i felt at athenaeum’s front notification not having dazai on it. (i am 90% sure he is just fifteen and not shown)
there he is. (fifteen dazai just came up on the notification)
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being busy leading to avoiding things is
19:10
literally normal
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that is what i am saying! it is normal and fine, a few days would not kill the new person. sigh it is not their place to tell me what i can and cannot do with my system.
19:11
it would be understandable if i said i was locking them away to suffer until i chose to manage them. but i am not.
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waiting to address it for a few days will give them some time to settle in a bit as well??
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exactly!
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at least that's my thought on it
19:11
give them some time to get a grasp on the new situation
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it gave her time to settle down and not panic. plus, being in a big city would have scared her more.
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oh, absolutely
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it is yukako, and she is from a small town. so waking in a big city would have terrified her.
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definitely holy shit
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yeah. i do not know why oceanus as a whole have been so snappy with us as of late.
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ango sakaguchi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/21/2023 7:17 PM
Every time these fuckers talk, I’m possessed by a demon that wants to say β€œshut your ugly ass fucking, cock sucking, slur slinging mouths up”. But no, I’m a civil man.
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me too, me too.
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ango sakaguchi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/21/2023 7:18 PM
The fact that they had the gall to suggest I speak to them? Ha!
19:19
Not even source me can stand them.
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i don't blame you, christ, those few are a handful no matter what way you look at it
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ango sakaguchi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/21/2023 7:20 PM
They fucking exhaust me, and we’re spiraling because of them. Again.
19:20
Gonna just take the weekend to ourselves, away from them all. Maybe then they’ll fucking notice our quiet behavior.
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good idea, i think
19:21
distance will probably help you collectively as well, time to yourself is good
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ango sakaguchi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/21/2023 7:21 PM
Let’s hope. We got the computer back if you want to watch your show with Aesop again this weekend.
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noted! i dont think i have any plans so ill have to see
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/21/2023 11:14 PM
i think ath split mori, and of course chuuya is doing nothing to make the situation better. but we were explicitly told to not speak to him.
23:16
that will just piss him off more.
23:17
what a fucking idiot
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/21/2023 11:19 PM
seriously. and there is no way for us to approach without chuuya snapping at us.
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yeah, no, uh..
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ango sakaguchi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/21/2023 11:22 PM
Why do you think I fucking hate him? He’s too snappy and it’ll just hurt himself and his precious loved ones.
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i understand it's a universal hatred
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ango sakaguchi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/21/2023 11:24 PM
Good. I’ll bitch about them until they fix their goddamn attitude.
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go ahead
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ango sakaguchi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/21/2023 11:26 PM
The fact that I’m not even fucking allowed to talk to this man. I get it. He’s a pers. But for fucks sake.
23:28
The angry urge to say he’s not the boss of me. (I didn’t do that)
23:29
He doesn’t seem so bad, what the fuck.
23:29
23:30
Can Chuuya genuinely fuck off.
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ango sakaguchi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/21/2023 11:33 PM
This person, presumably Mori, isn’t rude whatsoever. And yet Chuuya is treating him like shit. He’s quite kind to me.
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admittedly i do think i understand a precaution but
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ango sakaguchi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/21/2023 11:34 PM
A precaution is understandable, but blatant rudeness?
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ango sakaguchi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/21/2023 11:34 PM
23:35
Chuuya shut the actual fuck up challenge.
23:36
23:37
Kind of fucked up that Mori was the first person to treat me kindly since I got here.
23:37
Minus you, of course.
23:42
Shut. The fuck. Up.
23:46
I’m normal and sane. I’m normal and sane. (I’m not)
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are you okay?? it might help if you don't pay attention to that chat
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ango sakaguchi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/21/2023 11:47 PM
I’m trying to actually help him. Chuuya won’t shut UP.
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ango sakaguchi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/21/2023 11:59 PM
It wasn’t even MORI. It was Monika.
00:02
Which now the rudeness is understandable. But still uncalled for, being rude to such people will result in INJURY.
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ango sakaguchi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/22/2023 10:25 AM
I’m normal and sane (Just had to witness Chuuya calling Calli a β€œwet rag” for the twentieth time).
10:25
Find new descriptors, fuck.
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i mean she does look a bit like a wet rag but also shes fucking adorable and i love her shes so fluffy
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ango sakaguchi 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/22/2023 10:43 AM
If it were every once in a while? I get it. But every god damn time we send a picture of her?
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/22/2023 4:06 PM
the way chuuya entirely ignored elise, then went on to simp the second she left.
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haaah...?
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/22/2023 9:54 PM
oh, yeah. she was saying to aure that grumpy people scare her, and remind her of mori. and they had to reassure her that chuuya was not like that. he was actively online for the hour she was here. and the moment i took her off of sp, he started to simp.
21:55
it would have been better if he had said something to her. not let someone else do it for him. she would have believed it better.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/22/2023 9:57 PM
priorities.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/22/2023 10:38 PM
oh. and i do not know if you saw her mention. but he tallied a cry the second she said something about him being grumpy. again, saying nothing to her, and making her worry.
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i did see that
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/22/2023 10:39 PM
this just gives me more reason to dislike him, frankly.
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yeah, no, not like we didn't have a huge reason to dislike him already
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/22/2023 10:40 PM
exactly. it is giving. l-ca. in terms of making a child cry.
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/23/2023 8:09 PM
Can I be rude.
20:09
(It’s mostly Ango bleeding into me, but I have to be social).
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go ahead
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/23/2023 8:10 PM
I hate Oceanus’s laugh. It sounds so forced all of the time and it gets on my nerves.
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/23/2023 8:12 PM
You haven’t heard their casual β€œhaha” kind of laugh, but it’s obnoxious.
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yeah, we don’t exactly talk to them very often.. but
20:12
i have 1 comment
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/23/2023 8:12 PM
Make the comment.
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now, we have almost every channel in their server muted
20:12
but why is it that the only thing they do in their server is Cry
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/23/2023 8:13 PM
I don’t know! They don’t even edit in there.
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i mean, we don’t edit in ours either
20:13
but
20:13
( force of habit, fear of the bot not working )
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/23/2023 8:13 PM
I get it. But still.
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yeah, it’s just
20:14
ZhongliThink ZhongliThink ZhongliThink
20:14
edit ur damn bots in your system server
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/23/2023 8:15 PM
I think they do most of it on SP, but still?
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you know one thing they do that irritates me.. is that they let people go without bots because they don’t want to make them themselves, but having them for organization? please just make them for them to be there?
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/23/2023 8:15 PM
And they give us shit for not making bots??
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the one that comes to mind immediately is their vox, i remember them saying he’s not very technologically aware, but,. make one for him? let him edit it later?
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/23/2023 8:16 PM
That. Even we made a bot for Teleny, despite the shame that came with splitting him.
20:17
we did it for chuuya just to have it, even if he doesn’t plan on speaking or have any desire to do so
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/23/2023 8:24 PM
I’m being autistic about WKTD. Oceanus fucking leaves the call.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/23/2023 8:38 PM
i escaped to watch kny. thank the lord.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/23/2023 8:43 PM
i need to change our bedsheets this evening as well, then i may settle to watch howl’s, if you do not want to resume kny with me.
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currently i am desperately trying to finish this painting so that i can be done with it, so feel free to watch your movie ^^
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/23/2023 9:04 PM
gay little movie time. gay_thoughts
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yeah!!! woo!!
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/24/2023 1:55 AM
i. am so suspicious of this.
01:58
implying to them that they should come clean about fyodor to the ps. so fyodor stops panicking about being a side piece.
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...??
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/25/2023 1:45 AM
i keep having to favor my left joints? just constantly? my knee is in all sorts of pain, and i have had to keep my left pinky bandaged for over a week now to keep it from popping out of place.
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eugh.. awful..
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/25/2023 1:47 AM
i almost fell in the hospital today. because my knee kept trying to give out. while i was already putting my full weight on my cane.
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oh my god?
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the mental is ill today. (aure is keeping me company so i do not isolate like i want to)
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are you okay?
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good question! my mind is just not doing Well, it is one of those β€œlay in bed and stare at the wall” sort of days, and i need to not do that.
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ah. yeah
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so. they are making me watch ghibli films with them.
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/27/2023 12:18 PM
do you think if i start interacting with ath and oceanus that one of them will cave and try flirting with me
12:29
i'd sure hope not
12:29
DID I EVER MENTION THAT PLEIADES SPLIT FYODOR?
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/27/2023 12:37 PM
oh i knew. they mentioned it before.
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they only made the bot i think a couple days ago?? it just felt. hm. hmmm.
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/27/2023 12:38 PM
he’s been around for a couple weeks now
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i saw it while checking through the abandoned server folders
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/27/2023 12:39 PM
yeah no we knew. fucks with our fyodor a little.
12:40
and aesops still panicky about joseph’s well-being. but what can he do. he’s offered everything he can. time to just. knock us out again
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you guys really should not be sleeping this much holy shit
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/27/2023 12:41 PM
we literally can’t stay awake
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yeah, i know
12:42
doesn't lessen the concern (edited)
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/27/2023 7:50 PM
they (dazai) dropped fyodor’s nickname
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is this a good or bad thing im so sorry
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/27/2023 8:37 PM
i don’t know, it’s weird. he was calling them β€œfedya” before they even started dating
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i mean ig from a certain standpoint i understand but at the same time no i dont
20:38
i would understand if it was anybody other than dazai
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/27/2023 8:38 PM
dazai claimed they’d still remain close friends
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idk how that's possible
20:38
im ngl
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/27/2023 8:39 PM
neither do i, but they’re gonna try
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also bc it was mentioned briefly a while ago
01:00
ath/oceanus/pleiades are all partner systems
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/28/2023 1:01 AM
are they? like, all three of them at once? i assumed so, but i did not want to jump to the conclusion.
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i opened up pleiades sys server and saw their bio for the first time
01:01
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/28/2023 1:01 AM
i have their server muted, in my defense.
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so do i i just stalk
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/28/2023 1:01 AM
wow
01:02
not at you. at them.
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yeah i know it's ok IkePat
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/28/2023 1:02 AM
i worry about nazuna. i am good friends with him and do not want to see him hurt.
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it likely wouldn't hurt to talk to them about it, i feel like pleiades as a collective is very distanced from everything that happened
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/28/2023 1:03 AM
they really are, but i have no doubt that claudia and dazai talked to them about it.
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doesnt hurt to reach out regardless
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/28/2023 1:06 AM
i just do not want to be the topic of private conversation. sorry i am terrified of being spoken of behind my back.
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i understand that, yeah, just a suggestion ! not a requirement
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/28/2023 1:07 AM
claudia already gave me. a bit of rudeness, almost, already today. twice. over small things (fear of reaching out to the doctor, fucking idv).
01:07
the latter because i asked why anyone would take hell ember into blackjack, especially with everyone free right now.
01:08
that's so dumb on their part
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/28/2023 1:08 AM
isn’t it?
01:08
they used the. fucking. pupconfused emote. which i hate. it makes me nervous.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/28/2023 1:09 AM
when people put it after questions, at least with claudia and ath, it feels like they are making light of serious questions (only seen it in serious settings) or are asking for an answer they already know (aure does this).
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ooh. i see..
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/28/2023 1:10 AM
so. it makes me nervous.
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yeah no i don't blame you id hate that
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/28/2023 1:13 AM
it is absolutely just a me thing, but. yeah.
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not dazai making me feel guilty about not knowing bungo. frogsleepy
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i mentioned once before that i physically cannot bring myself to consume it, because i hate medias without proper plot. and that i dislike being spoken over in favor of people’s interests. and he said. β€œi’ve been trying to tone down the autism about source around you”. that. is not what i meant. fuckoff
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so now i feel bad!
08:32
and oceanus has been typing for a while. so now i am scared they are going to berate me.
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if they say something rude about it, send them my way
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my thing about internalizing problems got ignored, by the way.
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i am willing to throw hands.
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i hate that i have to clarify that last bit. because every time we voice issues with oceanus around, they take it personally.
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stupid shit
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what a shock, they took it personally
08:48
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what the fuck
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β€œi feel ignored again.” β€œare you mad at me?”
08:50
every time. i try to talk about something. you know, opening up. they do this.
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that's so stupid, i'm sorry
08:54
i have reason to be angry at dazai, personally. (still annoyed about The Incident).
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man we dont like dazai
09:00
again, my issue was made into their issue.
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i want to.
09:04
chokeshake
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having to thank them for basic understanding and for not flipping their shit on me.
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awful
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β€œfyodor’s terrified you’re mad at them” β€œthey’ve not been around??”
09:17
gee, i wonder WHY.
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wow, i wonder
09:17
it’s definitely not their fault or anything /s
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fyodor is now even more scared of fronting, because i think claudia is going to snap at them again.
09:20
(they have been on the cot all week)
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eugh..
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β€œfyodor is giving you space so you can reach out when ready. they’re scared you’re still mad at them.” β€œthey promised not to bottle things… πŸ₯Ίβ€
09:21
did NOTHING i say yesterday get through to you.
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clearly not
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and of course dazai is butting in. wow
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dazai fuck o
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i am genuinely so exhausted and want to sleep again. but nooo, if i do that, that means i am ignoring them.
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just go back to sleep. dont let them stop you
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for once you are encouraging my eepy. /lh
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ill kick their ass if they cause you issues
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they are already causing me issues.
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i’ll kick their ass. lemme at em
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it is no big deal. i am just tired and easily irritated.
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ffffFUCK our hand is on the verge of literally becoming shot. i tried to grab my blanket and i had a fucking stab of pain go straight through it
12:23
that HURT
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you may need to take a break from writing and drawing for a while (a couple weeks) to rest it.
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yeah, problem: we're supposed to help or mother unload and set up notably heavy equipment tonight and she's not just going to let us get out of it
12:25
but good fucking shit
12:25
everything hurts today
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take painkillers and rest, ice any joints that ache.
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im gonna lay down for a couple hours because i haven't even slept yet
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that may help too, your sleep schedule will affect your pain.
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god yeah
12:27
i'm not even going to bother with makeup for this
12:28
i normally would but
12:28
fuck im not going to look cute for a rehearsal dinner where i'm going to get all sweaty unloading equipmemt.
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i would not even dress nicely, you are busy.
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i have to look decent for the ACTUAL wedding on saturday
12:30
and ill look decent today, i promised mom i would, but not.. dressy decent.
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not pajamas kind of decent.
12:31
dress pants and a t shirt (the dress pants are our only comfortable pants)
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so true, that sounds cozy
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every time i start to get too eepy i slip into a headspace i havent regularly been in in multiple years (/neu, it's not a bad thing but im not sure its exactly good)
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do you want to talk about it?
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uh.. not much to talk about with it just
13:11
aaaaaaaaaaaa
13:11
i have no thoughts at the moment i can probably make it make sense later
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that is alright. try to sleep a little bit.
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i am currently laying down and will be mimir
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good. good night! luzpat
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our eyes still really hurt
15:50
the skin around them is practically raw because i've been rubbing them so much
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allergies. that is literally allergies.
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IS IT REALLY??
15:51
THAT'S WHAT MOM SAID
15:51
but like
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wtf am i allergic to this has been going on since last summer consistently
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pollen, probably. pollen or dust. both of those have been VERY bad this year.
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maybe
15:52
uuugh
15:52
i'm fucking miserable it hurts to open/close my eyes beyond a certain point
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you need allergy meds. like the classic claritin or something.
15:53
i think we have some downstairs that's not benadryl, i just organized the medicine cabinet
15:53
ill have to look because i'm willing to try anything my eyes hurt so bad
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even benadryl would help some.
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no benadryl it'll make me sleepy and i cannot afford to go back to sleep
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ah. then take whatever else you can find.
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we had regular non-benadryl
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good! i hope it helps. make sure to ask your mother to buy a proper bottle of allergy meds.
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we do have one, it's like.. off brand but it is a bottle
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i showered and that seemed to help so now i wait
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and our hand seems to be in better shape after sleeping
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also.. we have..
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8$.. in our bank account..
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i dont. how did we manage this
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oh my god? and worry about that later, just get your event over with.
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wuxian
we had regular non-benadryl
i’ll be taking the bottle with us to this rehearsal dinner jic but
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i think it did help
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that is good, i hope it keeps helping.
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i hope so
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i still won't be putting any makeup or anything on
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i dont think makeup on raw skin is a good idea
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definitely not a good idea.
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yeah!
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i'm just trying to get this done and mom keeps yelling at me idfk what she wants me to do
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i'm trying to help and it is not working!
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can you tell someone else?
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no, but i don't care i'll deal
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good luck! it will be done soon, and you get free food.
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i got food already
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olive garden??
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i recognize those breadsticks.
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god i'm so tired
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again, you will sleep so good when you get home.
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I NEED TO SHOW YOU THE DOOR TO NOWHERE OUTSIDE ITS SO FUNNY
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the what?
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THE DOOR TO NOWHERE.
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hello??
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only the top part opens, like a window
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back to comfortable.
20:26
we had 14$ in change/cash
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/28/2023 8:29 PM
that’s not so bad
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also the allergy medicine did end up working
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/28/2023 8:54 PM
which means
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you have allergies
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just waiting for the soreness around the eyes to go away
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yeah i'm not sure what to but it did help
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.. so i stole the entire bottle
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/28/2023 8:54 PM
probably pollen and dust like aesop said
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probably
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not certain about pollen but dust id believe
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/28/2023 8:55 PM
pollen is possible too if you get fucked up in spring/summer
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it's been a recurring issue since late summer/autumn last year and didn't dissipate much if at all during winter
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it just picked up really bad once it started getting hot
21:09
i now have two bottles of over the counter medicine on my side table
21:09
ibuprofen and allergy medicine
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for fUCKS SAKE, MOTHER
11:58
can this woman think about ANYTHING but herself for once?
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 11:58 AM
you expect a mother to do that? ha! no.
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she straight up told me just now that I need to dress up for a wedding
11:59
which i understand.
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but she wants me wearing a straight up SUIT.
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and uh.. fuck that.
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 11:59 AM
better a suit than a dress, i think.
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listen, i can dress nice, but i don't want to be noticed.
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 12:00 PM
i’m not gonna lie, anything you do, it WILL be overdone.
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i don't want to talk to these people, i don't even want to GO and she has a stick up her ass about it because i looked too PLAIN yesterday
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 12:01 PM
well she can cry about it, i don’t know what she expects from you if you don’t have the nice clothes.
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and mind you, i was dressed actually pretty decent considering i dont own many nice clothes
12:02
the only thing she isn't happy with is that i was wearing just a solid black turtleneck, dress pants and a belt
12:02
she said i looked too plain and that she wants me to wear a suit jacket with it
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 12:02 PM
a jacket and a necklace would look better with that.
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but if i agree to that, she's going to put me in a suit jacket of Hers that doesn't match the outfit at all
12:03
my issue is that a lot of my over-clothes like cardigans and such are light in color
12:03
i have a black suit jacket and while i can wear it, it's not comfortable
12:04
sorry im just
12:04
i am unhappy and very tired
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 12:04 PM
don’t wear all black or all red to a wedding, that’s rude by the way.
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and my mother is a bitch
12:04
is it really?
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 12:04 PM
yeah
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man i don't know wedding etiquette
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 12:04 PM
red means the bride is a cheater, and black is damning wishes.
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that's a thing?? damn..
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 12:05 PM
and all white is obvious.
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 12:05 PM
most people where blues or purples to weddings.
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uhh.. im not sure what clothes i have but all black is virtually all of my nice clothes so that's going to suck
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 12:05 PM
wear
12:05
fuck
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i got what you meant dw
12:05
i'm trying to think through my clothing selections at the moment b
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 12:06 PM
good luck.
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i only own black pants at the moment so that's a given
12:06
uhh
12:06
ill go look through my stuff
12:06
did i mention that i do not know the dress code for this wedding?
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 12:07 PM
most weddings are mostly nice. not ball gown nice but nice.
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i found a sweater that mom approves of
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 12:11 PM
thank god.
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i could wear a floral shirt or a solid color one
12:12
but im ngl this white shirt is a v neck and i HATE v necks
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 12:12 PM
floral may be best.
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i agree
12:12
its a bit much but it shouldn't look bad, i think
12:12
its basically exactly what our moms wearing but with different patterns, this woman is crazy
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 12:13 PM
i like it, and most families do go in matching outfits for weddings.
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(she's wearing a shiny suit jacket anyways so it's entirely negated)
12:13
i wish i was joking when i say its shiny
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 12:13 PM
ew.
12:13
what the fuck.
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its very tacky looking but theres no convincing her otherwise
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 12:15 PM
hopefully the venue is too hot and she has to take it off.
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all i'm going to do is probably really light makeup to go with my outfit (no eyeliner or anything, because my eyes are still irritated.. probably just mascara or anything)
12:15
oh, it will be!
12:16
the goal for today is: ffs don't look at me
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 12:16 PM
most adults don’t talk to teens at weddings, so don’t worry.
12:17
we went to a wedding when we were 13 i think? and nobody talked to us. like at all. act shy and they’ll fuck off.
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i like 1 person in the wedding party and that's it
12:17
and she's really nice, i might talk to her if i get the chance
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 12:17 PM
you probably will. once the wedding itself is over, bridesmaid is just a fancy title.
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ok i look
12:28
good enough to leave the houe
12:28
house
12:28
i pinched off a lot of mascara so that i dont look.. crispy
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 12:29 PM
crunch.
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it looked tacky it had to get minimized
12:29
DUDE OUR DAD IS FUCKING TAKING A NAP WHILE MOM AND I ARE GETTING READY I HATE MEN
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 12:30 PM
that’s normal. men always get ready at the last minute.
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im offended
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 12:30 PM
good. it’s annoying.
12:32
uuugh
12:32
i dont want to get up
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 12:33 PM
don’t get up until last minute.
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i gotta get dressed...
12:33
uuugh..
12:35
man i cant even draw to fill the free time because im supposed to be resting this is so RUDE
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 12:36 PM
damn, that’s fucked up. take a book?
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ill probably bring my ipad and whatnot anyway, ive got games and theyve got wifi (edited)
12:37
im an unashamed ipad kid
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 12:38 PM
i too am an ipad kid. aesop’s the worst of us all.
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i believe that
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god idk if im going to eat while we're here
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 4:32 PM
giving up on your wedding meal?
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it's not that, i just
16:32
eugh
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i feel like shit, it's too loud and im overstimulated to hell and back
16:33
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idk if that'll be playable or not but i didnt want to video
16:34
and mind you there is no music playing rn
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 4:35 PM
eugh fuck yeah that’s an average event.
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there's the music.
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 4:37 PM
disgusting. good luck. that’s all i can offer. maybe try going outside for some quiet.
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i have been, and once we're done ill be able to put in headphones to regulate.
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 4:39 PM
good.
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i got that notification 4 times
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 4:41 PM
discord agrees.
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the brides sister was crying and I started crying
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this place is
18:29
a neurodivergent nightmare
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 6:35 PM
all big events are.
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my head hurts. so bad
18:35
i went up to the second floor
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ITS NOT EVEN 7 PM
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 7:11 PM
weddings usually go well into the night.
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i wanna go home
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feitan 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 7:12 PM
i'm so sorry man, you're not going home for some time.
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nooooo
20:19
the wedding chronicles
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 8:20 PM
good lord.
20:20
it is getting later, it should be winding down.
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nope! winding up. the children and elderly are gone.
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i just helped them carry down like 30 chairs
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 8:56 PM
are you okay?
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yeah no i did it willingly im just recovering
20:58
i'm so hot www
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 8:58 PM
i would expect so?
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oh my god im so happy to be home
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 9:43 PM
naptime.
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oh my god i am wiped out
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 10:33 PM
goodnight!
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zero wants to call so i'm staying up
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u don't understand im so gay today
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 10:34 PM
ewwww, i am homophobic. /j
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 10:37 PM
oh! gay.
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….eeehhehe..
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 10:39 PM
i mean. i am no better.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 04/29/2023 10:53 PM
of course dazai did not tell joseph of my ailment. sigh i mentioned being essentially bedbound from pain and they started to fuss.
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of course not.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/02/2023 2:58 AM
shawn is being autistic again. (he has made nothing but taco dip or boxed pasta for the last two weeks)
02:59
maybe a stromboli Once, but otherwise it has just been taco dip and pasta.
02:59
what.. is taco dip.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/02/2023 2:59 AM
…hold on.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/02/2023 3:00 AM
it is…a cream cheese based dip. with taco seasoning and toppings.
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wow thats so autistic of him hello??
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/02/2023 3:01 AM
right?? and. i talked to him about our varying types of ocd. because apparently he has it too (undiagnosed, because why would he get a diagnosis)
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(i desperately need fucking perogies theyre all i want to eat.)
03:01
(i need to go to the store)
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/02/2023 3:01 AM
…what is a perogi. i think l-ca used to mention them a lot but i never registered it/cannot remember now.
03:02
a type of dumpling except its filled with mashed potatoes and cheese (and sometimes other things, depending on what you make / buy)
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/02/2023 3:03 AM
oooh, that sounds quite good, actually. my autism food is always a specific brand of instant noodles.
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so true
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ive always been a perogi bitchand my dad bought them again recently and they re ALL IVE WANTED TO EAT
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/02/2023 3:04 AM
get your perogis as soon as you can. you
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/02/2023 9:34 AM
took princess carolyn off of the simply plural, because aurelio said they are uncomfy with her source and pleiades said they are not comfortable with us rambling about it in an autistic way.
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i mean i understand a discomfort with the source but ffs be nice to the person
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/02/2023 9:36 AM
they are that way about south park too, and are very vocal about disliking fictives from it. i only have issues because of actual trauma, and i do not say a word. but pc is an angel, and they have not even met her properly. she is homesick and scared, and their biggest concern was saying to not talk about it much.
09:36
i cannot?? control who i split?? i split her during the issues with l-ca??
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she seems really nice
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/02/2023 9:38 AM
she is! i adore having her around, she is such a stubborn (/pos) motherly figure.
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it does feel that way even though we haven't met
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/02/2023 9:41 AM
pc is just. scared. she wants her husband and daughter back, and she wants to go home. it hurts her a little (though she would never say so) that they so outwardly hate her talking about home.
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i don't blame her, that's a horrible thing to say to anyone
09:43
she's always welcome to talk about her home here if she likes i will always be a willing audience
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/02/2023 9:43 AM
i know her home is awful, i watched it all. but. pc is still a person, you know?
09:44
i don't know her source so im entirely indifferent
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/02/2023 9:45 AM
it, essentially, highlights how shitty the acting industry is with mental health and holding actors accountable.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/02/2023 9:59 AM
do you. want to see pc’s playlist.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/02/2023 10:02 AM
princess carolyn (fictive) · Playlist · 37 songs
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love the icon
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/02/2023 10:02 AM
i worry about her. (she literally split to help keep our optimism up during the brunt of l-ca’s harassment)
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why is almost this entire list melanie martinez
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/02/2023 10:03 AM
she has issues with expressing her femininity in a non-toxic way.
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that's entirely valid and understandable
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/02/2023 10:05 AM
her whole thing in source is being a strong, dependable woman, and taking the role of a β€œman in society”. so, she has issues with being herself.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/02/2023 10:07 AM
she also has problems with men dumping her or leaving her in the dust when they find out she is infertile, so. she. yeah. pc has troubles accepting her own form of femininity without forcing it.
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oh that's so fucked up
10:07
i wanna give her a hug
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/02/2023 10:09 AM
which is why she misses her daughter so much. she adopted a little girl back home.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/02/2023 10:10 AM
yeah. her life was looking up, i think. at the end of her source, anyway. she married a man who loved her for who she was, they adopted their daughter, and now. she is here. being disliked already for things she cannot control.
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i know there isn't much i can do but i'll be here as much as i can if she ever needs anything
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/02/2023 10:12 AM
i appreciate that. luzpat i cannot so much either, she is already feeling bad for wanting to just. watch source.
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pidge 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/03/2023 2:52 PM
oh NOW that i was going to bed, the landlord is messing with stuff. wow bro.
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pidge 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/04/2023 1:09 AM
not to whine about the healthcare system, but if they had treated us for this disease a decade ago, when we first got tested for it, we wouldn’t be suffering so bad today. because it only gets this bad if it goes untreated for as long as it did.
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how do they even let it go that long??
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pidge 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/04/2023 1:11 AM
because we β€œdidn’t technically have it” a decade ago (the blood panel had everything but ONE SLOT positive, so they didn’t treat it). and it never flared to the point of concern before either.
01:12
it should be manageable now, i’m just whining because we got double whammied with it and the cold
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pidge 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/04/2023 10:04 PM
i love scratching calli’s ears. i do. but even the joints in our fingers hurt.
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pidge 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/05/2023 12:53 AM
we’re out of our anxiety meds wail do you think shawn would be willing to grab them before he leaves town. we haven’t had them in a few days.
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 05/05/2023 12:53 AM
uh.. maybe? ask anyway
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pidge 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/05/2023 12:53 AM
i’ll text him in the morning.
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pidge 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/05/2023 8:22 AM
man, why are the kids so loud. i’m trying to sleep before therapy, and i think we lost our voice. wow
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 05/05/2023 8:23 AM
oh god ?? trll them to fuck off
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pidge 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/05/2023 8:23 AM
aspen, my best friend, i love you /p, i don’t have a voice to tell them off. /lh
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 05/05/2023 8:24 AM
i do! let me do it!
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pidge 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/05/2023 10:49 AM
the want to call out of therapy (not feeling good) versus needing to go to therapy.
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 05/05/2023 10:49 AM
maybe go and cut it short if you need to?
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pidge 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/05/2023 10:51 AM
it’s in…9 minutes. so i’ll probably show up on the video call, looking greasy and tired. she usually just kicks us out if we show up this sick.
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 05/05/2023 10:55 AM
we'll see then
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pidge 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/05/2023 12:04 PM
i did end up getting out a few minutes early (aesop infodumped about source him and the book he’s been annotating)
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 05/05/2023 12:05 PM
all in all, though, it was good?
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pidge 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/05/2023 12:05 PM
pretty good. now i get to deal with the headache that is vox fucking akuma before i nap.
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 05/05/2023 12:05 PM
if you need any help let me know
12:08
i just realized that i said you guys can blame me if you split a vtuber…
12:08
im so sorry
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 05/05/2023 4:20 PM
is it?? weird?? that i'm a little bit bitter that my friend can laugh off being bullied in school? i was bullied to hell and back in school and it still gets to me now, and they're.., laughing about it?
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pidge 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/05/2023 4:20 PM
maybe laughing is their coping mechanism? if it’s a constantly reoccurring thing, though, talk to them about how it’s fucking with you.
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 05/05/2023 4:21 PM
it's not, this is the only time theyve ever mentioned it, but like
16:21
i dunno
16:21
i think im jealous of the way that they can laugh off bad things like they never happened
16:23
whens it my turn
16:23
>:(
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pidge 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/05/2023 4:24 PM
that would make sense, actually. it’s probably jealousy. the time you can laugh is when you process that yeah, it’s fucked up, but what can you do about it?
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 05/05/2023 4:24 PM
yeah, guess so
16:26
normal people are crazy
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pidge 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/05/2023 4:29 PM
they really are.
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pidge 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/05/2023 8:26 PM
i’m reading the notes from the urgent care on monday, and these motherfuckers ACKNOWLEDGED that we’re trans, then used β€œshe” for us for the whole thing. fuckoff i hate doctors.
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pidge 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/06/2023 12:30 PM
it’s day 5 of a general headache from being sick. good news is that our knees are starting to hurt less and we’re less sleepy. still exhausted and im gonna nap soon, but we’re Getting There.
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you're getting there!
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pidge 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/06/2023 11:51 PM
the painkillers wore off wail i’m gonna sneeze and it’s gonna hurt
23:51
OW yep i thought so.
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pidge 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/06/2023 11:51 PM
you know those muscles Right at the base of your skull, where it connects to your neck.
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pidge 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/06/2023 11:51 PM
it HURTS from blowing our nose.
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that sounds like HELL
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pidge 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/06/2023 11:52 PM
IT IS HELL.
23:52
oh and we lost our voice. ada’s super uncomfy with it.
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that was surprisingly expected
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pidge 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/06/2023 11:52 PM
that we lost it or that ada’s uncomfy.
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that you lost it
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pidge 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/06/2023 11:53 PM
ae was talking to ath nikolai for a while and was really upset with how ae sounds.
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there's really nothing you can do though until you start getting better
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pidge 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/07/2023 12:00 AM
aw fuck, it feels like we’re getting a sinus infection.
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pidge 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/07/2023 12:01 AM
we are NOT winning right now.
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pidge 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/07/2023 12:57 AM
let’s play a game of: do i take painkillers or our antibiotics first.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 05/07/2023 12:58 AM
painkillers
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pidge 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/07/2023 12:58 AM
great idea.
01:04
taken. and i put drops in our nose again, they clear it for a few hours at a time. bottle says β€œup to twelve hours” but i get maybe seven if i’m lucky. wail
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 05/07/2023 1:05 AM
you guys are pretty rough medically, but at least it's working.
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pidge 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/07/2023 1:06 AM
you can say we’re fucked up, it’s okay. /lh
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 05/07/2023 1:06 AM
no
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/07/2023 5:05 PM
what if i make. an edit. that is another vent one. about having to now separate my trauma from what l-ca did.
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if you want to
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/07/2023 5:06 PM
the melanie martinez music is making me mentally ill.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/07/2023 7:38 PM
pleiades had tried to reach out to check on me when i had my issues, but it was in a server we had muted cry i feel so awful.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/08/2023 5:42 AM
had a nightmare, then started overthinking again.
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are you okay?
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/08/2023 5:43 AM
not in the slightest! i do not plan to sleep again for a while. so, if you want company at all, lord knows i am up.
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if you want, i'm cleaning up a painting right now
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/08/2023 5:45 AM
let me sit up and grab my earbuds. to the sillies. i am still sleepy, but awake. maybe i will play 4 am rank in source. /hj
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alright!
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/08/2023 7:48 AM
i wake up. claudia is making me feel stupid for not knowing medical shit.
07:49
me: i have problems with being wrong because of trauma, please use tone tags and be gentle if i say something wrong. claudia:
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wtf
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/08/2023 7:50 AM
i swear they are allergic to tone tags.
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they rlly are
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/08/2023 7:51 AM
i’m so sorry for not knowing the statistics of who fucking catching covid, claudia. i do not exactly research medicine for fun.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/08/2023 8:02 AM
β€œit’s always informational from me” claudia. there is a tone tag for that. wail
08:08
me: i need tone tags, but when people are visibly pissed i will not believe them. it is something i am working on. claudia: so. i don’t see the point in using them around you.
08:09
i am not in the mood today, claudia. i am in a shit headspace and will cry.
08:14
it is Seven in the Morning.
08:14
it definitely feels like they provoke me to try to make me leave front. it happens every god damn time i am here.
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i wouldnt doubt it
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/08/2023 8:33 AM
five bucks says she never figures out that her phrasing of β€œreimi and yosano ran things just fine without you” does, in fact, make me feel worse.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/08/2023 8:34 AM
β€œi’m not saying i don’t want you around” (proceeds to tell me all the ways to stay out of front that works for her system and says reimi runs things better than me).
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im gonna kick her ass
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/08/2023 8:36 AM
reimi is also, you know, sixteen. so.
08:36
she cannot tend to things forever.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/08/2023 8:41 AM
pleiades and castle both saying not to fight. because claudia does not stop telling me what to do.
08:41
i am so tired of her.
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she sounds like a really shitty system host that needs to be put in timeout for a month
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/08/2023 8:42 AM
she is a terrible host, frankly. i am sick and tired of her acting like every system is the same. she is treating me like i am machi, with how i cannot leave.
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yeah, no..
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/08/2023 8:44 AM
how many times do i need to say β€œi cannot leave front” for her to get it into her head.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/08/2023 10:49 AM
guess who never even got acknowledgement for claudia harassing me this morning.
10:49
me!
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/08/2023 10:49 AM
her, being told to stop: her: it never happened.
10:51
i Said i was having a bad day. i explained it all. and it also went ignored.
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sleep did Not improve my day.
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are you okay?
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i had another nightmare.
16:59
god, i'm sorry? is there anything i can do for you?
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not really. i am just going to. lay here for a while.
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ill be around
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thank you. luzpat
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me when i am frontstuck and fyodor is roped into watching a shitty old movie with claudia and dazai.
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/08/2023 6:20 PM
As shit as it is to listen to them flirt constantly (Yes I’m still dating Tatsu), the movie IS fucking funny.
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what movie is it
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/08/2023 6:20 PM
Zoolander.
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/08/2023 6:21 PM
A stupid ass 2001 movie. That somehow has Owen Wilson and Ben Stiller??
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/08/2023 6:23 PM
I think we’re just gonna watch bad movies with Tatsu for her birthday.
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i see
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sorry im here now because i mentioned something in a conversation that made me think
19:13
i feel like zero's been like a pinch distant ever since aesop suggested inviting oliver to the server not hierophant as a whole, just zero, and i'm not sure what it is
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/08/2023 7:14 PM
I. I don’t know. You should try talking to it about that if it’s bothering you.
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i will the next time i get a chance
19:14
i just needed to.., say that. i needed it off my brain so i stop thinking about it
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/08/2023 7:15 PM
I’m glad you could mention it. I hope it gets better, that’s terrifying.
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it's definitely terrifying but
19:17
im trying to get better at communicating πŸ‘
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/08/2023 7:19 PM
You’re doing a damn good job of it.
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confronting people about stuff is scary
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/08/2023 8:17 PM
It’s so fucking scary, are you okay?
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yeah, all good i think
20:18
im still concerned, but its fiinne...?
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/08/2023 8:19 PM
Make sure you take care of yourself.
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yeah i will, dont worry
20:19
genuinely im pretty sure everything is alright im just burning off the excess stress
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/08/2023 8:21 PM
You are pretty stressed by your upcoming trip, which makes sense why you’d worry about other shit.
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yeah! okay! all good >:3
20:30
im out here improving my communication skills (very slowly)
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/08/2023 8:30 PM
Good job! luzpat
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/09/2023 12:09 AM
why overthink things i have to talk to joseph about, when i can watch someone playing mario galaxy live on tiktok.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/09/2023 12:49 AM
i am, in fact, still watching him play mario galaxy.
00:54
every time he wins a level, the chat just says β€œw”. i am very cozy.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/09/2023 1:14 AM
it has been an hour. and i am still here.
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serena 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/09/2023 9:14 PM
I front an’ a migraine follows me.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 05/09/2023 9:15 PM
eugh..
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/10/2023 11:28 AM
claudia may have ruined any hope i had of having a half decent birthday tomorrow, but to i am sitting outside and pretending to get sunlight. maybe that will help.
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outside is good!
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i feel like there are so many people here that we just haven’t seen yet and that thought freaks me out but also i dont want to go looking
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/10/2023 4:16 PM
going to look makes my head hurt, personally, so i always send michiko. she does her best, but they hide. no shame in missing a few.
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usually the one finding people is crimson
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/10/2023 4:17 PM
the way caspian just slammed his ass into the door at that name. pos_laugh
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AHAHA
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/10/2023 4:18 PM
I MISS MY DAWG OKAY
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one of these days hes going to come up here carrying people by the collar
16:18
LOOK ok it”s so hard to find him he’s like
16:18
everywhere and nowhere all at once
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/10/2023 4:18 PM
That’s my BOY hiding and shit
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HE’S SCARY
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/10/2023 4:19 PM
GOOD
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GOOD?
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/10/2023 4:19 PM
YEAH
16:19
Homies gonna be scary
16:20
horrifying
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/10/2023 4:20 PM
That’s my homeslice right there
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our system bio is so outdated
16:21
we spent so much time foggy that i dont know who does what anymore
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/10/2023 4:21 PM
Weren’t you all foggy for Months
16:22
we still usually are
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im back again bitches!! uh. lol im jealous of my friends
20:13
like..
20:14
ok these two have singing as a hobby (and so do we, if you dont know, we're stupid and autistic when it comes to music)
20:14
but i never get invited to do music stuff with them
20:15
even though they know i can and they know i love doing stuff with them but they dont even try no matter how many times i show interest
20:15
whens it my turn to be invited to an activity instead of starting it myself
20:15
i know i need to talk to them about it but fuck i don't want to
20:19
i did it anyway
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/10/2023 8:47 PM
you 🀝 me jealous of our friends. i am glad that you talked to them! you need that. did they say why they excluded you?
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they said they didn't mean to, that they didn't really know if i had an interest in it and thought i was just not comfortable with it i guess
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/10/2023 8:49 PM
eh, it could be worse. at least they know now and can invite you to join.
20:52
these people are the ones that encourage me to actually talk to them
20:52
so
20:52
theyre succeeding
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/12/2023 2:00 AM
β€œi thought you were just isolating” and you did not ask? not even to see if i was alright?
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/12/2023 2:12 AM
me, explaining that i am afraid of speaking of my problems because every time i do i just get told to leave front (i literally cannot leave): aure: don’t bottle things :(
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ruggie 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 2:36 PM
bro our tummy HURTS rn maybe the ice cream yesterday was a BAD idea (worth it bc it tasted good)
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ice cream :)
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ruggie 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 2:39 PM
this sunlight fucking hurts bro we’re gonna burn (meds make us burn)
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i want dairy queen..
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ruggie 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 2:43 PM
i still want ice cream even tho i’m hurty
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ice creamZcv
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ruggie 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 2:47 PM
we’re having a bday party for a DOG tonight
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ruggie 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 2:47 PM
YEAH
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ruggie 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 3:52 PM
DUDE OUR ARMS FEEL BURNT AND WE ONLY SAT IN THR SUN FOR LIKE 20 MINS
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ruggie 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 3:54 PM
these gd antibiotics make us burn if we’re in the sun and it wasn’t in the forecast that the clouds would clear
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ruggie 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 7:03 PM
bro jill’s mom smacks her lips when she eats im gonna kms
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ruggie 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 7:04 PM
THATS WJAT IM SAYING BRO
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ruggie 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 8:26 PM
the way aesop isn’t actually asleep and is MAD annoyed w oceanus rn
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i believe this entirely what happened
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ruggie 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 8:27 PM
they’re taking shit of joseph from his channel and putting it him joseph’s
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???????
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ruggie 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 8:28 PM
β€œyou didn’t put it there yourselves” OK SO LEAVE IT
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wow it's almost like he would've done it himself
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ruggie 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 8:29 PM
aesop says that joseph is very picky, and wants to be safe.
20:29
YEAH
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i believe that and it's reasonable
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ruggie 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 8:30 PM
and this is why aesop NEEDED to talk to joseph this week, because he’s so scared of being replaced like this. chuuya was doing this shit to dazai before fyodor got broken up with and aesops SCARED
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ehgh.. that's so fucking scary
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ruggie 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 8:32 PM
but joseph’s lost in headspace and that’s fucking with aesop super bad right now
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i really don't blame him thats genuinely terrifying
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ruggie 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 8:33 PM
and the fact that aurelio doesn’t actually want aesop to know? β€œdon’t tell aesop” they said. too bad, he’s getting told
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WHY WOULD YOU NOT TELL HIM??
20:33
oh my god ??
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ruggie 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 8:34 PM
they β€œdon’t want him to worry”
20:34
well he DOES worry
20:34
he’s an ocd symptom holder and he thinks all this shit is going wrong because he didn’t do chainmail posts or his rituals
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eugh....
20:35
this whole situation is really icky feeling
20:35
and i really hate it
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ruggie 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 8:36 PM
you and me both, this is awful and we literally can’t do anything. aesop LITERALLY SAID HE FEELS ON EGGSHELLS and they just ignored us worse
20:37
RED FUCKING FLAG
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.....
20:37
when am i allowed to throw hands!
20:37
please!! im on my knees over here!
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ruggie 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 8:38 PM
aesop putting his foot down to tell claudia to not say things abt his partner
20:38
fuck we’re getting an anxiety attack over it
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i have hands to throw. please let me know if they start doing shit i will absolutely throw if its in a public space that i have access to
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ruggie 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 8:39 PM
i will if they try defending their ass.
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im watching intently
20:41
NOOOOO FUCKING WAY
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ruggie 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 8:42 PM
he’s going to make the body cry.
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may i?
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ruggie 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 8:42 PM
if they keep defending it, say smthn small
20:43
get they ass
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i want to yell
20:45
planning on dropping it my as
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 8:45 PM
how do i tell them that their explanation does not change how fucking uncomfortable it made me without them being angry with me.
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honestly i don't think that's possible
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 8:46 PM
i feel like shit. kittycry
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i'm sorry that this all is happening, aesop
20:47
i don't understand what gives them the right to act all high and mighty about this shit
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 8:47 PM
they would not like if if i flirted with claudia because she is β€œa best friend”. so what the fuck makes it okay
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i dunno.
20:47
doesn't feel right
20:49
"he gave her permission" it wouldve helped if you'd said that.. initially?
20:49
even though i still think it sounds weird. and out of place. for what i know.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 8:49 PM
and if he had talked to me about it? he would not just say that without telling me.
20:50
not to mention, i am still peeved with dazai for the thing from my trip. so, he is allowed to tell others that i am indecent, but i cannot even voice a discomfort for how they speak of my lover?
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 8:52 PM
playing up the β€œi don’t know he is missing” thing, since aure said i should not know. <3
20:56
i should have paid attention when i woke to calli on my chest. but i was too disoriented to do so.
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i'm sorry, there's so much going on
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 9:10 PM
i am so overwhelmed. (people talking, dogs barking, sunburn on my arms, calli hurting said sunburn by laying on me, exhaustion…)
21:14
i am talking things out with dazai, which is going better without claudia around.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 9:16 PM
i told them that they should have said as much to me when they knew that joseph would not show on my birthday, as i was panicking the whole day as is. and they in turn said to not call disagreements β€œarguments”.
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nearly every "disagreement" with them seems to turn into an argument
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 9:18 PM
i agree entirely. but they still wanted me to say such a thing.
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i'm gonna be honest
21:18
please do tell them
21:18
that if they have an issue with the way i said something
21:18
they can say it to me and not through a third party
21:19
you're not responsible for what i choose to say
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 9:21 PM
they specifically told me about their dislike for what you said.
21:21
fuck, i leave front for half a god damn hour.
21:21
and i did not even leave! i was on the cot!
21:23
β€œyou need to leave, everything will be fine if you do” bullshit.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 9:48 PM
not them being mad at me for telling you that they mentioned you-
21:49
fuck, my arms hurt. i hate everything. i just wanted to rest sit
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is the conversation over?
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 9:52 PM
ha, no.
21:53
β€œi over explain”, dazai said, before getting clearly irritated with me over explaining.
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i'm sorry about all of this
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 9:55 PM
i am scared of putting my foot down for this exact reason. and i would probably be less panicked if i was not overwhelmed and in pain.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 10:02 PM
at least we earned $20 tonight.
22:03
we are on β€œuber shawn and jill home from the bar” duty. i should charge extra for emotional distress. /hj
22:04
i clarified that i am madly overwhelmed right now, and dazai said β€œi’m not ignoring you, i just can’t do anything but shitpost rn”. that is. /neg
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not the shitpost..?
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 10:08 PM
of course he is posting nsfw ones in the sisyphus server. wow
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 10:09 PM
i am so, so tired.
22:10
so i am dissociating to my musical, and waiting to get shawn/jill from whatever bar they end up in.
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be careful
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 10:11 PM
doing my best. michiko is keeping an eye on me.
22:13
feeling like act one constance right now. /v-neg
22:13
(overshadowed by family and competed with by someone she thought loved her)
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o. oh.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 10:15 PM
her sister tried to take the man she loved, their last fight being the song β€œsix feet under”, and said sister took her family’s care because she could sing so well (constance could also sing beautifully, if not better than, her sister).
22:16
autism about mor, it gets me through things. i love this musical.
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but autism
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/13/2023 10:19 PM
autism good. i can autism in the proper channel, if you want. i cannot remember if you like musicals or not.
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go ahead!
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why are they congratulating zero for a fight it sat in on but wasn't playing for
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/14/2023 8:25 PM
i have no idea. i was barely even checking my phone when i was playing either.
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that was so weird
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/14/2023 8:25 PM
the only time i did was to check character stats.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/14/2023 8:49 PM
playing friendly is so weird.
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im just here for the dice im going to be honest
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/14/2023 8:50 PM
so true, i just felt the need to explain the pelican love-hate relationship.
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who is that anyways
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/14/2023 8:53 PM
a friend of aurelio’s. i liked their vibe, and they have a spin on birds like i do.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/14/2023 8:54 PM
they almost adopted a baby pigeon, but it was swooped up before they could. :(
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/14/2023 8:54 PM
I KNOW. ada has been doing more research into birds for emil as well, he told her that he really likes birds.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/14/2023 8:55 PM
i need you to know, her tiktok folder is currently: one of those chocolate bars with the obscene short messages on it, a video about birds with massive toes, and a song she likes.
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so true
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/14/2023 10:27 PM
do not compare us.
22:27
eugh
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/14/2023 10:27 PM
me: i struggle with possessiveness. please do not make comments about them. them, still making comments about my partner:
22:29
holy fuck, he is back.
22:31
catching my actual breath right now, oh my god.
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you okay?
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/14/2023 10:34 PM
i would be lying if i said i was not worried, he does not remember being gone for more than a day or two.
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i don't blame you for being worried
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/14/2023 10:35 PM
i am terrified for him, truly. please, i am watching hxh.
22:35
i cannot sob while watching kurapika kill a man.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/14/2023 11:39 PM
sigh i am speaking with them about some of the things i had been worried about, and they demanded that they make it up to me for missing my birthday, especially with how bad the letter was.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/15/2023 2:07 AM
i feel a lot better, now having spoken to joseph about my anxieties. they reassured me wonderfully and they are finally sharing some of the small things about themself. i told them that i did not know much about them in terms of the mundane, so they are saying what they remember of my likes, and sharing their own.
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/15/2023 11:48 AM
A little scared of properly fronting and talking to people, considering I split from the stress that Claudia’s hostility caused. But whatever.
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are you adjusting alright?
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/15/2023 11:49 AM
I’ve been around a good few days, so I’m adjusting pretty well. Just not a fan of the concept of having to talk to people. We need some new friends.
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i agree, yeah
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/15/2023 11:50 AM
I’m just not sure where to make them. Maybe I’ll fuck around later and look for system servers on Disboard or something.
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good luck!
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/15/2023 11:52 AM
In the meantime. I’m gonna try to socialize with the Bitches.
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good luck, you're going to need it
11:53
feel free to drag me along into any new servers you join if you need company
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/15/2023 11:53 AM
I appreciate that, thank you.
11:54
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/15/2023 11:55 AM
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hi calli :3
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/15/2023 11:57 AM
Hi Nexus :3
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/15/2023 11:58 AM
A BOY.
11:58
He has autism in his eyes.
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he does
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/15/2023 9:58 PM
jumpscared by a character named machi (match-ee) in hxh.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/15/2023 10:00 PM
absolutely spooked.
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iris ⋆.ೃ࿔* | 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/16/2023 5:13 PM
making new friends is so scary...
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you doing alright?
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iris ⋆.ೃ࿔* | 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/16/2023 5:15 PM
overwhelmed and scared. too many people and too much energy.
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do you need help? anything i can do?
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iris ⋆.ೃ࿔* | 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/16/2023 5:17 PM
no, i'll be okay...just got overwhelmed by big babbling. new friend was too.
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ohh, yeah
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iris ⋆.ೃ࿔* | 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/16/2023 5:20 PM
i love aurelio to death, but they're so hyper...
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aurelio is VERY hyper
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iris ⋆.ೃ࿔* | 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/16/2023 5:22 PM
yeah, they are. and it overwhelmed me a little bit. bad memory day, but i'm not gonna tell them that.
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/16/2023 8:39 PM
The hospital broke HIPPA on us, I think. fuckoff
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/16/2023 8:40 PM
They wrote a letter to Shawn about our care team, and we didn’t sign a release or information about it.
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ooooh......
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/16/2023 8:44 PM
I might be able to sue them for it…
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if you think its worth pursuing
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/16/2023 8:50 PM
Aurelio’s helping me write a very threatening email about their HIPPA violation.
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/16/2023 8:51 PM
They had no reason to write to Shawn, I’m fucking LUCKY they deadnamed us.
20:52
if they were going to write anyone, wouldn't it be
20:52
fucking
20:52
amanda?
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/16/2023 8:52 PM
Yep!
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i know she's the one managing your money but idk about anything else
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/16/2023 8:59 PM
Amanda is in charge of our care and assisting us with appointments and whatnot. She still shouldn’t receive information about us in this way, though. So I don’t know why Shawn did.
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yeah, no, it's weird
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/16/2023 9:00 PM
Do you ever just file a HIPPA violation complaint at 8 PM on a Tuesday.
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can't say i have!
21:01
yknow what though the amount of times ive seen people so casually break hippa rules...
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/16/2023 9:01 PM
Shawn’s done it a number of times, when he used to work in psychology.
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we have.. a shocking amount of family that work in medical fields
21:02
the only 2 i actually care about are pretty good about it but our one aunt on our moms side...
21:02
her kids! would walk in! on peoples therapy appointments!
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/16/2023 9:02 PM
What??
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it was during the era of..
21:02
zoom calls..
21:02
yeah
21:02
they walked in on multiple occasions
21:03
i remember it bc she would always shove them onto me when she was on the phone with someone
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solomon ⋆.ೃ࿔* | 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/19/2023 2:37 PM
man, i have to socialize with that bitchass chuuya.
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ew? really?
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solomon ⋆.ೃ࿔* | 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/19/2023 2:37 PM
yeah, he’s driving and the dazai guy insists we β€œharass chuuya while he drives”.
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solomon ⋆.ೃ࿔* | 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/19/2023 2:38 PM
i’d usually say no, since aesop’s having a bad weekend (weather shit), but i don’t have an excuse not to. they know we never have plans on friday’s
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you have plans with me get in here (/joke)
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solomon ⋆.ೃ࿔* | 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/19/2023 2:39 PM
aha. do you want to sit in sillies and play games instead.
14:39
or do your homework.
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i have to do homework! keep me company!
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solomon ⋆.ೃ࿔* | 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/19/2023 2:39 PM
great! i’d love to!
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i will happily give you an excuse not to talk to chuuya www
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solomon ⋆.ೃ࿔* | 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/19/2023 2:41 PM
i need it. and some company is good with the shit weather.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/19/2023 8:30 PM
ugh, chuuya is talking about being in person with dazai again. wow
20:30
shut up, we get it.
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tlel him to go suck a di
20:30
sorry
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/19/2023 8:30 PM
i Will throw a fucking fit if i have to listen to claudia talking about harassing joseph with sour candies.
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i dont blame you
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/19/2023 8:32 PM
if she has the audacity to talk about that with me. after everything she did on and around my birthday. i will lose my mind (sob uncontrollably).
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i have hands to throw i will tell her to shut the fuck up on your behalf
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/19/2023 8:33 PM
i would not tell her to do so, that is mean. but i will be incredibly hurt.
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i (personally) am not afraid of being mean but i understand why you wouldnt want to
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/19/2023 8:34 PM
i am not sure by what, frankly, but the concept of her spending time with him after saying i should expect nothing on my trauma day? and her fighting with me over why i was uncomfortable with her saying things about him?
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/19/2023 9:34 PM
i am about to do stupid things. (found another hurt/no comfort fic that i had read when i was still friends with l-ca)
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uh oh.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/19/2023 9:34 PM
teehee.
21:34
i love the ones where my partner dies and i go into an inconsolable grief.
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yeah... me too..
21:35
i look at the painful hurt no comfort fic i was reading that im waiting for it to update
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/19/2023 9:36 PM
shattered and je t’aime <3
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i read and write angst fics because it makes my own pain hurt less qiqifallen
21:37
so honestly
21:37
so true read the hurt no comfort
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/19/2023 9:39 PM
i appreciate the encouragement. it makes me feel like my deep-set self loathing and constant grief has reason. (i still have not properly grieved my child)
21:39
grieving is hard
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/19/2023 9:40 PM
no kidding. especially when it is a family member, nonetheless a child.
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yeah..
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/19/2023 11:14 PM
i am so easily irritable right now, and i will lose my mind if i have to see chuuya and dazai bickering like they aren’t right next to each other again.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/19/2023 11:41 PM
wow
23:43
not to whine, but they both keep almost immediately talking over my headmates and i when we simp. always us. they flat out ignore us and talk over us within twenty minutes.
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ivan goncharov 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 11:32 AM
i . . . may have poked claudia a little about the . . . technical cheating with fyodor . . . by asking if i should set their status on their bio to single . . .
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what happened?
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ivan goncharov 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 11:33 AM
β€œthat’s a good question, let me figure that out!” i . . . don’t know what you’re planning . . . but that makes me nervous . . .
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wwwwhat..
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ivan goncharov 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 11:34 AM
what is she doing . . .
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i dont like that
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ivan goncharov 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 11:35 AM
neither do i . . .
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i hate saying this but maybe you should just in case
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ivan goncharov 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 11:41 AM
i won’t mess with it until she says yes or no . . . just because i’m curious of her reactions . . .
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 1:40 PM
It’s been two hours. Nothing yet.
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 1:51 PM
They’re bickering in Sisyphus again wow Claudia answer the question.
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of course they are
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 1:52 PM
I should give you a tour of that fucking server later, it’s so bad.
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lease do
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ivan goncharov 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 9:26 PM
ten hours . . . nothing . . .
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seriously?
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ivan goncharov 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 9:28 PM
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?????
21:28
how do you figure that out isnt it just..
21:28
very cut and dry..
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ivan goncharov 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 9:29 PM
she’s either . . . figuring out if she should break up with eso . . . or finding time to talk to theatrum about fyodor . . .
21:29
she’s currently visiting ath . . .
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mm...
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ivan goncharov 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 9:31 PM
yeah . . .
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 9:39 PM
i swear to god, if i have to listen to dazai and claudia talk about their sex lives-
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 9:39 PM
β€œyou can’t tell anyone about what you and joseph did. at all.” they say, as they talk about their sex lives and plans in the sisyphus server.
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ew ew ew ew
21:40
that's not something you talk about in public anyway honestly
21:40
doesnt matter who you're with
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 9:40 PM
β€œwe want to fuck in a stairwell at the convention”, but heaven forbid the mesmers talk about kissing in the park.
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NO NO NOOO NOT IN PUBLIC????
21:40
EW
21:40
EW.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 9:41 PM
yes. in public. a very public place, in fact.
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THAT'S SO DISGUSTING
21:41
AND?? THERE'S NO WAY THAT'S LEGAL???
21:41
no one at that convention consents to that shit...
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 9:41 PM
it’s not! πŸ˜ƒ it is in fact public indecency and indecent exposure! not to mention assault to whoever stumbles upon them, and very illegal if it is a minor!
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 9:42 PM
ath wants to study law.
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that's so yucky
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 9:42 PM
i hate it here. the hypocrisy from dazai is killing me.
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i really !!! do not like them!!!
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 9:43 PM
i made a very discrete joke around them, about my cursing and an innuendo, and they were not happy about it.
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noo..
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 9:43 PM
fuckoff i rarely curse, dazai, let me joke. you harass me about my shame and hate when i let it down?
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that's so disgusting im 😭 i'm so sorry???
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 9:44 PM
it is only funny to harass the victorians when they fight back. wow
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it's so ???
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 9:45 PM
the joke was… β€œaesop said fuck??” β€œi said fuck a lot last week.”
21:45
that is it.
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????????????????????
21:46
i'm so confused about these people
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 9:46 PM
that peeved him. because his mind went dirty, and though it was true, i did not say that.
21:46
what if i had just stubbed my toe? or tripped? i did trip a lot.
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it's not even that weird
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 9:47 PM
my innuendo is a LOT less weird than flat out saying they want to be CAUGHT IN THE ACT by theatrum (multiple times) and in a stairwell.
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????!??!?
21:48
that's not ok! that's not even legal! that's so disgusting!
21:48
you can actually contact convention staff and tell them explicitly not to allow them in if you have viable reason
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 9:48 PM
not to MENTION how dazai and claudia used joseph and i as an experiment for an aphrodisiac that they want to use at this convention. wow
21:49
but yeah you can definitely contact the convention staff about stuff like that
21:49
plans to do illegal stuff at the convention is grounds for at least monitoring if not barring entry
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 9:50 PM
unfortunately, i do not think ath bought their own ticket, and i do not know oceanus’s last name. their deadname is, unfortunately, very common, and i do not know if they bought their ticket under that or aj.
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if you email them you could probably attach pictures
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 9:51 PM
if i hear them mention the thing they made joseph and i eat, i will email the staff.
21:52
especially if they mention that they plan to bring and use it at the convention
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 9:52 PM
they have already mentioned it so many times, and have since before even purchasing it. which is why they made us test it for them, to see if it was a placebo or not.
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e..w....
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 9:54 PM
wow it did not even taste good, which bothers me a little. /lh
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i really almost want to ask what it was but i know i should not
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 9:55 PM
you know those aphrodisiac chocolates on tiktok? that.
21:55
completely unsurprised oddly enough
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 9:56 PM
yeah, no, it did not taste good. you would think a chocolate would not leave such an awful taste in one’s mouth.
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i can imagine, i think
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 9:59 PM
i am an autistic man, and i will complain about how awful the chocolate itself tasted pos_laugh it was a very dense chocolate, i do not know how to describe that? it felt heavy to taste, if that makes sense.
22:00
yeah i know what you mean
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 10:01 PM
good, i am so glad you understand that. it needed to be chased with water, that was how bad it tasted to the both of us.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 10:04 PM
yeah. ew. and it was directly after claudia/dazai demanded we eat sour candies. luckily they were not too bad, just sour skittles and some airhead xtremes.
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i haaate sour skittles but love airheads
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 10:05 PM
i hated the sour skittles. but i did not mind the airheads too badly, frankly i just played up the response to amuse claudia.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 10:19 PM
#helluvaboss #memes #helluvabossstolas #helluvabossseason2episode4 #helluvabossstella #school #thatonekid #fyp #fypγ‚· #fyppppppppppppppppppppppp
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 10:19 PM
me when i have to talk to dazai.
22:19
and claudia. mostly claudia.
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doppo kunikida 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/20/2023 11:51 PM
"I've never seen a Kunikida say fuck before." Okay? Don't make a huge deal out of it.
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ivan goncharov 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/21/2023 11:26 AM
24 hours now . . .
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/21/2023 11:52 AM
mm, the fanfic i was going to rewrite? ath dazai found it, and is currently reading it. i fear he and claudia will make fun of it.
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aaah.. ignore them! ignore their opinions
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/21/2023 11:53 AM
i am so worried, it was not good, and i said i need to redo it so many times.
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well, keep that in mind
11:54
if they make a comment, you Know that you're going to redo it
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/21/2023 6:36 PM
The heart drop from Claudia messaging me. (She just wanted to say she loves me and to talk about Ivan’s question).
18:38
She’s…suggesting I keep it, but that I still be kept secret.
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h...hah..?
18:39
i dont think thats how that works
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/21/2023 6:41 PM
β€œI don’t want
18:41
I don’t think me being a side piece is a β€œstupid situation”. /Lh
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yeah..,,. i'm not sure how..
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/21/2023 6:45 PM
I ended up just saying something along the lines of β€œThat’s fine, I don’t love it but if it makes you happy, I’ll do it.”
18:45
I know she said that she’s β€œlost all sense of morality” when it comes to Theatrum, but that was when Machi was still around.
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/21/2023 7:04 PM
I haven’t gotten a response kittyscared Tatsu I love you, but I’m afraid. ✨
19:05
Jinxed myself, she responded.
19:06
I love having to comfort her. /S
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aaaah.. it's so not hard to tell someone that you're in a relationship....
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/21/2023 7:07 PM
It is if it’s been going on for two months and they weren’t aware.
19:07
Almost three months, now.
19:07
Imply-asking if this is how it’ll always be <3
19:14
Oh thank God, she said it’s not forever sigh
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/21/2023 7:24 PM
I await the dDID I JUST GET A POST NOTIFICATION FOR ANDREW TATE
19:25
I was going to say I await the day that Tatsu flirts with me how I do to her, but Andrew Tate is funnier.
19:28
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/21/2023 7:29 PM
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/21/2023 8:13 PM
β€œWhy do you stick around, she technically cheated on you too.” I don’t know. I just can’t leave.
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i get that while its a valid question.... parting from that stuff is really hard
20:20
you wanna believe they're being 100% good to you even though you know theyre not
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/21/2023 8:21 PM
Exactly. I just…can’t do it. She said it won’t be like this forever, and I can’t help but believe her. Love’s a funny thing, and I can’t just walk away from the only person who says she loves me.
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i understand, and its okay
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/21/2023 8:24 PM
Hierophant doesn’t understand, and I get it. But I can’t explain to them why I just can’t leave. I don’t have friends, I don’t have anyone else to turn to like I can to Tatsu.
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i can understand why they wouldnt get it but i know i do
20:25
you love someone and even though theyve hurt you, you don't know what to do with yourself without them
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/21/2023 8:27 PM
Exactly. That’s my problem.
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osamu, texting me and asking if i knew:
20:27
i slam my head on the table
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/21/2023 8:28 PM
If you knew about my shit? Yeah.
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i very much so know
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/21/2023 8:29 PM
Yeah, because I tell you about it. /Lh
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if osamu gets mad at me because i can't see their viewpoint on it im gonna IkeSob1
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/21/2023 8:32 PM
They talk like it’s easy to just walk away. wow
20:32
I just…can’t do that. It’s not possible, if she wants me gone, she would have to leave me.
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/21/2023 8:35 PM
sigh I hate it here. I love her, she’s my partner, and I still love Dazai. I can’t just walk away.
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osamu is mad at me. im so tired.
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/21/2023 8:42 PM
Why is she mad at you?
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wuxian
osamu, texting me and asking if i knew:
the moment this happened it made me uncomfortable, it was: idk if fyodor told you but claudia is cheating on them
20:42
rubbed me the wrong fucking way but i explained it, and then she eplained her own situation, that she'd been trying to tell you it wasn't worth it to continue and said you wouldn't listen
20:42
and i tried to explain without saying too much, but i think i took the wrong tone with the conversation
20:42
and is now mad at me.
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/21/2023 8:43 PM
I’m listening to her, and saying I understand what she’s saying, but that I can’t do what she can.
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i told her that you're not intentionally trying to be noncompliant and/or press back against advice
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/21/2023 11:24 PM
having a moment (reading β€œto pause time with you” again) (ath only knows it as the β€œhistorically accurate homophobia fic”) (it fucks me up and i am unwell).
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are you okay?
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/21/2023 11:26 PM
good question! i am missing jerry again, as much as i should not. and english words are feeling bad, which definitely means i am unwell.
23:31
be careful and let me know if you need anything?
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/21/2023 11:32 PM
i will. petpatpot just one of those nights. it has entirely been triggered by outside forces, and. i really need to tell joseph my lore. ha, lore, my trauma. with jerry, and bane, and with ephraim’s β€œdeath”.
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call it lore to cope with the immeasurable pain it brings you (/cj)
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/21/2023 11:44 PM
absolutely. you need to be a level twenty five friend to have all of that lore, and i do not think i have told anyone all three of them.
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i tend to rest at a solid level 5 friend with everyone i know
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/21/2023 11:48 PM
i believe you are about level twenty three for me, almost to the point of having all the details. ephraim lore comes at twenty five.
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ive unlocked lore?
23:49
since when?
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/21/2023 11:49 PM
do you want the bane and jerry lore? i have not offered it.
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i mean, if youd like to talk about it! i will listen!
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/21/2023 11:53 PM
feel free to ask for clarifications, i am just giving very vague examples of things they both did. bane? transphobe. very strongly. to the point of being a peeping tom and a harasser. jerry? necrophile and transphobe. called me his β€œprecious rose” when he. um. yeah. i was very lucky to only become a parent at about twenty five.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 12:01 AM
teehee.
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jesus christ
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 12:02 AM
jerry loved to say that queer people β€œcan’t escape judgement by dying, even without their souls, their bodies can still be punished”. that was his excuse for his. actions.
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e... ew..?
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 12:04 AM
yeah. thank god i ended his miserable life, frankly.
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that is so deserved
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 12:06 AM
of course it is. i know good and well that if he lived, i would have killed him later on anyway. i would not want him being alive at the same time as my daughter.
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yeah. no, completely and entirely understood
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 12:08 AM
now ephraim lore comes whenever i feel like explaining. because i just unlocked the date that happened.
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O. Oh.
00:09
not the date..
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 12:10 AM
i was. digging in memories. it was raining, but not cold, rather it was warm and humid. so between the months of late may and early september. thus…june eleventh.
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aahh..
00:11
i handshake you
00:11
june 19th
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 12:11 AM
june traumaversaries! twins! /lh-cj
00:11
yeah!!! woohoo!!'
00:11
i have two i have that one and november 27th
00:12
that entire time period inbetween those two is like a fever dream
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 12:14 AM
june eleventh and…hold on. there is another june one.
00:15
june thirteenth. <3
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wtf is it with june and trauma
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 12:15 AM
both are death days.
00:15
i had to google our great grandmothers obituary to remember the second.
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june 19th and the whole week leading up to it are a nightmare to me and i Only remember the dates not even what exactly happened
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 12:16 AM
the whole month feels fuzzy, because of the grief. sigh
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that's so fucking sad i was so drowned in trauma that i dont remember when our grandma died and that woman was literally one of the most important people in our life
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 12:17 AM
grandmothers and being better parents than actual parents.
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i was trying to think about it but i literally don't remember that day
00:18
i remember a bit leading up to it but not the day itself
00:18
i slam my head on the table
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 12:18 AM
i know i was host for it, but. slam
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what if.. trauma (poof)
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 12:19 AM
i cannot remember much of the funeral. i know i refused to look at her body, and i did not speak much.
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i left the building during the service
00:19
i know i did because i didn't eat after the fact
00:20
that shit is awful
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 12:21 AM
i did that too, walking out during the viewing, i mean. i sat outside for ages, texting luca and tobi. the bracelet i wore itched, but it was a gift from her.
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i dont think there was a viewing for hers
00:22
but at that point
00:22
the entire day and the entire day prior
00:23
someone had been quite literally sexting us. the entire time. and i mean THE ENTIRE TIME. during the fucking service. knowing it was going on. and fuck i wish we didn't do it back
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 12:25 AM
HELP? i am sorry, the general concept is a tad amusing, but disgusting. i know luca would have done that if iris didn’t β€œfake her own death”.
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I MEAN it is a little funny leading back to it but that ties into a whole other thing 😭 awful men
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 12:27 AM
men are disgusting, good lord. if it helps, when we were told our grandmother died, carlisle was looping…a specific homestuck song. hold on. let me get it for you so you can get the full picture.
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oh god not the homestuck song..
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god what i do remember is that
00:29
our dad went to visit her in the hospital ava we decided not to go with him
00:29
and a couple weeks later we went out for breakfast with him and were talking about making plans to go visit her
00:30
and we fell asleep when we got home and woke up to our sister waking us up to tell us that she died
00:30
i was so? that fucking hurt
00:30
it still hurts
00:30
i don't go up to visit our family anymore because of it
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 12:32 AM
i get it. shawn came home, opened our door, and just said β€œgrandma’s dead”. then walked away. we have not seen our family much since.
00:32
oh, and tomorrow is our dead childhood pet’s birthday too.
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i think i distanced from almost all of our extended family on both sides after that
00:33
i avoid both sides
00:33
god. pets
00:33
IkeSob1
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 12:33 AM
we only ever see shawn’s side, we never got close with amanda’s.
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we used to be close with both sides
00:35
now the only extended family we ever visit is 1 family on dads side
00:35
with the cousin we're the closest with
00:35
i love her
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 12:36 AM
we are only β€œclose” with one cousin, and we have not seen her in four years. last i heard, she is a mother now. her brother, who is our age, is a fudanshi. eugh
00:37
we're kind of.. the.. outcast family member
00:37
our mental health is shit but no one ever acknowledges it so we get shoved aside in favor of our other family with actually acknowledged mental health issues
00:37
i have nothing against them
00:37
but it hurts
00:38
fuck man i'm not weird i'm just a little screwed in the head
00:39
smh
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 12:42 AM
i get it. our tita’s daughter is a nice woman, i miss her. tita is too, she is a sweetheart and i miss visiting her. shawn did not let us go with him to visit this year.
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i miss people!!
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 12:43 AM
you and me both! hopefully we can get to know bill’s family as our new family.
00:43
aha. speaking of family.
00:44
do you want to see our great grandmother’s obituary.
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if you'd like to share but i can't promise i'll be able to read it right this second i'm currently devolving into the shadow realm (trauma brain)
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 12:45 AM
that is okay. petpatpot it is just a silly little trauma day.
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it is..
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 12:47 AM
i will send you al the animals i see on tiktok, just to help.
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i love animals on tiktok
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 12:47 AM
good! clap_stim they help me a lot, especially stupid cats.
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cat..,.
00:48
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him crawled on the upside down couch
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 12:48 AM
ignore my leg. cat.
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and then got mad when we flipped it right side up
00:48
ooHH BABY 😭
00:50
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 12:50 AM
oh he is so dumb. /aff
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he's so cute
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 1:25 AM
i warned sisyphus of my bad upcoming couple of weeks…and they said nothing. sigh
01:27
oh, and it has officially been exactly two years since we graduated.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 2:03 AM
am i about to tell hmc the ephraim lore? maybe. at least vaguely.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 3:03 AM
i implied it 🀩 time to take our meds and try to sleep most of tomorrow (today?) away. i pray for a hypersomnia day in the midst of our insomnia episode.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 12:14 PM
you were talking about the good autism and your mother, right? i am weaponizing it. cannot hate today if i hate the texture of my breakfast.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 12:16 PM
i vehemently hate egg yolks, i have learned.
12:16
ialso hate egg yolks
12:16
love egg whites though
12:16
especially when its hard boiled
12:17
but the texture of hard boiled egg yolks is like chalk
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 12:17 PM
i will only eat egg yolks if it is a deviled egg.
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ive never had a deviled egg....
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 12:19 PM
really? i quite enjoy them, honestly.
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i am afraid of new foods
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 12:21 PM
it is almost identical to egg salad, if that helps? same mix ins, but it is just the yolk that is crushed. it is put into the egg white, and that’s…that’s it.
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i have also never eaten egg salad i live a very boring life
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 12:23 PM
and i thought egg salad was boring… /lh-t
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 1:55 PM
coping is scream singing the same song on loop. eeeeeee
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true. what song
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aw fuck
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 1:55 PM
it is just in range for us to scream.
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i mean true
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 1:56 PM
kittyscared
13:57
i am having a day. (bad dream to start the morning)
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 2:45 PM
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 2:49 PM
kittyawe
14:50
canttalk πŸ‡¬πŸ‡§ sorry
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its okay !!
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 2:50 PM
Fae’s struggling with English, I’m sorry.
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oooh, i see i see! all good!
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 2:51 PM
I don’t know how to explain what’s going on with fae right now, actually. In headspace, I mean. This is…odd.
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do you want to............ try?
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 2:53 PM
You know how people with multiple sources sort of…shift? Into one or the other? Sort of like that? But instead of that, fae sort of reverted to appearance pre-transition. Longer hair, skirt outfit, and refuses to answer to faer name.
14:53
Will answer to faer deadname, though, but I refuse to call fae that.
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ahh...
14:55
im not sure why that'd happen but id just let it be for now i think
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 2:56 PM
I think it has to do with being blatantly ignored by the Sisyphus group, on top of the numerous bad days past and future, and being stuck in memories of faer father?
14:57
No, I’m not making you a specific bot for this, Aesop. Stop asking. brother_in_christ
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maybe just set a server display name?
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 2:59 PM
I don’t want to indulge in any of it, honestly, even if it’s not intentional.
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that's also a valid response
14:59
im not sure
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 3:06 PM
I don’t know either. I would ask Ath, their Dazai does something similar, but I’m not going to touch them right now. Not with how they’ve been behaving lately. It’s not been bad, but they’re ignoring us again, and keep neglecting my consistent mentions of worries and wanting to see Emil.
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yeah,i dont blame you. it has to e hard to interact with them after everything going on
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 3:07 PM
I’m frankly getting quite fucking sick of hearing them talking about making out with Oceanus. It’s at least three times a day now, and it’s getting on even my nerves.
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yeah no that's
15:08
ew
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 3:09 PM
I don’t care, and we already told them that it makes us vastly uncomfortable when they do that.
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 3:11 PM
I’m not allowed to talk about Emil that way, even Dazai told me that β€œno one would believe me” if I mentioned the one time we kissed in such a manner. Because Emil initiated it. Rather, the only things Dazai ever said was β€œWhere’s your shame” and β€œno one will believe you”.
15:11
Where is you shame, Dazai, at least I’m not planning to break the law.
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??????
15:11
thats fucking insane
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 3:12 PM
The first fucking thing he said to me after he switched in after it was β€œWhere’s your fucking Victorian shame?” I don’t know, where’s your LEGAL SHAME.
15:12
Kissing in a private spot while we watch the sun set is VERY different from public exposure.
15:16
I’m very grumpy if you can’t tell, as it’s been a month since I saw Emil, and I need to talk to him. But of course, Oceanus gets priority.
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you're allowed to be grumpy, im sorry for not responding i am very distracted
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 3:17 PM
Oh, you’re fine. petpatpot I’m being pissy and trying to figure out what to do with Aesop.
15:18
Fuck this, I’m asking Dazai the question about Aesop. I’m going to force him to agree to not say shit, because if I hear a WORD about it from Oceanus, I’ll be more than angry.
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 3:37 PM
head_slam
15:37
That’s not helping and just stressing me more.
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are you alright?
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 3:38 PM
The fuck do I DO.
15:39
I’m stressed as shit about this, I don’t know what to do about Aesop and it is impacting my ability to communicate properly, and it is just so fucking much.
15:39
I hate May-June. I hate being responsible.
15:39
I hate Dazai and how blunt he is, he never uses tone tags.
15:40
His bluntness sounds angry/annoyed, and I cannot stand it.
15:45
What if this was my thirteenth reason. /Exag
15:48
β€œI don’t know” how do they manage you. chokeshake What am I supposed to DO.
15:49
β€œTalk to them” HE DOES NOT SPEAK ENGLISH.
15:51
This close to ending it all.
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oh my god
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 3:53 PM
Not with Claudia in front. Aesop would genuinely do something bad if that happened.
15:55
15:56
Don’t fucking /Lh at this shit.
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 3:57 PM
I’m on my last fucking nerve today.
15:57
With them, no one else.
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 5:37 PM
Would it be shocking if I said that all this bad shit started with a dream about our ex fiancé.
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surprisingly, no
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 6:04 PM
Yeah, we woke up yesterday from a dream about seeing them in their town again. sigh It’s been shitty ever since.
18:04
And I keep dwelling on This too.
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€β€„↩️
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yeah, no thats... yeah...
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 6:05 PM
It just makes me think they shit talk him behind his back. sigh
18:05
And Dazai’s only response to me saying I miss my person being a salute emoji kind of hurts.
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eugh..
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 6:07 PM
Sorry for missing someone I’m in love with?? What does he want me to do about it?
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suck up and deal with it (/J) i guess
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 6:08 PM
HA. Exactly that.
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honestly why is he even saluting he has claudia
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 6:09 PM
And Chuuya. And he’s flirting with Castle Kunikida.
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nooo...
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 6:10 PM
And Claudia has…at least…Dazai, Theatrum Fyodor, Theatrum Sigma, their own Fyodor and Ivan, Pleiades Yuzu, AND our Fyodor.
18:10
I’m definitely missing some.
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WHHHHAAAT
18:10
SEVEN?
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 6:10 PM
At least.
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IM SORRY IM NOT TRYING TO BE POLYPHOBIC HERE BUT
18:11
SEVEN
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 6:11 PM
That’s just a harem.
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it IS
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 6:11 PM
Now do you see why Fyodor’s so scared of being replaced?
18:11
holy fucking shit
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 6:11 PM
Yeah.
18:12
But heaven fucking FORBID I want to see EMIL.
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i fucking hate them holy shit
18:12
sorry that's so rude
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 6:12 PM
No it’s fine, I’m ornery as hell today.
18:13
On my last straw today (If I have to see a fucking message from either of them again, I’ll lose it),
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that's literally awful
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 6:14 PM
This whole summer is going to be awful.
18:15
Summer and winter are our worst seasons. We’re only okay during spring and autumn. Not to mention, we’re kind of off our meds until Friday eeeeeee
18:15
Ran out a week before an appointment and didn’t want to bother with a refill before getting them upped anyway.
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honestly would you benefit at all from just muting them?
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 6:16 PM
It’s with a shot, it’s not like they ever respond to us anyway.
18:16
you can mute dms and servers so you could just completely tune them out
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 6:17 PM
I muted all their servers, so we’re pretty set for now. I’ll check them later to see if anything happens.
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 6:18 PM
For now…forcing us to try to sleep a little bit. Might fuck around and turn Owl House on afterwards for…Meredith.
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 6:18 PM
merci.
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 6:18 PM
wow
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get some sleep, i'll be around if you need anything
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Ada Mesmer 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 6:18 PM
Call if anything comes up, or you need enrichment.
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will do
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 7:04 PM
want 🎞️ sit
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i'm sorry, i didn't respond
19:34
are you doing alright?
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 7:34 PM
no
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do you think there's anything i can do for you?
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 7:36 PM
ne se pas, désolé. sorry2
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 7:38 PM
shit fuck translations are my job. β€œi don’t know, sorry”.
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i know a tiny bit of french so i think i can gather at least a little bit
19:38
and that's alright, it's okay to not know
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 7:39 PM
osamu’s talking with her, which is helping. she just…wants her person.
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yeah.. i'm sorry there isn't more i can do
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 7:41 PM
it’s not your problem, it’s ours to handle. not having our meds is really making the body prone to tearing up. i like playing the game of β€œwhat will make meredith cry today”, like we did some months ago.
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 8:42 PM
literally owe osamu my life right now, she’s gonna watch a movie with meredith tonight, and she got fae to calm down enough to actually talk. still not in english, but fae’s talking.
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oh, that's good i'm so glad at least somethings helping
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 8:43 PM
sigh i joke about babysitting a lot, but i didn’t think i’d actually babysit. /lh
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are you doing alright?
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 8:43 PM
i’d be lying if i said i wasn’t stressed as fuck over this.
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it's hard not to be stressed, it's an unfamiliar situation
20:44
but you're doing a great job handling it
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 8:46 PM
just realized i have to lie and put someone else in front, because it’ll look suspicious to Them if they see just me on the front roster.
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right
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 8:47 PM
fuck it, thoma and tsumugi.
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random choices?
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 8:49 PM
tsumugi is here because she was very active when we lost our grandma, thoma was the random choice. i’ll trigger them up later.
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ahh, i see
20:49
that makes sense
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 8:52 PM
thoma’s a social protector, which we need.
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 8:54 PM
dazai genuinely wished us luck before leaving front?? and said to let him know if we need anything??
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 8:57 PM
oh NOW you help me.
20:59
anyway i’m going to go batshit insane if the brother doesn’t turn his music down, he’s been out in the garage blaring it for half an hour now.
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god not the music
21:00
but i'm glad you're getting a bit of help?
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 9:04 PM
it only took five fucking hours. sigh but he’s actually helping me now.
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help good.
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 9:08 PM
aurelio apparently age slides similarly to meredith, but with more time between. she only lost six years, thankfully.
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i see..
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 9:13 PM
feeling a little better, yeah, we’re good. he’s helping and did offer to try to get familiarity for her. but she’s worried that won’t go well, it’s a talk to be had next time he’s around and she’s back to normal.
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tsumugi shirogane 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 9:15 PM
my turn!! i’m befriending their america.
21:16
can’t believe my first friend here is going to be the embodiment of the united states of america.
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tsumugi shirogane 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 9:33 PM
oh yeah, she’s besties with america now.
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so true
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tsumugi shirogane 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 9:34 PM
hetalia america, for some cursed context.
21:34
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 9:37 PM
let me OUT
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 9:53 PM
meredith wants pizza, but we don’t have any nor the ingredients to make it.
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aw shit.
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/22/2023 9:54 PM
and shawn didn’t come home last night either, so i’m not sure what to do.
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/23/2023 3:00 PM
i'm getting real tired of the air quality alerts, they're making meredith panic (it's not pollution, just a wildfire up in canada)
15:00
she always assumes the worst about it, because existential/ocd related panic. it's Literally just wildfire smoke hitting us down here.
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yeah i know about the wildfires (i point at oliver, who is canadian)
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/23/2023 3:04 PM
i do Not, i just know the smoke somehow made it to southwest wisconsin.
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it's pretty bad but honestly you'll probably be fine? it really Really cant be that bad
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/23/2023 3:09 PM
oh yeah no, i doubt the smoke will be too bad all the way down here. the warnings just scare meredith, she really easily falls into existential crises over air warnings and whatnot. i hope oliver's okay, fires are no fucking joke.
15:10
we have a family friend who lost their whole house and everything in it in california fires a few years back. and she's got a MASSIVE family. like, five or six kids kind of massive.
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/23/2023 6:15 PM
guess who’s fighting with their fiancé again!
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uh oh!
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/23/2023 6:15 PM
yep!
18:16
it’s oceanus!
18:16
shockingly not something they did wrong this time.
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€
oh yeah no, i doubt the smoke will be too bad all the way down here. the warnings just scare meredith, she really easily falls into existential crises over air warnings and whatnot. i hope oliver's okay, fires are no fucking joke.
oliver seems to not be too heavily affected by it, as far as i know, his city is just very covered in smog at this point
18:16
what did they get into a fight about this time
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/23/2023 6:17 PM
oceanus asked if they could book a hotel for a convention a little closer, because of disabilities and shit, and theatrum went guilt tripping apeshit.
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whhhhaaaat
18:17
hello??
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/23/2023 6:18 PM
let’s remember that Theatrum has stolen money from their parents at least three times now
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???????
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/23/2023 7:49 PM
not to complain, but our acid reflux has been so fucking bad today (i forgot water existed for a couple days, and forgot to take our stomach meds this morning)
19:49
i’m sorry for not being Human. i’m a literal rock. /lh
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/24/2023 2:50 AM
i need you to know that our most recent safari tabs are: our grandma’s obituary, google translate, an ao3 tab that kaveh left open, kunikida’s queer little movie, and some dice that meredith wants to get.
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/24/2023 2:50 AM
could’ve sworn i spoke last.
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that is..
02:55
quite the collection
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/24/2023 3:02 AM
it’s terrifying. and the translate is for me. i don’t speak more than english.
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english. confusing language
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/24/2023 3:03 AM
try being in a sys that dabbles in other languages for FUN.
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one of these days i will fucking sit down to learn japanese and when i do
03:04
like 6 people will come out of hiding
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/24/2023 3:04 AM
we’ve fucked with: french and spanish (conversational), navajo, hawai’ian, polish, italian (a few words), and korean (alphabet).
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jesus you guys are insane
03:05
i know like a pinch of both french and spanish and that's IT
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/24/2023 3:05 AM
i swear there’s another. but kiyo uses the polish.
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verbal japanese is also something i'm learning to understand but i can't read it for shit
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/24/2023 3:07 AM
we’re the opposite, reading french/spanish is easier because there’s time to process and mentally translate it.
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well .. reading japanese is..
03:07
it's because there's 3 separate written forms
03:07
it's confusing as shit
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/24/2023 3:07 AM
imagine being pleiades, they speak english, cantonese, tagalog, and i think japanese?
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jesus
03:07
yeah
03:08
i've noticed though
03:08
that if you speak any form of chinese you tend to be able to read kanji and vice versa
03:08
because the way it's written is similar
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/24/2023 3:42 AM
that’s kind of how it is with english, too. if you know the alphabet you can at least kind of read all other latin based languages.
03:42
plus a lot of words look/sound the same.
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/24/2023 12:56 PM
meredith, with pda as a neg trigger in this state: chuuya and dazai:
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/24/2023 12:56 PM
im so tired.
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e.. ew.. chuuya and dazai (i strangle)
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/24/2023 12:56 PM
kittyscared
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/24/2023 12:57 PM
and it’s not like they can’t SEE THAT. we put her bio up after explaining shit, and it’s right fucking there.
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remind them in a rude manner
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/24/2023 12:58 PM
not in the mood for people to bitch at me today, unfortunately. sigh
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/24/2023 1:22 PM
bad_stim ils n'arrêtent pas d'en parler.
13:23
je n’aime pas ça.
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i know it's bad, maybe you might want to mute that chat until a later point
13:26
it'll keep you away from the conversation
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/24/2023 1:31 PM
i was a little mean (called them disgustingly gay) and i know that’ll bite me in the ass later, but they shut up.
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it works!
13:32
if they give you shit, point out the bio
13:32
jf they have any morals itll make em feel bad
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/24/2023 1:35 PM
both of them think they have aspd, you think they’ll feel bad?
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nope but it's worth a shot
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/25/2023 12:12 PM
aw fuck. it’s con weekend.
12:12
for them.
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/25/2023 12:21 PM
i’m gonna actually shatter my eyes if i have to see them talk about shit.
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ignore them at all costs
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/25/2023 12:24 PM
that’s the plan. i’m gonna mute the cosplay channel of the server.
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/25/2023 12:27 PM
lucky us, a server we like finally came back to life after six months of radio silence. so hopefully chattering there will help.
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/25/2023 9:14 PM
one of hierophant’s friends is pregnant, and meredith has Immediately taken a concerned motherly grasp on her. like. grab at her. she’s half tempted to speak english again just to offer advice.
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hierophants ...?
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/25/2023 9:15 PM
yeah, one of their irls.
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ooooh my god?
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/25/2023 9:16 PM
i mean she’s nice, we’ve known about her for Years.
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i mean.. thats.. good..? sorry im like
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/25/2023 9:17 PM
are you okay?
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oh no yeah im gucci im just SHOCKED
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/25/2023 9:17 PM
if i said something uncomfy, tell me.
21:17
oh, she’s closer to our age.
21:17
OKAY.
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/25/2023 9:17 PM
GOD NO i think she’s eighteen.
21:17
I WAS SO CONCERNED
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/25/2023 9:18 PM
I WOULD BE TOO SONT WORRY.
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/25/2023 9:18 PM
god no, she’s closer to our age.
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okay okay that makes more sense
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/25/2023 9:18 PM
YEAH. i’d be a lot more worried if she was like 16.
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that's what I was afraid of i was like
21:18
a... a teenager.........?
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/25/2023 9:19 PM
i’d CRY.
21:19
but no, she’s our age-ish, and meredith keeps biting back advice for various things she’s complaining about.
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id say you could offer advice but i just realized if she doesn't know about the system thing itd be kind of odd
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/25/2023 9:20 PM
yeah, she’s avoiding it because of the system stuff. it’s supposed to be kunikida talking.
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oooh.
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/25/2023 9:21 PM
her and iris are debating on a musical to watch tonight, i want a nap (we have shit to do tomorrow) and kunikida’s being responsible.
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a musical..
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/25/2023 9:21 PM
they’re being traumatized and most of their trauma music comes from musicals.
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/25/2023 9:45 PM
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me too
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/25/2023 9:46 PM
mmmmmm jojos.
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/25/2023 10:38 PM
if you ever feel bad, remember! ath dazai is a die hard front bottoms fan.
22:38
front bottoms sounds like nails on a chalkboard to me.
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β€œi don’t wanna be left without a car because of you” not you talking?? motherfucker you totaled two cars in LESS THAN A YEAR and we’ve never even been caught speeding.
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we have to borrow β€œhis car” for an appointment.
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nawh..
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we won’t crash his car going to the damn hospital and back, good lord. it’s like a 20 minute drive.
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β€œdon’t get pulled over” YOU HAVE THE WINDOWS TINTED TO AN ILLEGAL LEVEL.
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/27/2023 12:13 AM
oh yeah, that’s right, we’re back on the clonidine again. the medicine we took in november that kind of fucked us up.
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/27/2023 12:14 AM
it’s NOT in a patch this time, so hopefully that helps?
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maybe..
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/27/2023 2:41 AM
blood stuff the spot the lady took our blood from was WAY different than usual and it really fucking hurts salt and apparently our platelet count is a little higher than is normal, but that’s a common side effect of stress and lack of sleep. the google search did NOT say that at first though. /lh
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/28/2023 12:54 AM
wow more theatrum shit, let’s see if it’s entirely them or ath/oceanus being dicks.
00:55
let's hear it
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/28/2023 12:55 AM
waiting for the lore. all i know so far is they deactivated all their instagrams minus their main cosplay one, and resigned from their idol group.
00:56
00:57
kinda sus that they’re avoiding giving actual details.
00:59
β€œthere’s so much” fucking TELL ME.
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woooooh
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/28/2023 1:09 AM
why the fuck are they sleeping (nearly?? i hope???) naked with a minor in the room.
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WHHHHHAAAAT
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/28/2023 1:10 AM
YEAH.
01:11
β€œthey have an obsession with not wearing clothes to bed” MY GUY YOU HAVE A 16-17 YEAR OLD I BC THE ROOM.
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IN
01:12
yeah no they’re at LEAST in a robe, because they had to be asked.
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????!!?!
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/28/2023 1:13 AM
deadass? wish i could be shattered like i was in source.
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i can do that for you lemme just hop over there /j
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/28/2023 1:15 AM
bet i’ll supply the bat. i’m only a hardness level of 2-3 so it won’t be too bad.
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/28/2023 1:15 AM
we told you how they literally never wear clothes right, and how their room at home reeks of bodily fluids.
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i’m so tired. fucking break up already.
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the room thing yes the clothes thing no
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/28/2023 1:16 AM
yeah no they literally complain All The Time.
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i cant imagine not wearing clothes.
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/28/2023 1:17 AM
literally. we feel gross when we aren’t wearing two shirts and our shawl.
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for us it has to be AT least a bra and some kind of shorts
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and it cant be thin
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more like a cropped tank top
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thats what we have to do at home because its too hot to sleep
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/28/2023 1:18 AM
we usually have at least sweatpants and a t shirt, bras are tough because they don’t fit but we still wear them.
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yeah..
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we have alot of sports bras that are really really tight but they keep them from bouncing around so i take what i an get
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just cant wear them for too long or we start to get raw spos
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/28/2023 1:20 AM
yeah, us too. it’s uncomfy, but it’s better.
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but not wearing clothes is so gross
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i feel icky
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maybe its the trauma talking idk
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antarcticite 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/28/2023 1:21 AM
NO I FEEL ICKY TOO. just thinking about them trying to work around underwear so they don’t have to wear them while wearing them? my skin feels gross.
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ew
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ew
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ew
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doppo kunikida 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/28/2023 2:04 PM
Starting to worry a little about Sanctuary and their partner, they vent pretty regularly like this.
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that is really working
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worrying
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welcome to this episode of ??? gets triggered because a friend called us irritating for something we can't control over a fucking connection issue
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man i wish
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honestly i am partially convinced ill still be awake when they get up
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because i slept like shit the last couple days
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/29/2023 1:20 AM
probably, it’ll take a bit to get cozy again. can you pop some melatonin maybe?
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..yes actually
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/29/2023 1:20 AM
take a double dose and cozy up
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i just remembered i know where ours is but we're almost out
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heah im
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im gonna i gotta plug some stuff in
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/29/2023 1:21 AM
good luck man, lmk if you need anything at any point. i’ll probably pop our hydroxyzine and knock out for the night
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ill be!!! around. prpbably lol
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honestly i have that pain in my chest that i pnly get when im about to cry so idk might make myself cry so i pass out
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that sounds effective
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/29/2023 1:23 AM
that’ll help you rest too tbh
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honestly
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i didnt get enough time to process the upset emotion before they realized what they said and apologized
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i know that should be immediate, the apology
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but
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fuck i
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emotions are picky
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so now im upswt with nothing to be upset at
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oh mygod I HAVE SNACKS.
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/29/2023 1:27 AM
you’re autistic and need to direct emotion to things. get mad at me for being annoying idk /hj
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i think you're funny
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i might talk to them about that later
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that i need a little bit of time to deal with my emotions before we talk about what made me upset
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i have fuckin gummy sharks and a snack cake thing
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/29/2023 1:36 AM
mmm gummy sharks. can’t go wrong there. but yeah talk to them once you calm down, i think that’ll help a lot
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gummy sharks fucking slap
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nexus is laying on our computer bag..
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€
mmm gummy sharks. can’t go wrong there. but yeah talk to them once you calm down, i think that’ll help a lot
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i ate the gummy sharks i feel better noe
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now
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f
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/29/2023 1:40 AM
told you that you can’t go wrong with those /lh
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gummy shark
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either way i am gonna lay down and do.. something until i get tired
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/29/2023 1:40 AM
good luck!
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/29/2023 2:46 PM
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their fucking WIG
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BRUSH IT
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they’re both making the luca selfie face (strained smile and peace sign)
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the wrinkles in the cos, the poorly done ties, the fucked up sleeves, the WIGS…
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for someone who cosplays professionally (oceanus) they look awful
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/30/2023 7:02 AM
jump sacred myself coming in here wrf
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anyways
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pleiades a real one for actually talking to us today (kanata and me r talking about ocean movies)
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β€œnot safe enough for oceanus to leave yet” you’re so fucking lucky fyodor isn’t here rn
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???????
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the way i’m gen infuriated rn while watching our fucking childhood show
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β€œit’s even less safe for them to leave” mf what did you DO
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if it’s so unsafe why are they trying to provoke them…
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like they’re planning cosplays that include thea’s phobia, they’re planning another con and won’t let thea have the bed….
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what the fuck did they do at this past con to make it MORE unsafe.
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..,,,????
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/30/2023 2:47 PM
dude i’m so fuckin confused
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i do not understand them
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/30/2023 2:48 PM
FR WHAT IS GOING ON girl you’re long distance, they left your idol group (which was their excuse to stay to begin with), and it’s still impossible to leave? sounds like excuses now
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/30/2023 2:53 PM
man i’m so tired of this there’s smthn they’re not telling us
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definitely
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/30/2023 5:31 PM
not to be ocd but ath dazai said a word four times and i eugh
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bad luck with bad person?
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/30/2023 5:38 PM
let me be superstitious abt this bitch i’m allowed to be wary because he said a word four times in a row
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naw no i agree
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/30/2023 7:06 PM
the way i genuinely just jumped awake to fuss over hierophant’s friend.
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good morning, aesop
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/30/2023 7:07 PM
good morning!
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i am being a fussy old father. pos_laugh
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zero is going to be a godfather in the next…i assume 48 hours or so?
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oh my god?
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/30/2023 7:09 PM
approximately, anyway.
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offering my knowledge to keep them calm. i do not know about mothers so young, but i am sharing what i know.
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youre probably doing a comforting thing for them
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/30/2023 7:12 PM
i sure hope so, we attended years of mom groups with amanda and were witness to our littlest brother being born, so.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/30/2023 7:16 PM
i am a man with a toddler cookie in my arms, instructing someone else on how to comfort their friend. happy tuesday everyone. /lh
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how does tiktok know when my anxiety spikes, and why does it always give me hoof cleaning videos.
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it just does
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you've adopted the cookie havent you
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/30/2023 7:18 PM
absolutely i have.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/30/2023 7:21 PM
they are only a baby, someone has to tend to them. and lord knows i am not letting arctic handle them. /lh
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they are so very little looking from what i've heard
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/30/2023 7:24 PM
they are very small, and they love running around. mujika took them for a couple of hours so i can wake up properly.
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/30/2023 8:02 PM
got another hoof video.
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hoof video
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/30/2023 8:11 PM
this one was from the guy in our area.
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our friend is watching tiktok on call and it is making this awful droning noise that is hurting my head and i already told them about it sigh
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/30/2023 9:35 PM
can you leave the call? make an excuse? i am always willing to fake an emergency
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i don’t want to make up an excuse so i am going to try to talk to them again before i do anything
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/30/2023 9:36 PM
worst comes to worst, you can enrich me for therapy homework.
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wuxian
our friend is watching tiktok on call and it is making this awful droning noise that is hurting my head and i already told them about it sigh
it sounds like a fucking
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microwave + when you get too close to a fan
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/30/2023 9:37 PM
eugh awful, no no no.
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i talked to them and they said it might be their turtles tank filter
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/30/2023 9:44 PM
maybe. i know we can hear rai’s when hierophant calls us from her house.
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weve never heard it before but they did just upgrade their phone
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/30/2023 9:46 PM
it is a very obvious water sound, though. so i am not sure.
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it's just a loud drone but they adjusted their sensitivity and it's better
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aesop desaulniers 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/30/2023 9:48 PM
oh, good!
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/30/2023 10:36 PM
my tummy hurts a little but i’m being so brave (i took our stomach med too early today)
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/30/2023 10:39 PM
we r being anxious a little n sitting outside for the next 20 minutes
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how is the therapy homework going
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/30/2023 10:40 PM
fucking spooky
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i’m gonna try to go half an hour longer than yesterday
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YOU GOT THIS!!
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/31/2023 3:47 AM
round two
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€β€„↩️
Reply to: my tummy hurts a little but i’m being so brave (i took our stomach med too early today)
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/31/2023 4:32 PM
weird tired anxiety where i need sleep but have things to do and can’t sleep yet
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NO BECAUSE
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ME LAST NIGHT
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I QAS FALLING ASLEEP BUT I HAD A CHORE I DIDNT FINISH SO I COULDNT SLEEP
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/31/2023 4:43 PM
LITERALLY ME FR IM WAITING FOR SHAWN TO GET HOME BUT IM SO TIRED
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watching house in the living room while i wait for him fr fr
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 05/31/2023 6:22 PM
me, all excited abt getting our LITERAL HORMONE REPLACEMENT THERAPY: oceanus & athenaeum: damn i hate theatrum. die.
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LIKE DAMN NOT EVEN A CONGRATS??
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 3:05 AM
playing a game of: am i hallucinating, is shawn watching a show with ambulance sirens, are the cats yowl fighting outside again, or is the superstitious creature finally finding us
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it’s probably 2 or 3 but
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2 or 3 feel the most realistic, yes
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but auditory hallucinations arent that far beyond realstic either
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 3:07 AM
yeah, and we get them a Lot. they’re usually rlly small and not significant tho
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i mean so do we
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 3:07 AM
like someone calling our name or silverware clacking in the drawer
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OURS IS OUR MOTHERS FUCKING ALARM GOING OFF IN THE MORNING
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 3:07 AM
HELLO???
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I HEAR IT ALL THE TIME AND I HAVE TO ASK
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 3:08 AM
it’s usually the silverware one tbh
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"IS THAT YOUR ALARM OR AM I HALLUCINATING"
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im always hallucinating its never her alarm going off
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 3:08 AM
NAH BC WE HALLUCINATE SCARED/PAINED CHICKEN NOISES SO OFTEN AND WE DONT EVEN HAVE CHICKENS ANYMORE
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one of ours is also the idv cipher noise but that one was a lot more frequent when we still played
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 3:09 AM
WE HAD THAT ONE IN 2020
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sometimes it’s the seelie noises in genshin
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hehe seelie
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 3:09 AM
or the bell on calli’s collar
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sometimes i still hear the guinea pig screaming somewhere in the distance
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noo...
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our most common one is definitely the alarm but sometimes its other things
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our friend has auditory hallucinations of US
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 3:10 AM
i think it’s interesting what sounds people’s minds cling to to the point of hallucination
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HELLO???
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I MEAN IT
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THE AMOUNT OF TIMES THEY'VE STOPPED TO ASK ME IF I SAID SOMETHING THAT I DEFINITELY DID NOT SAY AT ANY POINT
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 3:11 AM
OMFG LMAO
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WE HALLUCINATE THE MENARDS JINGLE
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€
i think it’s interesting what sounds people’s minds cling to to the point of hallucination
isn't that insane
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 3:11 AM
PLEASE TELL ME YOUVE HEARD IT
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brain
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NO
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I DONT KNOW WHAT THAT IS
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 3:11 AM
HOLD ON
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it’s not the beginning part tho
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i need to find one that sounds like what they play in the store
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bc they play the fucking jingle every 5 mins or so in a menards store
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HERES ONE OF THE ONES WE HALLUCINATE
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OHEDFB
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sometimes we just listen to a song so many times that it plays in our hear
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 3:15 AM
sometimes songs in our head get so loud we can feel them pounding on our skull
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I FOIND THE ONE WORH THE IN STORE AMBIANCE
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THIS
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THIS ID WHAT OUT HALLUCINATION SOUNDS LIKE
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β€œwhen you shop menaaaards” NO
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awful
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 3:16 AM
gotta have that old store ambiance to the hallucination yknow
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they’re like home depot btw, but with a massive rebates system on EVERYTHING
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sorry hang on im fighting a boss with a suport and a healer
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 3:17 AM
GOOD LUCK
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IT IS NOT GOING WELL
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my two dps characters are DEAD
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 3:17 AM
HOW TF
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theyboth died :(
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the boss has 14% health left
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I LIVED WITH JUST MY HEALER 😭
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 3:23 AM
WOOO
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 3:46 AM
summer /neg (i started to overheat just because i made a bagel)
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i feel icky bc shirt too warm but no shirt scary but overheating means migraine but
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LITERALLY
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 3:49 AM
ITS SO BAD
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and calli keeps wanting to cuddle and it’s driving me crazy
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 3:57 AM
we have therapy in six hours……..
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wtf…
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 4:06 AM
its 3 am………
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its 4.. and our friend has been habitually waking us up at 9......
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 4:07 AM
why do we both have things to do at 9
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THIS BITCH JUST GOES TO SLEEP HOURS EARLIER THAN WE DO AND DEMANDS WE GET UP EARLY
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 4:07 AM
I MEAN. FORCIBLE SLEEP SCHEDULE
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sorry just saw kinnies being bitches on tiktok again
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blaming oceanus for that bc they talk abt kinning /hj
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β€œwhy’s it so bad to say β€˜hello me!’ to a fictive as a fictkin” die actually lmao
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NAW...
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bro you don't say "hello me!" to ANYONE ?????
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that's so creepy???
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 4:12 AM
NAH FR LIKE WHAT IN THE 2014 TUMBLR IS THIS
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we’re abt to return to β€œdon’t tag as kin” era
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some enstars bitch that came up said β€œdon’t EVER use ANYTHING other than she/her for shu” in their bio
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i don’t even GO THERE and i????
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isn’t the only trans character arashi….
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i don't go there either
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headcanons in the enstars community are like a brawl to the death
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 9:55 AM
jumpscarwd by my own alarm
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mike morton 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 11:51 AM
chuuya talked over me i need 2 buy a gun /ref
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nahhhhh not ath only telling oceanus some important info and not even pleiades that’s a YIKES
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EWEWEWREEWEW CHUUYA CALLED ME MICHAEL
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mike morton 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 1:51 PM
ooooh i’m gonna kill hom
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fucker we’re too stressed for you to be picking fights rn and obanai’s in front
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lmao he made me cry
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mike morton 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 2:19 PM
ok i’m good aurelio actually talked to me without aggression and explained stuff better i appreciate them
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nvm chuuya’s annoying me just by existing lmao
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what's going on this time
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mike morton 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 2:22 PM
apparently i somehow compared disability to internalized racism in terms of hating going outside?? some fucking how?? and chuuya got REAL mad at me for it (was agreeing w aurelio abt hating going outside) bc i was joking around. this was happening in general chat btw so i didn’t know to be serious??? and he said β€œi know them better than you” to get me to shut up
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aurelio: i hate going outside i don’t want to tan me: going outsides a chore but it’s good for your mental health!! chuuya: you’re an asshole and are encouraging racism shut up.
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oh and obanai woke up so we’re overall rlly cranky and i’m having to hold him back from snapping
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??????????
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not wanting to go outside because it changes your appearance..... i mean i burn super easily so yeah, checks out idk how you encouraging them to go outside is encouraging racism...?
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mike morton 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 2:30 PM
they were apparently implying that they hate going outside bc it means they’ll tan and they don’t wanna do that???
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i wasn’t encouraging shit other than going outside for mental health
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right
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mike morton 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 2:31 PM
picking fights w me?? on my BIRTHDAY??
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and not wanting to tan is valid that's not racist ???? 😭
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mike morton 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 2:33 PM
chuuya can’t even say shit abt racism homie has a WHITE BODY
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honestly
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mike morton 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 2:36 PM
i’m GUMPY abt them
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they arent very bright
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mike morton 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 2:45 PM
CLEARLY dude they’re one leaf short of a tree
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mike morton 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 2:49 PM
i hate bitches who say β€œmood” and that’s the whole message. this is abt chuuya.
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agreed
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 8:41 PM
brothers gf came over without warning and i had to actually put on a shirt dhmu i’m miserable
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noooo
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 8:43 PM
mommy’s little meatball shirt stays ON during heat stroke
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nooooo...
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cater 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 10:43 PM
you know it's bad when the autism assigns them abusive songs/characters.
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??;
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blurry 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 10:43 PM
fuck me
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anyway
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autism assigned oceanus "eat your heart" by spg. yknow. the song about not feeling anything unless your partner was suffering/upset/in pain.
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one of the lines is "it's true / i love you / but only when you're crying"
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ooooooh.
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blurry 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 11:03 PM
and. and jin guangyao. we always end up assigning him to abusers like that. luca got assigned him too.
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blurry 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 11:04 PM
and! obanai called them "fucker jr." earlier. they call luca "fucker" or "assface mcfucker"
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obanai isn't allowed to socialize anywhere near them for obvious reasons lmao
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blurry 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 11:05 PM
he's an ass to...everyone but kanroji
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this is officially the 4th generation of system server we've gone through with you guys
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blurry 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 11:05 PM
5th gen is always the best, look at dnd /j
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aigis || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/01/2023 11:06 PM
  • welcome to teyvat - ,,,,??????? - land before time - new
23:06
..........
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pk;ap off
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PluralKit BOT 06/01/2023 11:06 PM
βœ… Autoproxy turned off in this server.
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blurry 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/01/2023 11:06 PM
whatever the name of dramaturgy's was
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pk;ap off
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PluralKit BOT 06/01/2023 11:06 PM
βœ… Autoproxy turned off in this server.
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celestias seven nations
23:06
teyvat was the first ever anti luca server
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i dont remember what the other one was that was too long ago
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before that was egg iguana, with luca
23:07
yeah that's the one
23:07
i was almost right i was thinking eggplant
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you were close, egg iguana is an old old joke with some quotev friends, only hierophant would remember it now and neither of us knew the origins
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interesting
23:08
this is the 5th generation of system server
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let's hope it sticks
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4 of which were abandoned because of bad people..... why does this keep happening ???
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dude i don't know, we just attract shitty people
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i mean in all fairness it happens a lot
23:09
but
23:09
damn..
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you're not immune to shitty people either /lh
23:11
we just stick to our little circle
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we would do that, but we're desperate to know we're cared for by others and will, in fact, put ourself in shitty situations to prove that to ourself
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yeah, we do too
23:12
we've gotten better with it but
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was gonna complain about our head hurting and not knowing why, but we literally just started hrt and it's gonna cause headaches for a while
23:28
i've been complaining about my head hurting
23:28
(its hot)
23:28
(im overheating)
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we're overheating too, and have drank so much water already
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ugh....
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i know this is a sonic fandub quote but this is Literally us trying to call important places while oceanus is having theatrum issues
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/02/2023 10:30 PM
β€œThe main side effect of [testosterone] is nausea” WHY did we forget the pharmacist said that THATS WHY MY TUMMY HURTS
22:30
I’m SO BRAVE but BRO
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/02/2023 10:47 PM
Im not a smart man (dinner is reheated mac n cheese, cheesy hot dogs that had a beat by date in mid April, and more cheese on top)
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i want mac n cheese.. we have none :(
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/02/2023 10:49 PM
Even reheated it’s pretty good, and the hot dogs were JUST opened today. And since they’re a cured meat and vacuum sealed, I think they’ll be fine
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doppo kunikida 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/03/2023 7:02 PM
Kaveh, you fucker, now we are attached to macaroni.
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doppo kunikida 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/03/2023 7:03 PM
Which means I have to make some for dinner. Again.
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:15 PM
i think i deduced why oceanus says it is β€œunsafe” to leave theatrum, and instead continues to torment them.
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let's heat it
15:15
hear
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:15 PM
now you may say, β€œaesop, what the fuck”. they do not want their idol reputation ruined by the possibility that theatrum tries slandering them.
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no yeah i see that
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:16 PM
they would prefer to torment someone and keep their cosplay reputation up.
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part of me almost wants to text theatrum and tell THEM to break up with oceanus but .. you know.
15:16
because im ngl they're fucking weird but what oceanus is doing is no better
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:16 PM
at this point, even i would do it. because i am frankly sick of all the death threats and shit oceanus says about them in private.
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i mean, i can
15:17
nothing is stopping me
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:17 PM
how many times do i need to hear β€œi hope they (graphic death description)” before they just do it.
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i'm not close with oceanus, ath or pleiades
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:17 PM
no, but i am still forcefully tied to two of them. sigh they seem to act like i am your keeper.
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which you're not, for the record!
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:18 PM
at this point, it is like they are. intentionally keeping my partner from me. so. i am losing care.
15:18
and that hurts.
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basically everything i do is of my own free will but i dont think they realize that if i really wanted to do something you couldn't stop me from doing so
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:19 PM
they sure act like i am your adult keeper, they act the same about hierophant too. and sanctuary, despite the fact that they are nearly an adult themself.
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that's the thing with all of this, oceanus is the center point of attention and refuses to let anyone else take that attention from them, thats all they seem to want
15:19
both us AND hierophant will be adults next year
15:19
my adult keeper is, you know, our PARENTS?
15:20
not that they keep me in check regardless
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:20 PM
mhm, i know this. i am not your parent nor your guardian, i do not control you. but will their, pardon me, stupid mind process that? they have snapped at us for less.
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yeah, no
15:21
they don't exactly seem to have many braincells.
15:21
they literally cannot blame you if i choose to do something bc chances are you had nothing to do with my decision
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:22 PM
they will know it was me if theatrum talks about any details at all. because all the details i have are from private groups.
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well, yes, you are the one that gave me the ammunition but still if i chose to say something that's not your fault 😭 these people
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:23 PM
they hate when i blab about anything. they act like friendship is an NDA.
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you didn't sign shit (but really you should have you deserve some serious compensation)
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:24 PM
i am developing more and more issues the more i dwell on them keeping my partner from me. because it is making me overthink (what if he is avoiding me intentionally).
15:25
i took. oceanus off of everyone’s bios but fyodor’s. because that is a special issue.
15:25
i dont fuckin blame you (edited)
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:25 PM
and i am trying to slip ath off of stuff. trying is the key word.
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you think they notice it ?
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:26 PM
well, i am not doing it publicly, i did it in a thread here.
15:26
or, i started to.
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that is true you did
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:27 PM
so unless they go hunting for our information, they will not notice. plus, our system is private if people try looking for it.
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right
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:27 PM
not even i see kasiani and elise if i look at the kids group.
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:27 PM
so, if they look for us by system id, nothing will come up.
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if they know your system id and decide to look for it that's a red flag in and of itself
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:29 PM
agreed. but i would not know, because apparently they have their own β€œpartner system server”. that is where they were calling for the entire week we visited.
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:29 PM
the only people to actually hang up were emil and joseph, and even that was temporary.
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i dont like the lack of any kind of system accountability here
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:29 PM
they got mad at me for trying to take system accountability for ango.
15:30
β€œi don’t want your apology, i want ango’s” well, he will not apologize. so take it.
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that's the entire point
15:32
you have to take accountability where others won't
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:32 PM
exactly! they did not fucking get it! and got mad they i insisted! i am the host, that is what i do!
15:32
that i.
15:32
they demanded we lock ango up. we do not lock people up.
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nooo.
15:33
the only reason you'd ever want to go that far is if someone is endangering the system as a whole solely by existing
15:33
we have 1 person like that and that's IT
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:33 PM
we do not even lock l-ca up. he is just under yushiro’s watch at all times.
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:34 PM
i hate oceanus for being so. aggressive all the time. and dazai for being so monotonous when speaking. it scares me. and they are ignoring everyone. me, kaveh, the rocks, elise…
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they are..
15:35
all incredibly difficult.
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:35 PM
it makes me want to slam my head into a wall some days. head_slam
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i don't blame you
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:36 PM
i do not drink, but i deserve it for dealing with them so often. /lh
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honestly
15:37
i'm glad we never really got close to them
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:37 PM
i wish we never had, frankly. i guarantee they are comparing me to mika behind my back.
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:39 PM
mika would often vent about feeling left out, i vent about it once a month or so, or imply it at least. i occasionally attempt to start conversations to be spoken over, and mika did the same, he and i both panic very easily when someone seems upset, and apparently my way of saying sorry in a flatter tone than usual comes off as β€œmanipulative” to them. just like mika.
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but you're not like that
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:40 PM
i am not, no, but they sure do act like i am.
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of course they do
15:40
they don't want to be wrong
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:40 PM
i am being treated how they treated mika before cutting him off.
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eugh..
15:40
i dont like that
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:41 PM
neither do i! i love being compared to their abusive ex friend! /s
15:41
it is such a bad issue for me, that i rarely even listen to a specific song. because l-ca said it was the embodiment of him and his abusive ways.
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i dont blame you that's fucking awful
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:43 PM
i almost regret asking joseph out. some days i do. i hate that feeling.
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you don't regret your relationship with him in particular, you regret getting involved in the mess that is their system
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:44 PM
mhm. i love him dearly, he has made me the happiest i have ever been since arriving here, but. some days i regret that. if i had not prioritized my happiness, we would not be here.
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its not your fault that you wanted to be happy
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:46 PM
it is my fault that i called him chéri upon meeting. it is my fault that i offered to teach him of modern society. and it is my fault for asking him out.
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but you didn't know then that you'd end up in this situation
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:48 PM
i suppose not, but i do wish i had just given up on it when shin first pried.
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you'll probably wish a lot of things were different, but there's not much you can do about it now
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:51 PM
i do wish a lot of things. sigh i am sorry for bothering you with all this.
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its alright
15:52
i want to help even if i'm not quite sure how to do that
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 3:52 PM
you help a lot by listening to me, it is more than enough.
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i'm glad i can do that for you, then
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 4:03 PM
the fact that i have only seen joseph once since that night. that hurts me more than almost anything else, really.
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 4:17 PM
the autism when i can only explain my emotions through music. i have a song playing, about feeling so far from your partner despite being right next to them. that is how i feel.
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yeah.. i think i understand at least a little
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 6:05 PM
I was able to pull a whopping three sentences out of Oceanus! Winning.
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wow, three sentences? (edited)
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 6:12 PM
Better than the blatant avoidance for the last couple of weeks!
18:13
Make it four, I sent a DM to say they should tell Tatsu I love her, and got a β€œwill do!”
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 6:31 PM
Kind of pathetic that I’m the only person anyone will acknowledge. sigh
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probably cuz they think if they dont it'll strain the relationship between systems even more
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 6:32 PM
Oh, yeah, because I’m more important than our host? monster Yeah right. /Lh
18:32
They should be talking to Aesop, not me.
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and while that is true ..... we both know they would rather die than do that
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fyodor dostoevsky 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 6:33 PM
Which, again, is fucking pathetic.
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"sorry, give me a second" in the most serious tone followed by silence for 5 minutes
23:16
after that "are you okay?" another 2 minutes pass "yeah, im fine" in the same tone
23:16
kittyscared
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 11:17 PM
they are probably just unwell.
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nope, i got context
23:17
apparently they saw.. some kind of content of a hate crime and i swear to god they sound like they're crying and i don't want to comment on it
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 11:18 PM
aw, i hope they are doing okay. :( that is not good at all.
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correction they were in fact crying and i think they'll be okay but now i'm just worried
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 11:19 PM
i would be worried too, my lord.
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i sure do love going completely nonverbal
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 11:26 PM
are you okay?
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i mean
23:26
im not the one who just saw a hate crime so probably but fuck
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 11:28 PM
yeah, but you are fussing over the person who did.
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i guess
23:30
doesn't really feel like i have any right to be reacting to it though
23:32
sigh
23:33
hey google how to explain to someone that they in fact did not upset you by being upset and that you are just so worried your brain will not allow you to speak
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 11:34 PM
you say just that.
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i did qiqifallen
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 11:36 PM
good job. luzpat
23:36
communication.
23:36
πŸ‘
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/04/2023 11:37 PM
i am so proud of you, communication is really hard.
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yeah it is IkeSob1
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feeling emotions -> headache -> sleep excessive amounts -> repeat
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/05/2023 12:03 AM
good night!
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im fucking thinking about it
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/05/2023 12:04 AM
if it helps, do it.
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perhaps soon
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/05/2023 12:06 AM
i will be here if you need anything.
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/05/2023 12:08 AM
petpatpot
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ignore me if i send you tiktoks im coping
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/05/2023 12:09 AM
oh so true!
00:09
ath sent something about stealing pigeons and just said "fyodor".
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/05/2023 12:10 AM
they did try to catch pigeons in new york.
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/05/2023 1:23 PM
i got a single β€œgood luck” when i mentioned packing today.
13:23
from ath.
13:25
good luck packing?? i know us packing up to move was a fucking nightmare but also we live in a partial hoarder house so thats expected
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/05/2023 1:28 PM
i am calling the damn housing crisis place again because no one fucking calls back when they say they will.
13:28
i am going to try to go down there this evening to do their paperwork.
13:29
i have never been on hold where there is no music before. this is weird.
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/05/2023 1:54 PM
oh my god i got the paperwork done over the phone and will see her tomorrow.
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/05/2023 2:10 PM
they said they have programs to help in learning how to be an adult, as well as getting furniture, bus passes, transport, food, cleaning products, utilities, security deposits, everything.
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/05/2023 2:15 PM
yeah!! i am very, very optimistic.
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what is it with our dad and getting mad at US when our mom starts doing a chore for us that we never once asked her to do
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/05/2023 7:01 PM
he expects you to take initiative and do it before she "resorts" to doing it herself. shawn is the same.
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im so fucking irritated he ALWAYS DOES THIS.
19:02
wow, i sure wish we had a healthy relationship with our parents! πŸ‘
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/05/2023 7:02 PM
unfortunately, he will not stop unless you do what he expects. i.e., doing the thing before she does.
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yeah! whatever.
19:03
ill be back sigh
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/05/2023 7:03 PM
i am sorry, it is very unkind of him. good lukc.
19:03
luck.\
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im so fucking upset
19:14
i just want to yell. at someone.
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/05/2023 7:15 PM
you are welcome to yell at me, if it will help.
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i'll be alright
19:16
don't worry
19:16
IkePat
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/05/2023 7:17 PM
well, be safe. luzpat i will be here if you need anything.
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i appreciate it
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fun fact, our dad doesn't say good night to us when he was mad at us earlier in the day
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/05/2023 9:29 PM
ah, so he is a grudge holder. gross.
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yeah!! neat!
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/05/2023 9:33 PM
i am so sorry. shawn is the type to pretend it never happened.
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bram stoker 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/06/2023 9:08 PM
i feel like i’m on eggshells around athenaeum. if i fuck up, oceanus will yell.
21:09
giving blunt responses to a vent. they can’t get mad at that.
21:10
but that means, no asking for aesop’s partner tonight. fuck.
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douma 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/07/2023 9:58 PM
shawn’s mad.
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why ??
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douma 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/07/2023 9:59 PM
because the children are here and made food.
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?????
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douma 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/07/2023 9:59 PM
i think he just punched the wall.
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stupid
21:59
WHHHAAT
21:59
??
21:59
HELLO?
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douma 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/07/2023 9:59 PM
it definitely sounded like it!
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i am suddenly very glad that you're moving out soon christ
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douma 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/07/2023 10:00 PM
he’s leaving before we are, we’ll be here after he’s gone.
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really? where tf is he going?
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douma 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/07/2023 10:00 PM
jill’s.
22:00
they’re moving in with her.
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i...... see?
22:00
oooh.
22:00
it might be better there, i'd think..
22:01
might be a bit less of an ass when he's not in his own house
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douma 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/07/2023 10:01 PM
yeah. and we won’t have to see him except for if we visit him.
22:01
i doubt him and jill will last, though.
22:02
i'll pity the woman if she stays with him for too long
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douma 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/07/2023 10:02 PM
agreed. we warned her that he’s got unprocessed shit, and she didn’t listen.
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oh well, i guess
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/08/2023 12:50 AM
back again with the angry shawn.
00:50
why? because there are dishes.
00:52
he just said fuck, like. ten times in two minutes.
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/08/2023 12:53 AM
i. unconsciously turned the lights off and am prepared to fake sleep so he does not take it out on me.
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good luck
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/08/2023 1:03 AM
that is a trauma response, isn’t it.
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yeeep.
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/08/2023 1:03 AM
fuck.
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/08/2023 2:28 AM
kunikida when they keep us up for an extra hour and a half to look at tapestries and shitty shower curtains with osamu.
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/08/2023 9:27 AM
i wake up. oceanus in joseph’s channel. i immediately return to hating myself.
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/08/2023 9:51 AM
just realized that both our ex fiancé and ath are april aries signs. what an awful coincidence.
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/08/2023 9:52 AM
i am not big on zodiac stuff, but man.
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most of our bad experiences have been with aquarius
09:54
our mother and our abuser had birthdays 3 days apart
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/08/2023 9:58 AM
shawn is Barely an april taurus, his birthday is the day after the change. but the brother is also an april aries.
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/08/2023 10:09 AM
speaking of ath. aure is trying to configure a time to attempt to get joseph up. mmm. scared.
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/08/2023 12:08 PM
that felt oddly passive aggressive.
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/08/2023 1:04 PM
meeting new people /pos
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/08/2023 1:39 PM
nevermind, one of these systems just said they have over 30k people.
13:46
ohh, their headspace is an entire solar system. that makes more sense.
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/08/2023 1:54 PM
taking that back, they vented in general.
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aesop carl 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/08/2023 7:33 PM
they way my anxiety just spiked out of nowhere and now i can barely move.
19:33
nothing caused it.
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/10/2023 2:42 PM
they kept saying β€œin a few minutes” when i asked for joseph. i need him to know. but he never showed. and now they are spending the weekend with oceanus again.
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/10/2023 10:48 PM
they are talking about drinking panic scary bad bad.
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ajax 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/11/2023 11:58 AM
Me when I have to play optimist today, to keep up the β€œeverything’s fine” attitude 🀩
12:05
NOOOOO SHAWN IS MAKING US GO TO JILLS UNTIL TUESDAY
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ajax 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/11/2023 12:26 PM
I hope me saying β€œIf I keep us busy then Aesop can’t be sad” makes Ath feel bad. 🀩
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ajax 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/11/2023 7:11 PM
LMAO???
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ajax 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/11/2023 8:30 PM
I hurt my ankle going up the stairs wail Gonna cozy up and play source fr
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NOOOO
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ajax 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/11/2023 8:31 PM
YEAH THIS IS SO TRANSPHOBIC
20:37
Stress tummy ache AND ankle pain?? I’m gonna wallow and cry and sob
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ajax 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/11/2023 8:56 PM
I GOT THE ELEPHANT ROOM
20:56
Jill when she has a hyperfix on elephants and themed a whole room after them
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sigh comforting a friend during a power outage.
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i had to convince them to get in their car and drive a bit to clear their head because they were panicking car has light and power and drive distance from the stressor
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bram stoker 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 1:25 AM
i'm glad you were able to help them, sorry, now i'm...helping sanctuary.
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it's fine, don't worry about it
01:26
are they alright?
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bram stoker 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 1:27 AM
no. not in the slightest. is your friend okay?
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i think they're going to be alright, yeah. i hope that sanctuary feels better, though i don't know what happened and i dont think i want or need to know, but i hope that they feel better.
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bram stoker 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 1:30 AM
they explained it, and. yeah. not good.
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awful.
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bram stoker 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 1:32 AM
i hate men.
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i wholeheartedly agree after reading what they wrote in the vent channel
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bram stoker 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 1:34 AM
i'm going to be a misandrist.
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do it
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bram stoker 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 12:29 PM
REALLY fucked up that ath just posted a β€œmeme” about giving up a newborn.
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bram stoker 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 12:33 PM
carl, still recovering from the trauma day of faer dead infant: ath:
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nooo. no. nuh uh..
12:33
wtf..
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bram stoker 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 12:34 PM
i. don’t even have words. they knew. they wholly knew.
12:35
we told them. they knew.
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that's
12:35
disgusting, i'm so fucking sorry?
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bram stoker 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 12:36 PM
it isn’t even funny. the photo, i mean.
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it's not
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bram stoker 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 12:37 PM
assholes. not the fucking time to be doing that sort of thing.
12:39
they are apparently perusing a subreddit for children raised by narcissistic parents.
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bram stoker 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 12:39 PM
i don’t know. but that is still fucked up.
12:40
we just woke up, too.
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eugh. did you at least sleep alright?
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bram stoker 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 12:49 PM
i would say so, actually. the best we’ve slept in a week.
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good, that's a plus
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bram stoker 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 2:13 PM
meredith expressed disdain for what they said. and it has been wholly silent since.
14:13
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 6:48 PM
he. is awake.
18:48
joseph.
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he is?
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 6:49 PM
mhm. scared.
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you're going to be alright! is there anything you need?
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 6:51 PM
not sure yet.
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just let me know, i'll be here
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 7:49 PM
mmmmm.
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what's up?
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 7:49 PM
he is not comfortable.
19:49
and dazai was. so mad at me.
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 7:51 PM
talked to a friend about the candy that claudia made us try. and they made a joke. and dazai got mad.
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that's.. really stupid on dazai's part. are you alright?
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 7:52 PM
not really.
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anything i can do?
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 7:53 PM
19:53
fix me?
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i don't think i can do that, i'm sorry
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 7:54 PM
and. she gave him the candy.
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i saw, and that.. eugh. even i dont like those. and i like sour candy.
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 7:55 PM
i want to cry again.
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if you want to cry, it might benefit you to do so
19:55
i know that sucks but crying is good for you
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 7:56 PM
nikola, hidden machinations, is making me play monopoly with her.
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do you want to?
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 7:57 PM
yes. it helps.
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alright then, do that! play a game. see if it helps calm you down a little, and let me know if you need company or anything later on
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 7:58 PM
joseph does not like me. like this, i mean
19:58
i figured he would not, but.
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that's not your fault
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 7:59 PM
women do not attract him. and i.
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that's not your fault. don't convince yourself that it is, because it isn't.
20:00
he's unfamiliar with the state you're in, and that will unfortunately discomfort many kinds of people. try to give it time. if he can't adjust to it, sit down and talk to him about it in a formal setting.
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 8:03 PM
i explained it to him, as well as the fact that i have kasiani. and he focused on. the fact that he does not like women, and does not want to converse while i am. like this. and i am fighting so hard to continue speaking english, because i hate the language.
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if he's going to completely outright dismiss you, i'd.. hm.
20:04
i'd let it sit. step away and distance from it for now. maybe later on.
20:04
and don't force yourself to talk if you aren't comfortable doing so, if you'd prefer to drop it while you're here, you're welcome to do so
20:04
i can always translate for myself and converse with you that way
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 8:07 PM
i. may. i simply do not want to be a bother to more people than i am.
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it's never a bother to us, if that brings you any comfort
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 8:10 PM
c'est très réconfortant. sorry
20:12
ça fait mal. que mon partenaire ne me considère pas comme son partenaire alors que je suis comme ça.
20:17
shawn et jill ont tous les deux essayé de me demander pourquoi je pleurais. je fais comme si c'était le deuil de notre grand-mère.
20:21
panic again. oceanus mad. not allowed to. date anyone. ever. none of us are.
20:23
not hunter. not ada. not autumn. no one.
20:25
it was not my decision or even theirs. it was oceanus.
20:28
what do i even say
20:28
β€œsorry for being such an ass that you withdrew everyone’s relationships?” like?
20:30
how do i tell hunter. or izumi.
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woah woah okay give me a moment to tear this apart
20:34
alright, alright. are you saying oceanus is upset that you guys have relationships in athenaeum?
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 8:34 PM
no, they revoked our permission to date anyone in ath.
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alright. well, step one.
20:35
they literally do not have that right.
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 8:35 PM
they literally do. they are the ps.
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i don't know what gave them that entitlement, but that's not their right
20:35
nopw
20:35
that
20:35
is not how that works
20:35
REVOKING PERMISSION is not how that works
20:35
they can say they dont feel comfortable, but all in all, them being a partner system does not give them the right to revoke permission for people they are not personally dating
20:36
we would never do that to hierophant. even if it was someone we didn't like.
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 8:36 PM
i am going to assume they are breaking up with fyodor over all this if they are forcing even the teens apart. then they do not fucking get fyodor.
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don't let them.
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 8:37 PM
fuck that.
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i'm sorry this is all happening?
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 8:38 PM
and while we are not even home, at that.
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it's awful and you don't deserve it. i hope you know that.
20:42
do you need anything?
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 8:42 PM
for oceanus to shut up and leave me alone.
20:43
they are playing us out to be terrible people, over chocolates and no one speaking to autumn.
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would you like me to talk to them?
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 8:43 PM
no. i want them to leave me alone.
20:43
i will. update everyone’s bios publicly. because fuck.
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well, i can propose another option, but it's a bit more brutal admittedly
20:44
cut them off.
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 8:44 PM
i left their group server.
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full stop, block and ignore
20:45
genuinely, blocking them would cut them completely out of your life and honestly, probably make your life better.
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 8:46 PM
i just do not want them to slander us online. they are popular and have popular friends.
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are you popular? will it ruin anything for you?
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 8:47 PM
no, i am at the bottom of the barrel. but it is my conscience.
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can you think of anything off the top of your head that they would use as collateral if you remove them from your life?
20:48
if you can't, then it doesn't matter
20:48
having popular friends means nothing in the long run
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 8:50 PM
β€œit was brought up to you at an older age” and you have explained nothing to me, mori. this is about autumn. no one is explaining anything.
20:50
hot girl moment (panicking so hard my hands go numb)
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just because it may have been brought up to you at another time means nothing
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 8:51 PM
even then it wasn’t detailed. i know nothing.
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it isn't rude to ask for a better explanation, i think
20:54
alright, i'm going to ask one thing
20:55
it won't harm you guys at all if i choose to cut oceanus off in regards to our personal things, will it?
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 8:55 PM
do it. it will be fine.
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alright.
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 8:56 PM
i. unfriended tjem, at least. and will do it on tiktok too.
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ah, right
20:56
thank you for reminding me that we have them on tiktok.
20:57
aaaand done.
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meredith carl. 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 8:59 PM
fuck, we have not even eaten yet today. and now i certainly don’t want to.
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eat when you're ready to, don't force yourself
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bram stoker 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 9:10 PM
i can’t make the body stop crying.
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it's going to be hard
21:11
you've got a lot going on, and i know it's going to be really hard to deal with
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bram stoker 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 9:11 PM
i don’t cry. this is awful.
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is there anything i can do?
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bram stoker 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 9:12 PM
would you be willing to sit with me for a bit, until i can get nikolai’s attention?
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absolutely
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bram stoker 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 9:12 PM
thank you. i may try to play some games, anything to make us focus on something else.
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let me know and i will accompany you as much as you need
21:13
do you have anywhere in particular you want to be ?
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bram stoker 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 9:14 PM
whatever you're most comfortable with. i just need some company.
21:14
i took down tlbt.
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i saw, and honestly, good idea
21:14
we can go here for now
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bram stoker 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/12/2023 9:15 PM
and i plan to steal some emotes before leaving the autism too.
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/13/2023 9:14 AM
Shawn keeps insisting we move closer to him. Like even if we could step away from Amanda, I wouldn’t even think about it
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literally do not
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/13/2023 9:14 AM
We legally can’t, Amanda manages our money and we aren’t allowed to do it ourself
09:14
We HAVE to stay close to her
09:16
Lmao. Can’t wait to tell our therapist that we got broken up with. We were just joking with Hierophant about how she asked how our friend group was going and we said we’ll get to that at a later date
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eeeugh. yeah..
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/13/2023 9:22 AM
β€œI was worried about you” Shawn. I call bullshit
09:22
he isn't worried about you he's worried about the fact that you aren't going to be paying him rent
09:22
/hj
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/13/2023 9:23 AM
Or the fact that we worried Jill. Not about us, just her.
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/13/2023 9:24 AM
Yeah.
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that's.. uh.
09:24
wtf lol
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/13/2023 9:24 AM
He didn’t come asking after us yesterday until Jill mentioned us being sad.
09:24
β€œSad”
09:24
We didn’t even Eat yesterday and he only said β€œJill said-β€œ to us
09:27
Gonna go home and take. Meds. To sleep for a while.
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/13/2023 10:01 AM
Shawn when he tries to get us to have breakfast and I literally just can’t
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he's trying and failing i hope you guys can get something to eat once you get home
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/13/2023 10:03 AM
He’s failing miserably, and I frankly doubt it.
10:03
I asked if he knew what today was and he said his brother’s birthday. No.
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/13/2023 10:03 AM
Yeah.
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i mean i don't really know what today is either but that doesn't sound right
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/13/2023 10:04 AM
It’s the death date of our great grandmother. Yknow, the lady that basically raised us
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oooooh.......
10:04
i'm so sorry? please take it easy once you get home and rest as much as you can
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/13/2023 10:05 AM
I’ll do my best. luzpat Just. Such a shitty week and it’s only Tuesday.
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itll be over before you know it, i know it
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/13/2023 10:06 AM
Let’s hope
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you got this
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/13/2023 10:07 AM
Like I want something to eat. But it won’t sit well if I do. The anxiety flashes are gonna make me sick
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/13/2023 1:13 PM
Made it home, finally. Shawn and me actually chatted and got along really well?
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/13/2023 4:09 PM
Mmmmmm. /neg
16:11
HMC is upset too.
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/13/2023 4:25 PM
Dude I just wanna sleep is that too much to ask.
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apparently. i just woke up, are you doing alright?
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/13/2023 4:26 PM
Not really. I’m scared, and letting Makima handle things because she’s more protector than me. I just manage stress. Which is getting REALLY hard to do /lh
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what's going on?
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/13/2023 4:27 PM
HMC is telling us how concerning Aesops behavior was (which we agree with and acknowledge it wasn’t okay) and that they want us to talk to the three again. And Makima’s saying no, she won’t allow it until they stop being so harsh
16:28
She also entirely vetoed speaking to Oceanus ever again, thankfully.
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aesop was concerning, but is there stuff he was doing that was otherwise harmful..?
16:29
/gen
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/13/2023 4:29 PM
Nothing other than panicking and not accepting that it is his fault they split.
16:30
Because our memory is so poor, Ada’s word of β€œdon’t fucking talk about that” didn’t stick
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i don't even know what that means but
16:30
aaaah.
16:34
but the decision to never talk to oceanus is good and the other two..
16:35
well i don't think pleiades has ever been an issue?? correct me if i'm wrong
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/13/2023 4:35 PM
No, but Oceanus said β€œon behalf of all three of us” on their β€œprivileges revoking” message.
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oh that's..
16:35
huh.
16:36
something makes me think that pleiades might not have actually had nearly as heavy a say in it than oceanus & ath
16:36
they seem really distant from the issue from where im seeing it
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makima 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/13/2023 4:37 PM
Also considering it was the dead of fucking night for them, I doubt things. But still, they’re complicit and I’m wary.
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that's a valid fear (and if it does become obvious that they did have a part in it i won't defend them, for the record)
16:38
they all need to work on their fucking shit already, ath and oceanus both
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makima 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/13/2023 4:41 PM
They’re too co dependent on one another, and I hate how possessive Oceanus is, especially considering how they are, in fact, still cheating on Theatrum.
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makima 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/13/2023 4:46 PM
I love having to explain the trauma response of shifting topics when anger is involved. /Sar
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makima 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/13/2023 4:54 PM
They claimed we wholly ghosted the three, and that is untrue. We only β€œghosted” Oceanus. The other two still have multiple ways to contact us.
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yeah, no..
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makima 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/13/2023 4:56 PM
They have our phone number. They are still friends here. They have our TikTok. Ath still has our Twitter.
16:57
The only person we cut off, was the bastard that said our attitude caused them to be angry.
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i feel like for some reason they might have assumed that because you cut oceanus, that you cut the rest of them as well?
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makima 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/13/2023 4:58 PM
They’re stupid then.
17:01
I reached an understanding with HMC, thankfully. sigh Hopefully Kaveh can let us sleep now.
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i hope you guys can get some rest
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/14/2023 6:24 PM
Me when someone misgenders me despite me having pronouns IN MY SERVER NAME???
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HELP?
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/14/2023 6:24 PM
LIKE DUDE???
18:26
Apparently people complained about this guy misgendering them too, but my pronouns are IN MY NAME.
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noooo....
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/14/2023 6:29 PM
Worst part? IT WAS IN THE VENT CHAT
18:31
Dude will this guy shut up
18:31
I do NOT like him
18:31
LIKE. NOT WVEN ON OUR BASE ACC IS THE THEY/THEM ROLE THERE
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/14/2023 6:53 PM
YEAH NAH THE OTHER MODS WERE ALL LIKE β€œis it who I think it is”
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/14/2023 7:30 PM
NOT THE DUDE MAKING A COMMENT ABOUT ME HATING THEY/THEM ON MYSELF like bro.
19:33
He doesn’t even use tone tags I can NOT tell what he’s saying
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/15/2023 1:03 AM
UPDATE the other mods put his ass on a watch list because he’s just icky vibes
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Dude I’ve got that β€œtoday is gonna suck” dread and I’m so scared
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 9:45 AM
I wake up. SP friend request from Ath.
09:45
I will be ignoring it. You don’t get SP rights
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 10:28 AM
Scared the shit outta me though. Like one how do you remember it. Two why do you want it. Three is it to keep tabs on us
10:35
Can I be a dick. Can I please.
10:35
Not to them but just in a complaining way
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 10:42 AM
Claudia uses thou/thee pronouns AND THEY NEVER USE THEM RIGHT. β€œI have a spinterest on language” then USE THE PRONOUNS RIGHT.
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 10:42 AM
I LITERALLY DONT KNOW BUT NEITHER THEM NOR ATH USED RHEM RIGHT
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how do you use them correctly now i need to know
10:43
is it old english grammar...? or...
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 10:44 AM
Thou and I went to the park, I went with thee. Thou brought thine frisbee, at least I think it’s thine. Thou started to throw it to thineself. (edited)
10:44
ITS SHAKESPEAREAN TIME ENGLISH
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HEHRHSHHD
10:44
THATS SO FUNNY IM SO SORRY
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 10:45 AM
But yeah it’s SO EASY. And for people who claim to love language so much you’d THINK they’d know old English
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 10:48 AM
Es wanted to correct them so bad (thou uses the pronouns primarily) but were held back because of how blunt thou is.
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bluntness is deserved
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 11:00 AM
The way I did laundry last night to dry this morning, and the washer didn’t even wash the fucking clothes
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 11:00 AM
Everything was SOAKED and if I squeezed some of it the water was still icky (Calli dirt) when it dripped out. So I’m washing it all AGAIN
11:03
i want to say i think it ran but it didn't spin out
11:04
which used to happen every single time we washed our bedding with our old washer bc it had an agitator in the middle (giant pole) and the blankets would get caught around it and collect water and not spin out, leaving them DRENCHED and we just threw them in the dryer like that 😭
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 11:06 AM
No I don’t think it just didn’t spin, it drained, it literally just didn’t wash shit
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 11:51 AM
NOT THEM FUCKING TAGGING ME@IN THEIR SERVER TEN MINUTES BEFORE I HAVE THERAPY
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 11:51 AM
GO AWAY GO AWSY IM NOT LOOKING KM NOT GONNA
11:52
I DONT WANNA KNOW I DONT CARE I KNOW ITS GONNA BE SOME SHIT THAT MAKES US FEEL WORSE
11:53
Five bucks says they either compare us to Shin, Mika, or their rapist. I’m calling it
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 11:56 AM
I’m SCARED
11:58
Like I know HMC told them that how they handled us was uncalled for and harsh, but I don’t. Wanna hear their sob story about us blocking Oceanus. Because then Makima’s gonna go in her speal about how she hates Oceanus for being a serial cheater and their attitude towards us always being so rude and. Yeah.
12:03
I may. Read it while in therapy. But I know it's not gonna go well and I just want to avoid everything
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but it would be best to do it while with someone
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 12:10 PM
I already have SO much to be doing
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 12:18 PM
"That's kind of abusive sounding" HEY. MOLLY.
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H. Help?
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 12:20 PM
"Keeping secrets about things both people did is like a parent telling a child not to tell someone else that they did something bad."
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makima 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 12:25 PM
Our therapist said it isn't our fault that they got mad, it's abusive and Oceanus is controlling.
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yes, exactly
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makima 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 12:27 PM
"It was blown way out of proportion" Yes.
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makima 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 12:28 PM
"It was something so innocent, they never spoke of boundaries with you and it sounds like [Ath] lied."
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makima 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 12:39 PM
"Do they deserve closure if they won't admit their wrongs?"
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makima 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 12:45 PM
I plan to properly DM them and say that we are sorry, but we are actively about to be homeless and don't have the capacity to deal with things such as this at this time.
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makima 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 12:53 PM
Can you look over my message, to make sure it doesn't seem like something that would piss them off?
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i can definitely try
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makima 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 12:53 PM
"πŸͺ½ I know you sent us something elsewhere, but I need you to be aware that we physically do not have the time to have a proper conversation. I am truly sorry for all that has happened, genuinely, we just do not have the time nor emotional energy to speak properly yet. Our housing situation comes first, I do hope you understand."
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sounds good
12:54
straight to the point and not emotionally motivated
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makima 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 12:54 PM
Great. That was my goal. And if they try to talk there, I will have to repeat myself.
12:54
Done. Let's pray they shut the actual fuck up.
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good luck
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makima 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 12:55 PM
Kaveh's letting the anxiety get to us, I feel sick.
12:56
Teeny tiny bit too busy being homeless to talk about feelings.
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it's a stressful thing, unfortunately
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 1:32 PM
THE WAY I GOT A BREAKING NEWS THING ABOUT A SHOOTING AND WAS SCARED I MISSED SOMETHING???
13:32
IT HAPPENED FIVE YEARS AGO
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 1:33 PM
"Shooter of synagogue sentenced to dOH SHIT ATH REPLIED
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 1:34 PM
They're being rude, because apparently their message was "just about readding us on SP"
13:34
"figure that out first please" Shut up.
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 1:57 PM
Anyway I had to hand squeeze our laundry out so it could dry. My hands are wrinkly now.
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 1:58 PM
Also, Akutagawa realized that it's been almost exactly 11 months since the fall out with Dramaturgy. And now we're having issues with other people with Latin-esque system names
13:59
what are the chances
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 1:59 PM
Coincidence is a funny thing
14:00
Also love our therapist for acknowledging that our need to wear this necklace constantly is an OCd thing, but that we have bigger issues and that wearing a crystal for good luck isn't the worst thing we've done /lh
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 6:47 PM
Man I just wanna shower, but Amanda is insisting we clean the basement out and that means having to leave to get stuff for Calli too, and I stink, and I just did paperwork, and
18:48
My back hurts please 😭
18:54
Had to imply shit to Amanda about Ath lmao
18:54
β€œWhy not your friend in New York for a reference?” Lmao
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 7:20 PM
Update I still haven’t gotten a shower and we’re still cleaning the basement (almost done though)
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 7:30 PM
FINALLY
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 7:50 PM
My emotions today range from panic to exhaustion to HOMO
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/16/2023 11:18 PM
Me when the lingering guilty shit from Ath's...shit. Yes I said shit twice. Makes me feel bad for a fanfic I recommended and he asked for makes Al-Haitham homesick. Fuck, am I gay? Am I just too worried for a new friend?
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 12:02 AM
Dude I’m so annoyed with this guy again USE SOME FUCKING TONE TAGS
00:04
Anyways his OC is a red flag to me, do you wanna see his description of it
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 12:21 AM
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 12:21 AM
It was fine to start with. But.
00:21
BRO…
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 1:17 AM
Heartburn salt
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 1:19 AM
AND HEADACHE MAN WHAT
01:19
Those TikTok tarot readings about someone hexing me sound real accurate right about now /hj
01:20
Esp because I know Oceanus does tarot and magic shit
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i doubt they're very good at it
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 1:26 AM
Yeah probably not, considering they can’t even cosplay themselves properly. But these inconveniences are driving me crazy
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LOOOLLL
01:30
nah youre probably just inconvenienced bc you're stressed and super busy
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 1:36 AM
But the washer breaking? After working just fine for over a decade? My good ankle constantly giving out? Calli being more clingy than usual?
01:38
She never used to jump on the table man, and now she’s constantly on the table bothering me and Amanda
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stuff likes to act up when you need it not to shrugs
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 1:40 AM
kittycry Man I hate this shit
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 11:45 AM
Just realized that Ath has an AWFUL trigger to Yae Miko, and ours has currently gotten herself frontstuck
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uh.. oops..?
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 11:46 AM
Damn, what a shame. (Strawberry proxy said that they won’t talk to us if β€œpeople they’re scared of” are in front)
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isnt strawberry proxy aurelio
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 11:46 AM
Man I don’t know, I avoided them all like the plague
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idk but either way its giving dramaturgy ayato
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venti 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 11:47 AM
IT IS LMFAO YESH
11:48
DUDE
11:48
GOD THIS IS DRAMATURGY ALL OVER AGAIN
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ISNT IT
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LOL
11:48
ALSO I THINK YOUR BIRTHDAY WAS YESTERDAY SO HAPPY LATE BIRTHDAY
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venti 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 11:48 AM
THANKS AND TELL YOURS HAPPY BIRTHDAY FOR ME TOO
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I WILL NEXT TIME I SEE HIM
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venti 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 11:49 AM
But like! Yeah!! This is literally Dramaturgy all over again!! Playing favorites and making the other person seem like a shitty being to have an excuse to cut them off
11:50
I listened in to therapy a little bit and she said that Athenaeum was MAD emotionally abusive to us with saying we can’t talk about things that WE WERE INVOLVED IN
11:50
very true
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venti 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 11:51 AM
Lmao. Fuck that shit, I don’t feel like being around people like that again. It’s too much work and now we get anxiety when we have red ping notifications
11:51
i literally. those people drive me insane
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venti 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 11:52 AM
Literally. I can’t stand them. Why do you think I LITERALLY never fronted around them
11:52
Even Elias got sick of their shit
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for good reason
11:52
can't wait to tell vanitas that he was right /lhj
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venti 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 11:53 AM
The one time our autism can’t pinpoint the bad as quick kittyawe It picked it out on Oceanus real fast, but not the other two
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we just. look at someone. and sometimes it just SCREAMS bad
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venti 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 11:53 AM
IT USUALLY DOES THAT FOR US TOO
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and the last time it did that with someone in another server, it was right!!
11:54
bro got fuckin banned
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venti 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 11:54 AM
Like tbf Pleiades never really did anything, but they’re complicit
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pleiades is like..
11:54
a weird variable because of the sheer time difference
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venti 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 11:55 AM
GOOD. Man shut up some people project!!
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Reply to: bro got fuckin banned πŸ“Ž
11:55
And yeah, however we’re mad at them a little because of Oceanus using them as a token against us
11:55
β€œOn behalf of all three of us” shut UP
11:55
i doubt pleiades ever had a problem with you individually
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venti 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 11:56 AM
Yeah no, one of their co hosts was actually very good friends with Aesop! BUT Oceanus did cheat on Fyodor with one of theirs too so
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venti 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 11:59 AM
Maybe they didn’t know. I’ll give them benefit of the doubt there
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i dunno, but
11:59
its just
11:59
fuck man
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venti 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 12:00 PM
head_slam
12:00
Why can’t we have ONE good relationship man
12:00
NAHHHH NOT ME GETTING A WILL STETSON NOTIFICATION OF HIM SINGING AN ENSTARS SONG
12:00
IM GONNA KAY EM ESS
12:05
Hot take, the music in Enstars SUCKS
12:05
Proseka > Enstars
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venti 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 12:07 PM
It’s just not good, they all have grating voices that hurt my ears. Now, Proseka? Wonderful, songs we all know, good voices, vocaloids
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venti 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 12:07 PM
Also go back to bed it’s noon
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waiting for friend to come back bc their wifi went out and i'd feel bad if i left them
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venti 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 12:10 PM
Ohhh gotcha gotcha
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 12:23 PM
Dude they do NOT have luck with that shit
12:26
and then their cell service is giving them shit too
12:27
i just found out they pay almost 200$ a month for phone service..?
12:27
i pay FIFTY?
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 12:27 PM
We ALSO pay around fifty
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WHERE DO YOU GET 170$?
12:31
literally everyone i know is paying 50$
12:32
and its like
12:32
i have unlimited data and a hotspot for 50$
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 12:33 PM
US TOO. LIKE. Literally our hotspot and data are both unlimited AND are 5G so like
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i have the photo of their plan
12:33
12:33
had to get rid of their name
12:34
im like fuck dude you need a different cell provider
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 12:34 PM
Why is it so expensive…
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 12:34 PM
Verizon man. Our family’s gone with them for almost 20 years
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we have straighttalk like our dad and it's never given us ANY trouble
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 5:48 PM
I open our other server.
17:48
Grrrrrrrrrr
17:48
angry
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eewww
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 5:50 PM
(Claudia severely kinned him)
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 9:22 PM
Our anxiety versus seeing Ath offline for the first time in months (They easily could've blocked us, because being offline is a good show of that happening)
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 9:23 PM
Like. Frankly I hope they did. Just because.
21:23
But we're still in their server, so they haven't kicked us. And maybe their phone died, archons know they never charge that shit
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maybe
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/17/2023 9:26 PM
It just made me a lil nervous, since we rarely use DMs and I just saw that while DMing someone
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/18/2023 2:42 AM
Tummy hurts (our anxiety is really bad again and we still haven't been eating well)
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are you okay???
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/18/2023 2:54 AM
Overthinking what I said before this. (I'm really bad at my job as a stress manager if you can't tell) and now it's quiet since Lotus and I finished our show
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rui 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/18/2023 4:07 AM
β€œi’m deathly afraid of spiders πŸ₯Ίβ€ i hope the spider-man movie trending ruins your month. <3
04:08
i couldn’t front no matter how much i wanted to because my proxy is a fucking spider web.
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rui 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/18/2023 4:18 AM
athenaeum is deathly afraid of spiders, even the word makes their skin crawl. so, i hope the new spider man movie trending ruins their precious weekends with their stupid fucking oceanus.
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honestly..
04:18
good
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rui 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/18/2023 4:19 AM
β€œyou ruined a perfectly good weekend” they told aesop. so, i hope the movie ruins so many more.
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i love that
04:19
the spiderverse is literally just
04:19
a bunch of people that got bitten by a radioactive spider
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rui 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/18/2023 4:20 AM
yeah, i know that, i’m a spider demon. but all spiders bad. they’d have panic attacks over violetta idv.
04:21
they refused to watch star or even my source because of the cartoon spider or the spider themed demons. the only spider thing about me is my webs.
04:21
the spiderverse is fucking gorgeous.
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yeah!!
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rui 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/18/2023 4:24 AM
if we can put phobias aside to just appreciate pretty media, they can too. they’re not more important than others.
04:25
my arc is pretty, you see nezuko’s blood demon art for the first time. it’s a nice pink.
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it's also just a matter of... if a phobia is so bad it debilitates you, shouldn't you at least try to work with it?
04:25
at least a little?
04:25
????
04:25
correct me if im wrong of course thats just my immediate thought
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rui 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/18/2023 4:26 AM
that too, yeah. they said our trauma is too terrible for us to socialize with, because we’d always explain why we can’t do something. but heaven fucking forbid spiders are involved in anything.
04:26
my source, star versus the forces of evil, idv, spiderverse…
04:27
literally, the star spider is a little circle with legs and a fucking top hat.
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OH THE LITTLE TINY ONE????
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rui 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/18/2023 4:28 AM
yeah, the little tiny one!
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THAT THIN DONT EVEN LOOK LIKE A SPIDER
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rui 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/18/2023 4:28 AM
is it petty to wish ill over spiders? yes. do i care? no.
04:28
and yeah, no, he doesn’t look like a spider at ALL.
04:29
he’s a little guy, he’s the hype man.
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rui 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/18/2023 4:33 AM
there’s two or three episodes of him finding his purpose and accepting that he, despite being small, has a big role in the magic. it’s sweet. and he’s the ONLY spider thing there. so how they watched owl house but refused star?
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awwwwww...
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rui 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/18/2023 4:34 AM
we could watch it with you at some point, if you wanted. it’s got a lot going on to help with your adhd, and maybe the colors will help catch your attention.
04:34
mayhaps....
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rui 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/18/2023 4:36 AM
it’s one of those shows with two different story plots per episode, and star is classic hyperactive autistic. it’s always worth a shot,
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OOOOOooo
04:36
that sounds fun
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rui 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/18/2023 4:47 AM
it’s very fun! very colorful and full of interesting storylines, despite being geared to small girls. i’m not one for being very social, but i’m more than willing to sit with you one of these days.
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thatd be fun!! i will be free.. at some point... some time...
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rui 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/18/2023 4:48 AM
you have guests, i know that much. and we have to be busy the next few days, but will be free soon. i hope.
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yeah...
04:49
sister visiting
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rui 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/18/2023 4:50 AM
yeah. and we have to actually get back to packing tomorrow. took a few days off.
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packing...
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rui 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/18/2023 4:51 AM
packing, yeah.
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/18/2023 2:49 PM
14:50
Getting real tired of stress, man. Didn’t sleep long enough either, I’m knocking us back out to see if that helps
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/18/2023 9:05 PM
So, remember the guy in the server we mod that I've been complaining about?
21:05
Untagged talk of pedos in the 18+ gen chat.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/18/2023 9:05 PM
WOAH THERE HELLO??
21:05
WHAT??
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/18/2023 9:05 PM
YEAH LIKE WHOA THERE BUDDY. WHOA THERE PAL.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/18/2023 9:05 PM
HELLLLO??????
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/18/2023 9:06 PM
He was just like "There's this pedo on my Twitter feed" And I'm like ???????
21:07
He also, still DOESN'T FUCKING USE TONE TAGS
21:07
Him when him and his gf joke about killing each other in a PUBLIC CHAT and nobody knows what's going on because they don't use tone tags
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/18/2023 9:08 PM
KILLING EACHOTHER????
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/18/2023 9:08 PM
YES
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/18/2023 9:08 PM
THATS A REALLY STRANGE RELATIONSHIP DYNAMIC, MY GUY!!
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/18/2023 9:08 PM
NAH FR I DO NOT LIKE IT. RED FUCKING FLAGS EVERYWHERE
21:08
He's also one of those Genshin players that polices builds and shit
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/18/2023 9:08 PM
ew
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/18/2023 9:14 PM
Asshole isn't tagging his rant about shit again. I'm gonna lose my mind
21:14
I'm too tired today fr
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/18/2023 9:19 PM
can i kill im
21:19
him
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/18/2023 9:21 PM
God PLEASE he's so annoying. And like, you could join the server if you wanted, it's mostly just for video games and chatter, but like. We mod the thing and aren't allowed to just kick him, we have to have a little democratic talk about it
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/18/2023 9:21 PM
let me in
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/18/2023 9:22 PM
Give me a few minutes and I've got you
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/19/2023 12:08 AM
I JUST SAW LIGHTNING NOOO
00:08
WE HATE STORMS
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/19/2023 12:09 AM
NOOOO
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rui 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/19/2023 2:08 AM
we’re overheating and our back hurts so, so bad despite taking things for the pain. our knees keep trying to give out too, so we haven’t been able to cook like we want to.
02:09
and, it’s going to be in the 90°s all week.
02:09
and humid, now that it’s rained. and because of our genetics, we aren’t built for humidity.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/19/2023 2:10 AM
oh god
02:10
that's fucking awful i'm so sorry
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rui 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/19/2023 2:12 AM
pain always spikes with stress, it’s to be expected. i’ll still complain, don’t get me wrong, but it’s expected. on a scale of one to lyme disease, it’s a solid eight right now.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/19/2023 2:12 AM
oh god
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rui 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/19/2023 2:13 AM
catflop
02:14
god, if They saw fukuzawa, they’d throw a fit. /lh
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/19/2023 2:14 AM
yeah they would
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rui 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/19/2023 2:16 AM
β€œhow can you like him he’s a p-β€œ shut up. fukuzawa’s mori back home was fatherly and cared for his people. and the mori thou’s gay for is the same way.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/19/2023 2:16 AM
you know what, fair.
02:17
alter =/= their source media
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rui 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/19/2023 2:17 AM
they seem to forget that when it’s convenient for them. kittyscared
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/19/2023 2:17 AM
yep!
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rui 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/19/2023 2:18 AM
i almost wish they could see fukuzawa’s channel. and seethe. their favorite phrase to say was β€œfukuzawa needs better taste in men” as an insult, rather than a joke. and he just sat and listened to it.
02:19
i’m whining, i’m sorry. they get on my nerves and the old man’s feeling residual guilt about their possible behaviors if they knew.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/19/2023 2:19 AM
nah it's okay
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rui 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/19/2023 2:20 AM
ooh hold on, nausea wave.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/19/2023 2:20 AM
be safe, shit
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rui 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/19/2023 2:21 AM
we usually feel like this when we take ibuprofen, so i’m not shocked. still sucks though.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/19/2023 2:21 AM
yeah.. itll suck even if you're used to it
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rui 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/19/2023 2:22 AM
yeah no, and i just took our night meds too. i think i didn’t eat enough before taking them
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rui 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/19/2023 2:38 AM
okay i’m fine, i think the humidity is getting to me too
02:38
it’s already 86% humidity. and it’s still raining.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/19/2023 2:42 AM
EW?
02:42
that sounds so.. sticky.
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rui 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/19/2023 2:43 AM
i feel miserable. i’ll try to sleep while it’s semi cool out, and hopefully do at least some trash pick up in the morning.
02:44
lord willing, anyway. there’s too many gay people.
02:45
kunikida and chuuya with their gays, fukuzawa yearning, kaveh.
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/19/2023 2:45 AM
WTF KID
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rui 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/19/2023 2:45 AM
choke.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/19/2023 2:50 AM
i. i like just.
02:50
kaveh.
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rui 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/19/2023 2:55 AM
kaveh.
02:56
god i can’t breathe in this humidity. it’s too hot and too cold at the same time.
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blurry || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/19/2023 2:58 AM
we're having trouble breathing as well tbh the air is just bad so yeah i doubt the weather is helping
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/20/2023 1:50 AM
After three years of it finally being manageable, the fucking BACK ACNE RETURNED
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NOOOOO
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kaveh 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/20/2023 1:53 AM
The face acne I can manage but the BACK
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/20/2023 11:51 PM
I'm so annoyed with Shawn, he extended his stay in the cities by a week without telling us and left so many nasty ass dishes when he left. So the kitchen stinks and we haven't got groceries
23:51
He said he'd be back tomorrow initially, now it won't be until Tuesday next week
23:54
Homie left us two chicken breasts and some frozen veggies and thinks that'll last us two whole weeks
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 4:15 AM
i wake up, in pain from our back, to see the guy we dislike being ableist to our friend in semi public, because he can’t talk in private.
04:18
β€œhey i make this sound out of habit because i’m autistic and i literally cannot stop.” β€œcan you not? i hate it” β€œnot really?” β€œbut my gf hates it too” β€œliterally cannot stop. i said that. just don’t play video games with me if you dislike it?” β€œyou’re an asshole”
04:18
like fuck off dude, don’t try to make them change for you. and do this shit in private
04:20
it’s 3 am and i’m irritated by him being a dick and STILL NOT USING TONE TAGS despite whining about the use of them
04:22
now i’m invested in being annoyed with him and don’t wanna go back to sleep.
04:24
nahhh not him trying to make himself out to be their friend. fucker nobody likes you
04:26
β€œjust don’t call with me. it’s literally that easy.” β€œno.”
04:32
HES TRYNA MANIPULATE THEM WITH β€œif we were friends you wouldn’t do this” BRO NOBODY LIKES YOU
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 9:55 AM
i fell asleep and didn’t get to see how it ended but i know damn well he didn’t get what he wanted
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 9:56 AM
what kind of logic even IS that i literally do not understand
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 9:58 AM
don’t ask me, i don’t understand this man. trying to make people change for him
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 9:58 AM
how has he not been bonked yet
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 9:59 AM
his gf would throw a fit, and she hasn’t done wrong yet
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 9:59 AM
but there's so much that hes done wrong....
09:59
wild
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 10:00 AM
i’ll ask the other mods later, if i remember. because i’m sick of him
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 10:00 AM
think abt it when the time comes
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 10:13 AM
patience sent us chain mail first thing this morning
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 10:13 AM
??!!
10:13
what is your fucking morning today holy shit
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 10:14 AM
i literally don’t know, this is wild
10:14
sister sending us chainmail, calli’s name getting spelled wrong by the vet, fucker arguing at 3 am…
10:15
at least we’re staying with amanda tonight, since her shift got changed and we need her car
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 10:15 AM
that's good? i think
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 10:15 AM
it means i won’t boil to death in my sleep from the humidity
10:15
her house has air conditioning
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 10:16 AM
oh GOOD
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 10:21 AM
THE WAY SHAWN DIDNT EVEN LEAVE US MAPLE FUCKING SYRUP
10:21
i WAS going to make french toast
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 10:22 AM
?????
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 10:22 AM
would you like a tour of the kitchen and what we have
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 10:24 AM
yes
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 10:25 AM
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 10:25 AM
ew
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 10:26 AM
i’m going to lose my mind
10:26
that’s LITERALLY all we have minus some bread
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 10:26 AM
ew
10:26
ew.
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 10:27 AM
does he expect us to synthesize food or something?
10:27
regular toast for breakfast it is
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 10:28 AM
i wish i could send you guys food that's so
10:28
that looks like our food situation (all of our food is freezer and annoying or its just NOT FOOD IT'S JUST INGREDIENTS)
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 10:29 AM
we don’t even have ingredients just SAUCES. and yeah we could make rice with something but i don’t wanna wash the cooker out
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 10:29 AM
i dont blame you
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 10:33 AM
the breakfast of grandmas everywhere
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 10:33 AM
yeah
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 11:19 AM
i know what i have to do but i don’t know if i have the strength to do it
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 11:19 AM
what's up?
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 11:19 AM
shawn likes to have β€œmre”s. meals for people in the army and on the field
11:19
there’s a box full of them
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 11:19 AM
...
11:19
he.... he willingly eats those...?
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 11:20 AM
yeah he takes them hunting
11:20
i am unwillingly going to eat one
11:20
do you wanna see the meal spread here
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 11:20 AM
i've NEVER seen someone WILLINGLY EAT an mre
11:20
yes
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 11:21 AM
11:21
don’t mind the leg i sit funny
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 11:21 AM
oh my god
11:21
ok so imseeing
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 11:21 AM
i’ve got poptarts and tootsie roll at least
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 11:21 AM
a giant tootsie roll
11:21
popstarts
11:21
crackers + strawberry jam but mre style
11:21
and whats the other thing
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 11:21 AM
pasta with chicken and alfredo
11:22
i’m gonna paper plate and microwave that shit, no way in hell am i using their heater
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 11:22 AM
interesting
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 11:23 AM
that looked like actual shit coming out of the package
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 11:24 AM
ew
11:26
EW
11:26
THAT LOOKS SO NASTY OH MY GOHUFHNDSM,MVN
11:26
EW
11:26
EW
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 11:26 AM
all things considered it doesn’t taste too bad
11:26
damn normally these meals come with a drink mix
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 11:29 AM
do they??
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 11:29 AM
yeah
11:30
i want my shitty gatorade mix mmm
11:32
i ate like half the pasta, time to go ham on my poptarts instead
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 11:32 AM
poptarts. <3
11:33
im like.. craving pizza, man
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chuuya 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 11:34 AM
pizza would be so good right now
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 3:38 PM
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 4:07 PM
Took the trash out and I feel like warm butter
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 4:51 PM
DAWG WHY IS ATH TEXTING US GO AWAY I GOT SHIT TO DO
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 4:51 PM
WHY ARE THEY TEXTING YOU??
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 4:52 PM
IDK THEY JUSF ASKED HOW THINFS ARE GOING
16:52
I knew we should’ve kept Miko in front
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 4:52 PM
i'm so glad they pretend we don't exist
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 4:52 PM
Literally
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 4:52 PM
literally why did they only acknowledge us through you 😭
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 4:54 PM
Man idk, that’s so weird to me. Only asking after you when we mention you doing stuff with us, and all they cared about was school
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 4:54 PM
right
16:54
why do you care more about our school thab we do
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 4:57 PM
They blame their mom for that
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 4:57 PM
i mean
16:57
man you could at least ask US directly ???
16:58
confusing.
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 4:58 PM
I don’t even try to understand them, I never liked them
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 4:58 PM
i mean im glad i didn't really know them by damn..
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 4:58 PM
The first thing their friend group (consisting of Shin and someone else) did when we joined their group (which was when I WAS HOST) was talk about source me and his nsfw abilities
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 4:59 PM
Ew
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 5:00 PM
β€œHey did you know that Blade-β€œ shut up lmao
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 5:00 PM
that's so obnoxious
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 5:01 PM
Nah literally. First meeting of these people and they’re talking abt my robo dick
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 5:01 PM
d
17:01
do i have permission to laugh
17:01
is that ok
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 5:01 PM
YEAH
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 5:01 PM
IM SORRY
17:02
ROBO DICK???
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 5:02 PM
YWAH IM A ROBOT
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 5:02 PM
?!!?!
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 5:02 PM
Source me (I was making a fire joke earlier)
17:02
Yeah nah I’m an e-droid and shit
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 5:02 PM
this just looks like a vtuber design if i didn't know this was from a nsfw game
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 5:03 PM
NAH LITERALLY WE ALL LOOK LIKE SLUTTY VTUBERS
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 5:03 PM
YOU REALLY DO IM SO SORRY
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 5:03 PM
ASTER ESPECIALLY IM AORRY HES SO VTUBER CODED
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 5:03 PM
HELP
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 5:04 PM
Actually I heard there’s new characters and THEY look like slutty vtubers
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 5:06 PM
HELP??????
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 5:27 PM
THE WAY I MOGHT HAVE TO TALK TO AN EIDEN catflop I said I’d chatter with other introjects if they needed a familiar face and this other sys said they had the mc. The dude I’m a lil scared of bc of source mems
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 5:29 PM
ooh....
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 5:29 PM
Man I’m scared
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 5:30 PM
you got this!
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 7:07 PM
Ok I overreacted he’s silly
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 7:26 PM
HES GONNA MAKE THE EVERYONE IS SO MEAN TO ME MEME AS ME??
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 7:26 PM
!?!?
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 7:27 PM
I was joking abt this event where I’m bullied for not being able to sing and sent the meme and he was like β€œI could probably make it as you if you want”
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 7:31 PM
😭😭😭
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 7:32 PM
Wtf was I scared for he’s so silly
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 9:18 PM
Being here is making the brain give shattered memories of our trip to see Ath, since that’s the last time we were at Amanda’s
21:18
And it’s making me ✨upset✨
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 9:25 PM
i'm so sorry? is there anything i can do to help??
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 9:25 PM
Not sure, I just hate it
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 9:25 PM
its gonna suck i know that for sure
21:26
but you've got this!! itll be okay
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 9:26 PM
I may sleep on the couch instead of in the bed where I was last time
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 9:26 PM
that might be a good way to break the cycle
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 9:43 PM
Amanda insists we sleep in the bed kittyscared
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 9:43 PM
just say you'll come to bed later in the night and stay on the couch say you passed out there
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 9:44 PM
She’s insisting so she can ✨call✨ her boyfriend
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 9:45 PM
ew
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 9:45 PM
Yeah, ew
21:49
The way I’m literally too tired to do anything right now and I forgot our meds at home
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 9:50 PM
ough..
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 10:02 PM
Friend was being kinda rude and I started to panic because of where I’m at and the memories and
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 10:03 PM
hey, hey, you're okay. slow down, alright? what happened?
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 10:04 PM
Nothing even BAD, Eiden and me were talking abt source in an adult channel and they got mad that the channel even existed and almost guilt tripped us about it (β€œ(Server owner) didn’t even want the category but they’re not confrontational” when it was made WEEKS AGO) and I hate being in this room and on this bed with the late evening sunlight making us think of the morning we left for MYC
22:05
Server owner didn’t even say anything to us kittycry
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 10:05 PM
it's not your fault the channel exists? and maybe if you open up a window it might help? change the vibe a bit
22:05
and talk to them if you're really worried about it, it might bring you a bit of comfort to get their input with that in mind
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 10:07 PM
I opened a window but had to close it
22:07
And I don’t wanna bother them, it’s fine
22:09
If they’re annoyed with me and Eiden I don’t wanna make it worse
22:10
The memories issue doesn’t get better with the fact that our pinky injury is acting up again and we GOT that in NYC
22:17
It got resolved, server owner was fine with it 100% and the friend was just being super protective
22:17
My joints hurt like hell though
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 10:17 PM
the weather is awful, which is probably why your joints hurt
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 10:18 PM
We’re also still recovering from Lymes and shit never stopped hurting
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 10:18 PM
yeah..
22:18
i'm sorry, this is all really shitty
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 10:19 PM
If I lay down and don’t move I can almost pretend our back doesn’t hurt
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 10:20 PM
yes
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 10:20 PM
It’s okay tho I’m watching House with Amanda
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 10:20 PM
good show?
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 10:20 PM
Considering it came out when we were a toddler yeah
22:21
We’re on season three
22:21
The way they draw blood is SO different from how it’s done today
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 10:21 PM
really?
22:21
weve never had blood drawn
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 10:22 PM
They use a whole massive syringe in the show, and as of last month, blood is just a needle into the vein and the pulse pushes it into a vial real quickly
22:24
The show is literally just β€œinsulting comment and medical law violations” β€œwtf House” β€œDo (crazy thing)” β€œThere’s no way that’s right” β€œJust do it” (it works) β€œOmg I never would’ve thought of that, there’s a one in a million chance and you got it right?” β€œDuh”
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 10:24 PM
HELP??
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 10:24 PM
EVER DAMN EPISODE
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 10:25 PM
plot lines..
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 10:25 PM
It’s less sexual than Greys Anatomy and more medical violations than Chicago Med
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 10:26 PM
insane
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 10:26 PM
Also House uses his cane wrong
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 10:28 PM
how does he use it wrong i'm genuinely curious
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 10:29 PM
He uses it on the side his bad leg is on. You’re supposed to use it on the other side to take the weight off when you walk
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 10:30 PM
oooh... that makes sense
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 10:30 PM
Mhm, and we tried it both ways, the way he walks makes it worse
22:31
They also just showed an inaccuracy in a ward, he took a medication and nobody checked to see if he actually took it
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 10:31 PM
i
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 10:58 PM
My head hurts now too 😭
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 11:28 PM
Mmm this episode is about r/pe and I do NOT wanna watch it but Amanda’s falling asleep and I don’t wanna wake her up by moving to find the remote or leaving to go to bed myself
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 11:29 PM
u. um... you'd probably be better off getting up sooner rather than later, it's not too late that it'd be detrimental to her sleep to be woken up
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 11:31 PM
She’s a light sleeper and she works at 8 AM so we have to be up to drop her off by 7 AM if I’m lucky
23:31
I don’t. Wanna wake her.
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 11:32 PM
isn't she the one that insisted you sleep in the bed?
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 11:33 PM
In the other room, she just invited me to watch TV with her
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 11:33 PM
my point exactly
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 11:34 PM
I’ll slip out soon, once I’m sure she’s sleeping
23:34
But if I ignore the show then I won’t worry about it
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 11:34 PM
alright
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 11:35 PM
She just wiggled I’m not getting outta here anytime soon
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 11:37 PM
WIGGLED?
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 11:39 PM
Like shifted a little but didn’t really move much
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 11:39 PM
oh
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 11:40 PM
I’m so painfully tired and I didn’t even do anything
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 11:53 PM
DAMN RHAT WAS A SLUR IN HOUSE
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 11:54 PM
What
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 11:55 PM
Remember this was made in 2006
23:55
Just heard some girl say the G slur
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 11:56 PM
oh!!! nice!!!!!!
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 11:56 PM
Gotta love it!!
23:59
OH we were talking abt source looking like vtubers and the MC got an outfit upgrade, he looks so overwhelmingly vtuber-y now
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/21/2023 11:59 PM
do i get to see
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/21/2023 11:59 PM
I didn’t recognize him if it wasn’t for his crystal necklace 😭
23:59
YEAH SURE
23:59
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/22/2023 12:00 AM
BTUBER
00:00
VTUBER
00:00
VTUBER
00:00
HE'S SO VTUBER CODED
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 12:00 AM
EIDEN IN HIS VTUBER ARC
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/22/2023 12:00 AM
HELPL
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 12:01 AM
Dyed his hair and everything if it wasn’t for the necklace I would NOT have known it’s him
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/22/2023 12:01 AM
literally him
00:01
i feel like there's someone else that fits the vibe closer but i do not know his name
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 12:01 AM
HELPMENAHFJWJEJT
00:02
You’re literally right that’s him in the real
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/22/2023 12:02 AM
who's the other one i'm desperately trying to find out his name
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 12:03 AM
Description?
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/22/2023 12:03 AM
you don't know him he's a jp vtuber
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 12:03 AM
Damn nvm
00:04
Anyways gonna try to scoot away from Amanda to go to bed
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/22/2023 12:04 AM
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 12:04 AM
That guy reminds me of Ryo Devilman Crybaby
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/22/2023 12:04 AM
yeah
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pk;m ryo pfp
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PluralKit BOT 06/22/2023 12:04 AM
ryo's avatar
To clear, use pk;member ryo avatar clear.
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 12:04 AM
Him
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/22/2023 12:04 AM
yeah
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 12:05 AM
But he’s got the AOT leg things
00:10
Snuck away to go to bed myself and why is there a car with massive bass out in the street
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/22/2023 12:13 AM
they do that
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 12:13 AM
Also I did wake Amanda up by trying to leave
00:16
Fuuuuuuck the headache is turning into a migraine
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/22/2023 12:16 AM
oh no
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akiko yosano 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 1:10 AM
i found some migraine meds in our bag, but the body is overheating terribly and the migraine is making our stomach hurt. we, also, got a reply from ath after so many hours?
01:13
i’m trying so hard to be nice, but they’re disgustingly chipper.
01:13
go away.
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/22/2023 1:19 AM
ignore them and focus on taking care of yourself
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akiko yosano 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 1:20 AM
i was nice and wished them well with work, and they wished us well with moving. i’m sick of them, frankly.
01:20
i know it was a genuine well wish, but i dislike them.
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/22/2023 1:21 AM
i dont blame you, they
01:21
not even lowkey just
01:21
suck
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akiko yosano 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 1:22 AM
the way they sicced oceanus’s mori on meredith when they were mad at her. you know, the fucking pedo man. while she’s in a trauma response moment from memories of her pedo father.
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/22/2023 1:23 AM
yeah. no. uh.. wtf.
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akiko yosano 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 1:23 AM
yeah. fucked up.
01:24
i hate them. they were never nice to me, and miraculously split their own yosano.
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/22/2023 1:25 AM
of course they did
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akiko yosano 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 1:26 AM
yeah, no, i guarantee even fyodor was replaced by pleiades’ already
01:27
did we ever tell you how claudia joked about her uncomfortable age gap from our fyodor and dazai?
01:27
she’s thirty four. our fyodor is twenty six, and dazai is now twenty five
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/22/2023 1:27 AM
???!!!
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akiko yosano 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 1:27 AM
thirty. four.
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/22/2023 1:27 AM
id bet
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akiko yosano 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€β€„↩️
Reply to: yeah, no, i guarantee even fyodor was replaced by pleiades’ already
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akiko yosano 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 1:28 AM
i guarantee it.
01:30
also, just an annoyance, but dazai HATES the β€œyou’re gay” comments. like. β€œthat’s gay” to romantic comments? he never laughed, never played along, despite having MULTIPLE boyfriends. it’s just β€œi’m bisexual”
01:30
we GET IT. get over it
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/22/2023 1:31 AM
for a moment i was really confused and then suddenly it makes sense
01:31
i mean i kinda understand if its happening like all the time, but at the same time
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akiko yosano 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 1:31 AM
it was, like, twice
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/22/2023 1:31 AM
cmon its not in bad faith or anything ?? 😭
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akiko yosano 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 1:31 AM
that we’d joke. and he’d always go β€œi’m bi”
01:33
it’s a silly little joke. get over it, dazai.
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/22/2023 1:33 AM
right
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akiko yosano 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 1:34 AM
and again it’s just an annoyance, because for someone who could make rude ass jokes to us he couldn’t take a β€œyou’re kinda gay”
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akiko yosano 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 8:04 AM
amanda: make a list of what you have to do. me, just. sitting here:
08:08
anyway, i have to get cat supplies for calli, like a collar and litter and shit, groceries, meds for us…i can’t remember what else.
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akiko yosano 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 10:15 AM
it’s already 80° in the house, and the landlord was grilling me about the cat when i got home.
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akiko yosano 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 4:16 PM
i hit the guard rails on the drive to the vet. um.
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/22/2023 4:17 PM
are you okay???
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akiko yosano 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 4:18 PM
i’m okay, calli is too. it didn’t do too much damage i can’t fix once i get home, but it was calli’s fault. i let her out because she was screaming and wanted held, and she decided to climb on me while i was driving down the big hill into the valley.
16:19
and she pissed herself once i put her back in the carrier, probably from seeing a dog.
16:19
but she was a champ about getting blood drawn, and we’re in the room waiting for the vet.
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/22/2023 4:19 PM
i'm glad you guys are alright, christ
16:20
that's terrifying
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akiko yosano 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 4:27 PM
oh trust me it scared the shit out of me. luckily there’s no lasting damage that a sharpie and some elbow grease can’t handle.
16:28
but, calli has an ear infection. however, she took her shots real well and let them swab her ear.
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/22/2023 4:28 PM
aahh.. ear infections....
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akiko yosano 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 4:29 PM
that explains why it’s so itchy in there for her
16:29
but minus pissing herself, she did really well.
16:29
no fights no bites, weighs 9.4 pounds.
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/22/2023 4:31 PM
poor girl
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akiko yosano 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€β€„↩️
Reply to: but minus pissing herself, she did really well.
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akiko yosano 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 4:33 PM
vet said her eyes are just like that, she just has heterochromia. but she’d never seen eyes quite like that.
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/22/2023 4:33 PM
interesting!
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akiko yosano 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 4:34 PM
she’s negative for fiv and shit, all her shots are done, and i’m picking up meds for her ear. oh, and her tail is really lucky to have not fallen off
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/22/2023 4:34 PM
What
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akiko yosano 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 4:41 PM
oh yeah, apparently the numbness means it could’ve fallen off years ago.
16:41
anyway, her meds cost almost $100
16:41
cat steroids. salt
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akiko yosano 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 5:22 PM
we’re home, and that drive went much better.
17:24
now, i have three and a half hours until amanda gets off work. i’m going to catch my breath for half an hour, then go out and try to fix the car, so she doesn’t know i semi crashed it
17:29
calli’s so grumpy, but she’s glad to be home. she looks so official with her little green tag.
17:34
my budget going in to this appointment: $125-ish the amount i spent: $208
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 6:07 PM
Wikihow to fix car dents kittyscared
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 6:14 PM
Like I sharpied the scratches np but there’s a nice dent I gotta get out.
18:16
Ok I heard hot water and plunger work so let’s pray together
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 6:27 PM
Didn’t work hesit
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 7:36 PM
Yknow all things considered it’s fiiiiiiiiiine we weren’t the worst wreck of the family in the last year and a half, and I get to flirt with him while I waste time before leaving again
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 8:55 PM
Bought dinner for Amanda but she didn’t want me to (Didn’t know until after I paid) and she’s running late to getting off work and I’m so scared
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/22/2023 9:24 PM
She hasn’t noticed and I made her happy by getting gas and food
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/22/2023 9:30 PM
good!
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/23/2023 8:43 AM
Thank GOD for being eepy (she didn’t suspect a thing when she called to ask if we hurt her car)
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/23/2023 8:43 AM
good
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/23/2023 8:44 AM
β€œIt’d suck if there were cameras calling you out” Momma I doubt there’s cameras in the dead zone hill of the valley
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/23/2023 8:44 AM
probably not!
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/23/2023 8:44 AM
So we’re! In the clear <3 I can go back to sleep all cozy
08:45
The way I’ve been hallucinating our ringtone when half asleep the last couple days because we keep waking up to it
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/23/2023 8:45 AM
oh god
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/23/2023 8:45 AM
ITS THE FNAF SB DAYCARE THEME TOO
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/23/2023 8:45 AM
ive been halluzinating our moms old phone alarm (hasnt been used in months) (what the fuck)
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/23/2023 8:46 AM
Sometimes I hallucinate Discord notification sounds
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/23/2023 8:46 AM
yeah
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/23/2023 8:47 AM
Then ofc the Menards jingle
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/23/2023 8:50 AM
ours is usually just alarms of various kinds
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/23/2023 8:51 AM
That’s why we switch up alarm sounds so often, so we can’t hallucinate them too much
08:51
Right now it’s Cupcakke <3
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/23/2023 8:51 AM
unfortunately, both of our parents have the Exact Same Alarm Sound because neither one have figured out how to change it
08:51
so we hear it once or twice between 4:30 and 5 AM and then at least 3 times between 6 and 8 AM
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/23/2023 8:54 AM
Shawn sets the same alarm sound too, for every 5-15 minutes on school mornings
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/23/2023 8:54 AM
ew
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/23/2023 11:08 AM
Damn it she texted about it
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€β€„↩️
Reply to: Thank GOD for being eepy (she didn’t suspect a thing when she called to ask if we hurt her car)
11:10
What if I just go back to sleep because we’re so tired right now
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/23/2023 11:11 AM
go to sleep
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/23/2023 11:11 AM
I just don’t want her to call because I’ll start crying at an angry tone
11:12
Worst part is I woke up from a nightmare before she texted lmao
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/23/2023 11:14 AM
just go back to sleep for now and text her back later
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/23/2023 11:15 AM
salt
11:16
There’s someone playing loud music outside too and I’m a little scared Sally
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/23/2023 11:39 AM
THE WAY I WOKE IP TO OUE RINGTONE AGAIN
11:39
It was housing calling to make sure our info got turned in
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/23/2023 1:42 PM
I can’t sleep any longer and she tried calling and I let it ring out
13:46
Amanda please pity the fool hesit
13:50
The way she flat out said β€œI’m not looking to roast you” LMAO
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/23/2023 1:51 PM
you are just having a day aren't you
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/23/2023 1:51 PM
Yeah
13:52
Oh Shawn lied about us not having car insurance too
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/23/2023 1:52 PM
??
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/23/2023 1:52 PM
Starting to see a pattern with him and lying about our insurance
13:54
She’s only mad that I lied about it this morning hesit
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/23/2023 1:55 PM
i mean i can kinda see why but
13:55
i can see both sides
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/23/2023 1:56 PM
Oh yeah no I feel bad for that. But I told her I was afraid of Shawn and Bubba bullying us for it and that we don’t have insurance
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/23/2023 1:59 PM
again, also valid
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/23/2023 1:59 PM
Which is where this came from lmao
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€β€„↩️
Reply to: The way she flat out said β€œI’m not looking to roast you” LMAO
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/23/2023 2:08 PM
ohhhh.
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/23/2023 2:17 PM
DAWG ATH IS TEXTING US AGAIN
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/23/2023 2:20 PM
i
14:20
GO AWAY!!!
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/23/2023 2:24 PM
FR
14:24
TODAY IS JUSF AS BAD AS HESTERDAY AND THE OCD SAYS ITS BC I TOOK THE NECKLACE OFF TO SLEEP
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/23/2023 2:57 PM
I’m going to drown myself in the lake /ref
15:00
GODDDDDD CAN THEY AHUT UP IM STRESSING ENOUGH ANS NOW THEYRE STRESSING ME MORE ABT THEIR STUPUD CONVERSATION
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quill || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/23/2023 3:09 PM
mute them
15:09
you're busy
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/23/2023 4:41 PM
The OCD is going wild today dawg (slept the last two nights without our necklace on)
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/23/2023 6:33 PM
I wanna go back to sleep so bad but if I do I'll hallucinate our ringtone
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/24/2023 2:39 AM
Me when I’m trying to comfort Jordyn in a vent chat and a singlet cuts us off to ask about doubles in systems (it was not at all involved in this conversation)
02:42
Our Cyno told a joke and Jordyn’s system’s said he liked it. Like fifteen minutes ago.
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/24/2023 2:57 AM
Is it almost 2 AM? Yes. Am I exhausted? Absolutely. Am I fighting to stay awake to talk to my gay little crush? Hell yeah I am
02:58
Turns out the singlet’s drunk so they’re not very smart at the moment eugh
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€β€„↩️
Reply to: Me when I’m trying to comfort Jordyn in a vent chat and a singlet cuts us off to ask about doubles i…
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/24/2023 5:53 PM
One of the songs that Ada and Emil used to listen to together is trending again because of Ghost’s upcoming Papa execution eugh
17:53
It’s fucking her up so bad
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/25/2023 2:11 AM
The way I blacklisted Enstars on our TT and I just got three videos of it in a ROW
02:11
??
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/25/2023 2:12 AM
I put it in our filtered words where it won’t show it and it came up ANYWAY
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that's fucking insane
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/25/2023 3:01 AM
Tummy is doing the weird pain again and I think it’s bc the sauce I used for dinner was a little bad
03:01
In my defense we literally Do Not Have Food and it was in the fridge
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what.. sauce was it??
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/25/2023 3:01 AM
It was just marinara
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/25/2023 3:02 AM
But idk how long it was in the fridge for
03:02
At least two weeks? Maybe three?
03:03
It didn’t taste very good so I did NOT finish my food lmao
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ooh. yeah, that might be it
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/25/2023 3:03 AM
Fucked up some garlic bread tho
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I slept like shit
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God I’m so glad our TT is private Amanda tried to follow us
09:39
Can’t see our desc until you follow thank fuck
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It smells like smoke lmao
14:01
But like campfire smoke so I’m not worried
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Yknow how metal jewelry can leave like a green spot if you wear it too long
14:14
Our WHOLE neck/collarbone area looks green bruised bc of how long we’ve worn this necklace
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Good news is that since putting it back on and leaving it on I haven’t had to deal with them
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/25/2023 5:31 PM
I know what I have to do but I don’t know if I have the strength to do it (Army meal for dinner again
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oh no
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/25/2023 5:41 PM
I TOLD YOU THEY HAD DRING MIXES USUALLT
17:42
The dessert looks like it’s gonna be fruit leather of some kind but there’s little pretzel bites and I just had my own crackers with the peanut butter sleeve
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interesting
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/25/2023 5:50 PM
Yknow how the last one looked like shit but didn’t taste too bad? This one looks decent but tastes like ass
17:50
Maybe the leftover garlic bread will help hold on
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what's the main dish
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/25/2023 5:53 PM
Fettuccine with spinach
17:55
Which yknow sounds fucking bomb
18:00
how tf did they make it taste bad
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/25/2023 6:00 PM
ISK BUT IT SMELLS BAD TOO
18:00
Garlic bread is barely helping and that says a lot
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/25/2023 6:09 PM
I said fuck the pasta but here’s my cranberry thing
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it looks kinda yucky
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/25/2023 6:14 PM
It was actually the best part of the meal
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is it good?
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/25/2023 6:15 PM
Yeah it was pretty good actually, like a 7/10
18:15
Better than the pasta by a long shot, but not as good as the classic peanut butter and crackers
18:16
And the protein shake won’t clear the clumps so it’s a 1/10
18:16
I DIDNT EAT TJE PRETZELS HOLD ON
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€
And the protein shake won’t clear the clumps so it’s a 1/10
EW
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/25/2023 6:17 PM
Eh 6/10 I didn’t see they were honey mustard and onion before opening it
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bram stoker 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/25/2023 11:32 PM
i still can't believe they did that to us, the day before our grandmother's death anniversary. what kind of fucked up mentality.
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bram stoker 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/25/2023 11:47 PM
i feel like i'm drowning in responsibilities, and all i can do is fucking...sleep.
23:48
there's so much to do, so much social action that needs done, and i can do nothing about it.
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bram stoker 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/26/2023 2:57 AM
i open twitter. bsd gore. i close twitter.
02:58
well! time to go to bed and see horrors beyond human comprehension in my sleep!
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/26/2023 11:57 AM
Overheating rlly easy versus 74% humidity
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/26/2023 12:12 PM
When Miko, Makima, and Miyadera take turns being the in-front protector because they know Ath hates all three of their source characters
12:12
Miko (Their ex kinned her), Makima (Source.), and Miyadera (Kiyo’s sister)
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/26/2023 12:40 PM
Jesus I’m doing everything today, I had to get Amanda photos of all our ID stuff and Calli’s rabies vax papers, I’m folding laundry and hauling furniture, AND I’m being a good little host and am updating the bot
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you're doing great IkePat keep it up and it'll be done in no time
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/26/2023 12:44 PM
Throwing away ALL the clothes that we either don’t wear, don’t fit, don’t have matches, or we have bad memories with
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/26/2023 12:45 PM
Would you like the mommy’s little meatball shirt by chance /hj
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i mean if you want to get rid of it
12:45
i think it would be funny to have
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/26/2023 12:46 PM
I very much do wanna get rid of it and it’s rlly big even on us so it’s a good sleep shirt
12:46
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yeah sure hand it over
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/26/2023 12:47 PM
If Hierophant doesn’t want it it’s all it’s
12:47
urs
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/26/2023 12:51 PM
I CANT FIND MY OTHER GRIPPY SOCK
12:54
Who tf changed Shawn and Amanda’s contact names to β€œfounding father” and β€œspawnpoint”
12:54
AND THE BROTHER TO β€œSEQUEL”
12:56
ITS GETTING WORSE AUNT KATHI IS JUST β€œBITCH”
12:57
Aunt Lisa is β€œcool bitch” at least
12:57
FOUNDING FATHER..?
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/26/2023 12:57 PM
WHO DID THIS
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SEQUEL 😭
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/26/2023 12:57 PM
His brother is β€œfound father parody”
12:57
founding
12:58
13:00
Anyways we have literally no clothes I can put shoes in this single storage tub with our clothes, and there’s a plushie in here too
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/26/2023 1:33 PM
Guess who's calling SOCIAL FUCKING SECURITY AGAIN
13:34
God can I PLEASE just talk to a human being
13:37
I GOT TO HOLD LET'S GO
13:37
I have never been happier to be on hold in my LIFE
13:38
The automated help makes me wanna die omfg
13:43
This hold music sucks
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/26/2023 1:51 PM
I GAVE MYSELF RUG BURN ON OUR KNEE WTG
13:52
UGH
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/26/2023 2:43 PM
Dawg I'm losing my SHIT
14:43
SPENT AN HOUR ON THE FUCKING HOLD FOR THE GUY TO NOT HELP ME AND NOW I HAVE TO CALL AGAIN FOR AN APPOINTMENT TO COME IN AND THE FUCKING AUTOMATED SHIT JUST HUNG UP ON ME
14:45
Fuck this shit I'm not doing it again
14:50
Thanks Shawn! That’s wonderful communication! /s
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/26/2023 5:24 PM
Speaking of Shawn he’ll be here in an hour and I’m going the fuck to bed (he will yell bc of things not being clean but that’s literally his mess I haven’t done shit)
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good get some sleep, you need it
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/26/2023 5:25 PM
His fucking nacho cheese pot is still in the sink for example and there’s dust on the floor everywhere. Literally his problem and not mine
17:26
Oh yeah and we’re out of stomach meds bc the pharmacy is never open when we get there and now I’ve got mad acid reflux
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/26/2023 5:28 PM
Literally all our belongings in boxes
17:28
And most of it is books and plushies
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christ
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/26/2023 8:32 PM
I wake and Shawn was here
20:32
I have no clue where he is now but he took shit out of the living room
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/26/2023 8:45 PM
Where tf did he go. He better be getting something to eat
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/26/2023 9:13 PM
I take that back he took shit from the living room, left a bong on the kitchen counter, and made the kitchen smell like rot
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€β€„↩️
Reply to: I have no clue where he is now but he took shit out of the living room
21:14
And put trash on top of our stuff
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ew Ew ew
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/26/2023 9:14 PM
I literally got out of bed and was like β€œβ€¦did he seriously leave that here”
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/26/2023 9:16 PM
Frrrrr I’m so sick of this shit I’m so excited to not live with him anymore
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/26/2023 9:53 PM
He gave us nonperishable foods like we’re a damn visitor to a food o try
21:53
pantry
21:57
And you may say "Cas, that's not so bad" we have childhood trauma, specifically around this aspect of food and food pantries. And he didn't even try to give them to us in a thoughtful way, it's just shit he didn't need anymore
21:57
His hoard of pasta and sauces and shit.
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/27/2023 2:08 AM
I’m so tired idk why I’m so scared to sleep (We keep having realistic nightmares)
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/27/2023 2:09 AM
They’re always trauma/stressor related and lately they’ve been abt Ath bc they won’t fucking leave us alone
02:11
Idk how to explain how our mind works but it creates realistic scenarios when we’re awake of how various conversations/events will go, and then dwells on them until we dissociate or make a noise loud enough to cover it. That’s even how it’s been since we were little. So with them being insistent on a β€œconversation”, our mind is creating so many different ones and none of them are pretty
02:11
Then they end up in our nightmares
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that's fucking awful
02:12
i think you guys would genuinely benefit so much from just cutting it off at the source
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/27/2023 2:13 AM
The issue is I know we were also a little at fault, but them moreso yknow. And we do owe them an apology for that much, but their behavior fucked us up so bad and I know they won’t apologize for that. Even though HMC ripped them a new one for how they talked to Carl
02:17
I rock w HMC they’re a little sus but they went ham on Oceanus for being a bitch to us
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/27/2023 5:20 AM
Nightmare so I don’t forget and can figure out meaninfnkater
05:25
Blood, gore, death ofc So I think we were still rlly good friends with our brother bc he was fhere. And we were gonna prank Oceanus and Ath bc they were in town. I don’t know why but when we went to do that, Oceanus dropped dead in a super disfigured way. For once there were facial features in a dream and their eyes were foggy and purple and there was blood coming from their mouth. A tree appeared to tell me it’s all my fault and that there’s gonna be more blood on my hands, and grabbed them, running branches all through their corpse and then disappeared. I called upon the tree later to see if I could figure out how to stop it and it showed me more people in its branches. More blood on my hands. It reached for me and I woke up.
05:27
Lol yeah so like I said. Nightmares.
12:25
The nightmare is still haunting me hesit
12:27
I’m deluding myself into thinking that various Pink Squad members being in and out of front is gonna help deter them from talking to us, since I know they hate Miko and Miyadera and Makima, and Bee’s source is controversial, and Carolyn’s source is nasty to them all.
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/27/2023 2:16 PM
i was gonna go dm sanctuary and saw that ath got fucking kicked out?
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/27/2023 2:16 PM
β€œkinda got kicked out. ish. convo may have to wait.” at 11 pm yesterday
14:17
girl WHAT
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convo has BEEN having to wait because YOU'RE NOT THE ONLY ONE BEING BUSY??
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/27/2023 2:20 PM
LITERALLY WHAT HAPPENED TO β€œAFTER WE MOVE”
14:26
it rlly is taking the dramaturgy route bc they got kicked out too
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i thought their house burnt down
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/27/2023 2:27 PM
that happened too
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BOTH THINGS HAPPENED??
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/27/2023 2:28 PM
YEAH BITCH
14:28
ITS GOING JUST THE SAME WAY
14:28
and ath had/has an ulcer in their stomach so that might need fixed (which is what happened to drama too after they got kicked out)
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/27/2023 2:31 PM
oh yeah ath said they just β€œleft” and it is bc of their mom
14:31
not shocked
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im not shocked honestly
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/27/2023 2:32 PM
β€œshe still loves us she just doesn’t show it” GUEL
14:32
GIRLIE
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/27/2023 2:33 PM
they told us to always discourage them if they talked about disliking their mom and i’m like
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?!?!?!
14:33
their mom is a piece of shit??
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/27/2023 2:33 PM
THATS WHAT WEVE BEEN SAYIN
14:34
what part of β€œshe’s trying to live through you to the point of abuse” do they not get
14:34
anyways that buys us time without their harassment
14:35
they can cope with ME in front rn too, they can look at sp. they can see i’m a helluva boss girl. i know they hate that shit.
14:35
oh speaking of i haven’t shared my thingy yet. whore boy made iπŸ¦• ATOP CALLING ME THAT OMG 😭
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/27/2023 7:00 PM
i'm about to knock the fuck out but i don't know if the place is actually gonna call us or not
19:00
i've got a lil more energy than the others right about now but i'm tired as shit
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/27/2023 7:12 PM
i'm thinking abt how our nightmare was abt oceanus fucking dying by our hand and devastating ath today we find out that ath is homeless 🀩 i wonder what horrible things will befall them next.
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 12:02 AM
dude our toe HURTS rn i think it's an ingrown nail or some shit but it hurts likea bitch!! and our hip won't stop hurting! and i gotta finish the actual last of our packing tonight because amanda and bill are getting our stuff tomorrow!
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 1:49 AM
the existentialism of leaving our childhood home is kinda hitting me man
01:50
childhood sui ig?? like damn we expected to die here at the age of maybe ten and i’m 100% overestimating that age. and here we are. a decade later! leaving!
01:51
it’s weird knowing this is our last night in a β€œbed” in our childhood home
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 10:55 AM
ughhhh i gotta haul our mattress and ugly fuckin chair out
10:56
i wanna shower but all our clothes are packed
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oh no....... the dilemma of having no clothes but wanting to be clean 🫠
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 11:20 AM
LITERALLY
11:20
sorry, shawn just went out for one last hoorah (shooting animals)
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 11:21 AM
baby raccoons.
11:21
made the old man cry
11:23
...
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 11:24 AM
β€œi’m learning to love animals” my ass
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nah bullshit
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 11:34 AM
i. i think i’m a fusion of the orange victorian guy. autumn. i think i kinda swallowed them like reverse osmosis when i formed and they’re just kinda part of me but i’m cooler and sexier /lh-cj
11:35
DuduStare
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 11:35 AM
i talk similar to them and get flashes of the memories that only they’d remember, but i’m also 100% bee yknow
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 11:36 AM
we’ve only had this happen once or twice before and one of the times iris split back off after she knew she was safe
11:37
so maybe they’ll come back! maybe ur just stuck with lil old bee! who knows! not me!
11:38
but autumn mentioned not having friends and really not liking what ath was implying abt them so they just kinda said fuck it and i eatsyou
11:38
i say that like it was voluntary
11:39
ohm i guess
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 11:39 AM
you good?
11:39
ohm is like
11:39
an eating noise
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 11:39 AM
ohhhh gotcha gotcha
11:40
yeah nah i hate ath for what they implied abt autumn so that’s where my joy at their suffering comes from
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i think a lot of people would enjoy their suffering
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 11:42 AM
i sure do and ik if aesop were awake he’d secretly be glad they’re suffering a little
11:42
nah he’d taking a much needed Big Nap
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 11:48 AM
you won’t guess who’s tending to the kid while he sleeps
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wwwwho..
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 11:49 AM
hp lovecraft
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 11:49 AM
I KNOW
11:50
arctic helps out too but the kid got so attached to lovecraft
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that's terrifying
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 11:51 AM
THATS WHAT IM SAYING ITS SO SCARY
11:51
anyways if you want company at any point today please lmk i need company while i do shit so i don’t lose my mind
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i might have to do the dishes later tonight and our other friend will probably get annoyed at our disgusted screaming so who knows
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 11:52 AM
we officially move out around 5 pm your time so i’m doing shit all day until then
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 12:10 PM
i’m sweating like a roasting pig omfg
12:11
ITS NOT EVEN HOT YET
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 12:15 PM
me and calli are laying on the ground togetjer
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horizontal time
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 12:16 PM
12:16
floor time
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me too
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 12:19 PM
it’s too hot and i gotta get trash outta our room
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 12:41 PM
the concoction of ointments shawn gave me for our nail looks nasty
12:41
nasty as in it looks like c🐈
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 12:54 PM
shuffling our spg playlist and two of the love songs play back to back
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vox akuma 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 1:52 PM
Whoa, someone just started panicking in the headspace. Hold up.
13:53
β€œHow they talk about Theatrum? What if they talk about us like that?” Calm down there buddy. So what.
13:53
Not in the β€œkill yourself” way, in the sensitive info way.
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so what the people they know probably dont know you
13:54
what they say isn't going to mean shit bc those people literally cant affect your life
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vox akuma 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 1:54 PM
So what if they make fun of our saggy tits or the fact that we don’t shave our legs. Sounds like a them problem.
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at least thats how i see it
13:54
those aren't even big issues ??? the only people i know that shave their legs are mid 40s women with insecurities to hell and back
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vox akuma 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 1:56 PM
Our issue is that with being Asian, it’s really dark and thick on our legs. But that’s still not a big deal. There’s other concerns they had, like how with walking/stressing so much our body actually started it’s period for the first time in a year and a half while we were there, but again. Not an us problem. Wah wah boo hoo I don’t care if they make fun of us for not noticing that’s literally rude as fuck
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well, lemme just say smth
13:58
me <- white as fuck we have dark / thick body hair as well, and our mom gets on us about it all the time especially on our legs, it's not just you and the comments are never going to go away no matter what you do to appease them so its better not to worry about
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vox akuma 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 1:58 PM
What’s with moms and doing that…
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(although we've since been outlawed from shaving our legs anyways because we had a really bad wound there and so on and so forth)
13:59
BECAUSE
13:59
WEIRD FEMININE SOCIETAL NORMS
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vox akuma 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 1:59 PM
Shawn laughed and said ours was thicker than his and then walked away
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Amanda? β€œYou should shave, your sisters do”
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We never do it right and hurt our joints anyway. Gonna have to buzz that shit if we wanna try
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our mom is so disgustingly pushy about it that we've just gotten used to it and stopped caring
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vox akuma 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 2:00 PM
Yeah, we don’t wear shorts very often anyway, so it’s not super pushed at
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honestly! so whatever they say doesn't matter at all bc whatever it is probably isnt that important anyways!
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vox akuma 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 2:02 PM
Some bitches just panic a little, remembering the rude comments and jokes made about Thea and their…intimate info.
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yeah.. i mean, i get it, i know ive been afraid abt people saying things about me behind my back once i open up with them
14:03
but
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vox akuma 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 2:04 PM
But not giving a fuck is important
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vox akuma 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 2:04 PM
The anxiety is also probably prompted by not taking our meds yet and chugging an energy drink.
14:05
I know Bee doesn’t give a shit, she’s Bee.
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 2:05 PM
what the fuck dude
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vox akuma 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 2:05 PM
goofy
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i mean so true bee continue to be unbothered
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vox akuma 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 2:11 PM
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 2:11 PM
me
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exactly what i was thinking of
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 2:12 PM
do u want a tour of our almost empty room
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 2:12 PM
hope in the vc with me king
14:12
hop
14:12
yeah
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oh shit ok 1 sec
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 2:13 PM
tuckedin
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was grabbing smth from twitter
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im gonna be muted for now just lead me around
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it's so empty
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nah mic quality is p good fr what its worth
14:15
goodbye!
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items go byebye
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im vibin
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my back is so full of crunch right now
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i flop backwards
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air quality 156...
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thinking about how it got to 400 last time
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also i stretched and ended up falling down
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back
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flop over
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uuguh im gonna die i have to clean out the sink tonight
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because our sister left gross yucky food remains in it bc she doesnt do her dishes
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and it STINKS
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i have no choice bc no one else will do it and EVERYONE is complaining
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i told mom next time she comes to visit she has to do her own dishes bc im not doing this again
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<3
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here im scrolling twitter
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this feels like something vox would enjoy
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14:19
the full body
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i have so much content of ike that i could show but ill spare you that
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perhaps later as a treat ill send some ike content in his channel
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but heres this for now from my personal collection
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My Personal Collection
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yeah it is a fine wine
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Ike Eveland
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wait here
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i have More
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AAAHAHAH
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OKAY OKAY I'M DONE IM DONE
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!!
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my personal collection of wonderful photos and art of ike eveland
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 2:22 PM
gay
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PEOPLE CALL ME AND IT SCARES ME
14:23
phone calls are SO SCARY
14:23
why are phone calls so scary
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 2:23 PM
ARE YOU GOOD??
14:23
kid i’m talking abt cacti
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yes i got a phone call and it startled me
14:26
a friend sent us food 🫠
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I KNOOW
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yes i already thanked them for the record FOR THE RECORD
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sorry im tring to tear this open with one hand
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chicken nugget
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LITERALLY
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uh huh
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not the april aries....
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ew!!!
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yea we just got it really fast
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oh my god 5 containers of ranch jesus christ
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yes
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we were yes
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in elementary school that was the only way we'd eat the pizza
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EW
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ASPARAGUS BAD
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YUCK
14:32
i have so much input rn it's so good
14:32
nono like
14:32
sensory input i got so much goin on
14:32
i have food
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im in two separate vcs which is why im muted here
14:32
i have a stream playing
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i have a fan on
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im VIBING
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yes sure
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nawh its ok im vibing this is great
14:33
yuh
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im being so autistic
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im watching vtubers writing vtubers exisiting with food that i FUK with
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NOOoo
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my BOOOOyyyyy
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vox akuma 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 2:35 PM
I🧁 NO
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HAHSHF
14:35
SORRY SORRY SORRY
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IM NOT TRYING TO RILE UP THE DEMON I PROMISE
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 2:35 PM
IM TRYING TO GET BACK UP PLEAHDJWHRTH
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IM SOOORRRYRYYY
14:36
our friend still has the "crazy? i was crazy once-" as a vocal stim
14:36
they do this every 20 minutes and have been for 3 days
14:37
RUSSIAN...
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you're just russian now ig
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sorry i dont make the rules
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at least you're not a british demon shrugs
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 2:38 PM
TMA, but its an AU where Nikola is a beauty+skincare influencer and people in the comments argue about if shes ai generated #nikolaorsinovcosplay #tma #tmacosplay #nikolaorsinov #thestranger #themagnusarchives #themagnusarchivescosplay
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QuickVids BOT 06/28/2023 2:38 PM
14:38
oh yeah you do
14:39
i can tell
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/aff
14:39
i mean so true power to her
14:39
thinking about how ike called her ma'am the first time thye met
14:40
he's just FORMAL when hes meeting new people man
14:40
bless you
14:40
bro i just sometimes ill yell bless you across the house
14:41
i do it to our dad a lot bc he sneezes
14:41
so much
14:41
LOL
14:41
bro im afriad to say excuse me in public bc it feels rude
14:42
literally the exact reason why i dont
14:43
you gotta get up
14:43
up
14:44
yes
14:44
he doesnt do that specifically but he does
14:44
like
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"does ur face hurt?" "cuz it's KILLING me"
14:44
or
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"isn't it time for you to go home yet?"
14:45
you'll never understand it
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every
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single
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time
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it's
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"I LIVE HERE"
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drive sme a little insane
14:46
HASFD
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ngl i cant wait until the day we move out
14:46
HELP?
14:46
DuduStare
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kittyscared
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either way i dont wanna move too far away
14:47
our sister nearly went homeless when hse moved across the country and had to move back here
14:47
not tryna be like her!
14:47
we'll probably move in with someone nearbyish
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we have a friend in ohio that's shockingly keen on living with us which is horrifying because
14:48
well
14:48
HERE'S THE THING
14:48
WE HAVE NEXUS
14:48
AND THEY ARE DEATLHY ALLERGIC TO CATS
14:49
LOL YEAH nexus goes wherever i go
14:49
i dunno what we're doing yet
14:49
still got a long while
14:50
college scary
14:51
u gotta vacuum or vox will stare disappointedly at you
14:51
even moreso
14:51
idk i'd be pretty terrified if vox stared down at me
14:51
maybe its bc im very human and im very short
14:52
i should ask our mom where we can apply for jobs so i can leave ike a list
14:52
yes
14:53
get up
14:53
but the sooner you do it the sooner itll be done and then you dont have to worry abt it
14:53
i do too, i know
14:55
horizontal time
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horizontal can be back or stomach
14:56
me too
14:56
i am eating before i go downstairs
14:56
i have to do dishes
14:56
but
14:56
food
14:56
ill function better once ieat i think
14:57
relax downstairs with a drink
14:58
wait
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WAIT
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A NIISANJI JP MEMBER IS CVOICING AN NPC IN HONKAI STAR RAIL?
14:59
????!?!?!?!?!?!??!1
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??!?!?!?!!?!
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 2:59 PM
LOOKING
14:59
and others hvae been in games as well
14:59
shu yamino is one
14:59
elira, enna, rosemi, ...,,,,,...
14:59
yeah
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 3:00 PM
ooooooh
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sometimes i think about the fact that collectively we're a day older than hierophant
15:01
AHAH
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we
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are superior
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because we are 23 and they are 24
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>:3
15:02
imagine dating someone who has almost the exact same birthday as you
15:02
yes
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THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT THOSE PEOPLE THINK IS RIGHT
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THERE IS ONLY 1 DAY OUT OF THE YEAR THAT ILL BE OLDER
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oh my god there's gonna be a day where we're an adult and they're not
15:07
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
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me
15:07
i need a drink..
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but if i go downstairs i have to leave you up here :(
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have other friend on phone
15:12
okay i go get drink now i will return at some point hopefully maybe
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 3:15 PM
so i was gonna vacuum right
15:15
shawn has the ac on in his room
15:15
i’m so cozy
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.....
15:21
go vacuum
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 3:34 PM
back on the floor
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 4:05 PM
shawn threw me a cup of ramen to microwave as a meal, but im so fucking overheated and just wanna lay down
16:06
i showered tho and now my legs wanna give out
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 4:36 PM
fighting to stay awake rn but we leave in like an hour
16:36
life Changes in an hour
16:38
i’m tricking our brain into thinking sparkling water is an energy drink
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 5:02 PM
lmao shawn’s vacuuming instead
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 5:02 PM
girlboss behavior fr
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yeah true
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 5:16 PM
now we wait for amanda
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 5:47 PM
god why are the kids so LOUD
17:47
i’m so fucking overwhelmed lmao
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 8:35 PM
i’m so hungry but people are in the kitchen area and i don’t wanna ask amanda if i can order subway
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 9:41 PM
β€œyou’re not traumatized from asking for help” amanda…
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 10:10 PM
i’m dissociating so, so bad.
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 10:19 PM
i’m complaining, our back hurts too. all the change is making me feel sick. i’m tired. the sisters are whining about calli’s litter being in the bathroom. the only person unbothered is calli herself.
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 11:16 PM
patience is being rebellious and it’s making amanda mad. and pay is taking her anger out on us.
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/28/2023 11:56 PM
i’m still complaining. we need our stomach meds so bad, but we still haven’t gotten them. we get them tomorrow.
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 1:19 AM
everything’s going wrong and i’m super overwhelmed again. calli won’t stop yelling and our tummy hurts and she wants to follow us everywhere, but hates being in the bathroom when i need to be because of our tummy ache. and ao’nung is having a moment, and i’m tired, but new place means sleep will be hard, and…
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im only just now sitting down to read this but...
01:42
it's going to be alright. you're going to be stressed and overwhelmed until it starts to settle, because you're in a whole new set of circumstances, but it will stop changing soon once you guys get into your apartment, it'll start to settle calli is upset because it's unfamiliar, but it's likely she'll settle before you guys do, nexus was horrified by our house for the first few days and avoided everyone (except us)
01:42
it's going to suck and it's going to be hard but it'll settle down once you guys stop moving around so much, and it won't be long until you do
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 1:44 AM
we can’t even settle in to our own place for at least two weeks, we have weeks until we can even move in. it’s exhausting, everything hurts. patience is angry at us for living, she said she wished we weren’t her sibling again. and she refuses to be in the same room as us.
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younger siblings will unfortunately do that sometimes and it's something you can't do anything about
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 1:46 AM
she got mad that calli’s litter is in the bathroom, and even more mad when we agreed with amanda that she acts disgustingly like a college student when she’s eleven. so of course she had to insult our intelligence then too.
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the bathroom is literally the best place for the litter box in my opinion
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 1:47 AM
exactly! amanda agreed that it’s a good spot, pay just hates it because she takes multiple hour long baths to the point where she takes food with her.
01:48
that's disgusting i'm so sorry
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 1:48 AM
oh, it’s gross! and there’s currently five people in a two bedroom apartment.
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that's even worse
01:50
but either way those few weeks will feel like hell but youll probably be glad it's over the moment you're out
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 1:52 AM
i know we will. i’m just tired, and in pain, and there’s so much unknown. once the pain stops, the overstimulation will lessen. but it’s so bad, and not having slept well in forever again is taking its toll. i’ll try to get bee to grab sayu up tomorrow while everyone’s at the pool, to sleep during the day. we’ll have our medicine by then, i hope.
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that's a good idea, yeah
01:53
i hope that works out for you and you can get some sleep
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 1:53 AM
i’ll sleep in a bed, patience is making us sleep on the couch and just sitting here hurts.
01:54
you guys are literally disabled and she's making you sleep on the couch???
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 1:54 AM
oh yeah, she kicked us out of the bed we were assigned.
01:54
what a brat
01:54
sorry that's rude but
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 1:54 AM
yep.
01:54
no, you’re right.
01:54
you know the classic blonde bitch in soap operas? her to a t.
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yeah..
01:55
awful
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 1:57 AM
mhm.
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let us know if you need anything, enrichment or the like
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 1:59 AM
i will. i’m going to try to sleep despite the pain. our movie ends soon.
01:59
ao’nung came up, and just watched his boy die on the screen.
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 2:00 AM
he’s tough. but it’s only our second time watching the movie.
02:03
update. grace is taking a majority of the couch up.
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is she asleep ?
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 2:10 AM
i think so.
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ah.. shit uh
02:11
man i just move sleeping people if theyre in my way
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 2:11 AM
she’s entirely stretched across the couch, i can’t just move her.
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that's not annoying at all
02:12
.../s
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 2:12 AM
not at all! not like i need to stretch our back out so our breathing stops hurting!
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i can't think of anything i could recommend because laying on the floor is not an option i can give you in good conscience
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 2:13 AM
floor is even worse, but it tempts me.
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it's all i can think of
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 2:14 AM
bed sleep tomorrow. that’s what’s keeping me going.
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 2:23 AM
i ended up on the floor
02:23
i was overheating. got a cramp in our neck. floor.
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floor...
02:24
i might crawl on the floor myself honestly
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 2:24 AM
friend floor time.
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emotional regulation issues? floor time
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 5:25 AM
finally got the couch back. all my bones hurt. and oh my fucking god, calli would not stop screaming.
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you okay?
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 5:26 AM
no, i’m exhausted and hurt worse, and amanda is going to be mad that calli just screamed for three straight hours until i got a safe place to lay down.
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is that really why she was yelling at you
05:26
^ calli not amanda
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 5:26 AM
she stopped the moment i laid back on the couch.
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.....
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 5:27 AM
the literal second i laid on the couch. she cozied up behind me and hasn’t made a sound.
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i mean shes.. certainly.. dedicated....
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 5:28 AM
emotional support animal behavior is depriving everyone of sleep until i take care of the body.
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sounds right
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 9:48 AM
awake for the day. she didn’t stop screaming but it was less.
09:48
we’re having outside time now.
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outside time...
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 10:07 AM
she didn’t want outside time anymore after a couple minutes.
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 10:57 AM
i have now ended up in bathroom quarantine with calli. because she still hasn’t gotten used to her litter box and she screams so much.
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that's awful
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venus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 11:55 AM
she has been freed after using said box and she’s napping with grace.
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 5:28 PM
the kids woke me up and i’m getting a migraine
17:29
they just got back from the pool which is fine i get it yknow. but our head HUTTS
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 6:12 PM
when proper apologies aren’t a thing in our family and pay is making it up to us by getting us a donut
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 9:23 PM
jesus fuck we have a migraine and still haven’t had a proper meal. and i’m cranky abt being someone’s first ever sys acquaintance again like ik i’m bee helluva boss yippee cool ok can i sleep now
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asmodeus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 10:19 PM
It’s kinda hitting that we won’t…see Shawn more than a couple times a year anymore. And like yeah, fuck that guy, but he’s still our dad and we’ve never had space from him. His teaching dictate our whole life still, from not asking for things to how we sleep.
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it'll do you some good to have some personal space though
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asmodeus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 10:20 PM
Oh yeah for sure, but we’ve never had that.
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yeah.. itll be a harsh learning curve for sure (edited)
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asmodeus 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/29/2023 10:22 PM
It’s scary! We don’t even know what we’re doing with Calli.
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/30/2023 12:15 AM
starting to rlly hate migraines that start to settle in our neck and make the muscles feel like the bones need crackled
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/30/2023 7:38 AM
guess who sent us a message AT FOUR AM.
07:38
FOUR IN THE FUCKING MORNING.
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/30/2023 7:38 AM
oh my god AGAIN?
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/30/2023 7:40 AM
YES.
07:40
and we took our necklace off for a couple minutes yesterday to change the chain kittyscared
07:41
oh my god the cat just climbed on my ches f
07:42
hrgshdhehrjfg i just wanna sleep why do they always make us panic when we’re tryna sleep
07:46
tryna keep things lighthearted so they leave me ALONE
07:49
if i bust out the β€œi’m still new” is there a higher chance of them fucking off
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 06/30/2023 7:49 AM
maaaybe?
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/30/2023 7:50 AM
five bucks says they slander us to their precious oceanus bc our base acc has an icon of me from my source (they rlly hate vivzie) (i also hate vivzie but i’m sexy and cool)
07:51
but hey two days of quiet is a win for me
07:58
ugh fuck this i have two hours until i gotta be up to shower for therapy i’m going back to bed
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 06/30/2023 12:46 PM
i keep forgetting our sister grace is almost fifteen and like. able to do shit
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/01/2023 1:51 AM
okay i did sys update shit, got the other subsys set up and i’ll fix their desc in the morning
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/01/2023 7:35 AM
calli did so good last night but i’m so TIRED
07:35
bc she’s decided dawn is her outside dime
07:35
time
07:40
the only thing i hate abt sitting outside w calli is the BUGS. amanda lives less than a mile from a lake
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 07/01/2023 7:42 AM
ew EW
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/01/2023 7:42 AM
IM GETTING MY ASS EATEN ALIVE BY MOSQUITOS
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 07/01/2023 7:43 AM
we have so much equipment and whatnot just to get rid of mosquitos because we're allergic 😭
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/01/2023 1:02 PM
remember that one β€œfriend” that caspian was upset with? for like cutting him off during a vent to ask abt sys bullshit? he’s being a dick again and i’m not happy
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 07/01/2023 1:03 PM
uh oh.
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/01/2023 1:04 PM
β€œi hate ppl asking if we’re dating” so don’t flirt in public duh β€œbut i like our relationship out there” fuckoff
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 07/01/2023 1:05 PM
????????????
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/01/2023 1:05 PM
they’re so STUPID
13:05
anyways serena’s gonna start a new server bc we’re (a good few of us) are fucking sick of this shit
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/01/2023 1:41 PM
the way i can SEE their ass typing in our dms right now
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 07/01/2023 1:42 PM
which one
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/01/2023 1:42 PM
the annoying ass bitch that's being a dick
13:42
bc serena and her new friend are telling them off for being on a fucking power trip and not using tone tags, and they're mad
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 07/01/2023 1:43 PM
damn..
13:43
which one is it
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/01/2023 1:43 PM
lucky
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 07/01/2023 1:43 PM
DAMN.
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/01/2023 1:44 PM
i'm just trying to get this new server semi funcitonal before our slepe meds fuck me up
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 07/01/2023 1:44 PM
if you want to invite me i can help set up
13:44
im wide awake i got a lot of sleep today
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/01/2023 1:45 PM
god please i'm tryna set some roles up
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 07/01/2023 1:46 PM
lemme in i got you
13:47
but we do need ermissions to edit just for the record
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/01/2023 1:49 PM
ik ik i gotta make roles and shit
13:49
if ur able to vc we should absolutely do that to make it easier
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 07/01/2023 1:49 PM
i currently have.. friend 🫠 lemme see what i can do give me 2 seconds
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/01/2023 1:51 PM
tyt dw i'm speed runnin this shit
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/01/2023 3:12 PM
the way i'm fightin the pharmacy AGAIN for our fucking stomach meds
15:12
girl i'm dying of acid reflux over here just gimme the omeprazole
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 07/01/2023 3:13 PM
AGAIN?
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/01/2023 3:13 PM
YES
15:13
BC THE FIRST TIME THEY TOOK THEM AWAY
15:13
they said "lol no u don't get those" so i had to call them AGAIN
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/01/2023 3:22 PM
i wanna nap so bad but amanda will be here in like an hour to go to the store with me for our meds
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 07/01/2023 3:23 PM
noo...
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/01/2023 3:23 PM
i've been fightin the sleepy meds so bad
15:23
and i JUST took our antidepressants
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 07/01/2023 3:24 PM
noooo
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/01/2023 3:28 PM
i'mfighting this shit harder than donald trump is fighting jail time
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 07/01/2023 3:28 PM
HFGBN
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/01/2023 3:28 PM
you should see me i' literally dozing off and fihting to keep my eyes open
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 07/01/2023 3:30 PM
i can tell
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/01/2023 3:39 PM
npatirmse
15:39
fuck
15:39
nap
15:39
tiem
15:39
clsoe enugh
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 07/01/2023 3:39 PM
nap time
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/01/2023 3:39 PM
yeah that
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aspen || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 07/01/2023 3:39 PM
sleepy
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/01/2023 11:31 PM
Stealing primary both to be a fag and bc there’s fireworks going off a block away and it’s making Serena panic
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 07/01/2023 11:33 PM
4th of july.. salt
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caspian 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/01/2023 11:33 PM
Forth of July, versus Serena always taking a semi host role in summertime.
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ike || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 07/01/2023 11:35 PM
horrible timing
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/02/2023 5:40 AM
summertime
05:40
i can deal w the heat, and humidity, and loud noises
05:40
but mosquitos make me wanna Die
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beelzebub 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/02/2023 9:10 PM
we’ve been so fuzzy the last few days but have been masking/fighting it bc. that’s annoying we don’t wanna do that. but there’s just so. many. new/integrated people.
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blurry 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 1:34 AM
the new idv trailer dropped. of course we’ll be avoiding it like the plague because joseph narrates it.
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mark twain 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 2:40 AM
we gotta help paint bill’s place tomorrow salt
02:40
today?
02:40
monday.
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mark twain 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 2:10 PM
UGH WE GOT OUT OF PAINTIMG BUT THEY DMED US
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AGAIN?!
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mark twain 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 2:10 PM
specifically it’s izumi’s ex gf
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what's happening this time
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mark twain 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 2:11 PM
she’s just asking how we are but i don’t trust any of our specific exes
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yeah no that's fair??
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mark twain 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 2:12 PM
esp not the enstars, i’m sorry but they lied to autumn and i’m pissed.
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yeah.... the enstars ...
14:12
kittyscared
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mark twain 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 2:13 PM
yeah, no, i’m not happy. and of course they messaged at a time when there’s no protectors in front.
14:15
i can just Feel that she wants to say smthn abt izumi but
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just say you aren't in the mood to talk or something maybe
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mark twain 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 2:16 PM
fukuzawa’s handling it, but it scares me
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texting someone to ask about your ex is.. strange
14:17
either way don't let those guys get to you
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mark twain 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 2:17 PM
well to be fair she didn’t get a say
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i guess that's true but idk
14:17
it feels weird
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mark twain 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 2:17 PM
nobody got a say in it. it’s awful and weird and it’s making me wanna ✨die✨
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well you can't do THAT
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mark twain 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 2:18 PM
she’s dancing around the topic by talking about life
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mark twain 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 2:20 PM
i literally hold trauma from these fuckers go away kittycry
14:20
i know too much of what they’ve said and done and i hate that she’s acting all nice
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yeah, i don't blame you, but there's really not anything you can do at this point until they give up
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mark twain 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 2:22 PM
i have cleaning to do. i don’t have time for a panic attack
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antonio paganini 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 2:25 PM
No, no more of you. concussion
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antonio paganini 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 2:25 PM
bonk bonk2
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antonio paganini 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 2:27 PM
No more Mark until they shut the fuck up.
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antonio paganini 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 3:27 PM
They backed off, I think. We need to clean and eat something, but it’s one of those days where our body wants nothing more than to stay in bed.
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do your best to get up, but don't force it
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antonio paganini 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 3:29 PM
I need to take our jeans off, too. We ended up not leaving to paint at Bill’s.
15:29
Amanda is a very ingredients household, unfortunately.
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eugh.. yeah, i get that..
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antonio paganini 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 3:31 PM
The only thing we ate yesterday was a cup of ramen and some homemade yogurt. Which I feel will be the same today.
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it's better than nothing, i guess..
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antonio paganini 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 3:32 PM
Mhm, I agree. If I find the things, I may try to properly cook something. Who knows?
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antonio paganini 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 3:43 PM
I know now. Quesadillas.
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antonio paganini 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 3:45 PM
Amanda has a garlic butter that needs used, along with chicken of an unknown age. So, I’ll use them.
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make sure it smells fine first but otherwise that sounds good as fuck
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antonio paganini 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 3:46 PM
I did, it smells just fine. I’ll show you once it’s done.
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ill be taking a bite (/j)
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antonio paganini 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 3:57 PM
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that looks so edible can i have one
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antonio paganini 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 3:58 PM
Absolutely you can. It’s very good.
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thank you i am on my way
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mark twain 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 5:24 PM
NOT ME GETTING CHAINMAIL IN RUSSIAN
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????!
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mark twain 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 5:24 PM
17:24
ITS ONE OF THOSE CHAIN MAIL AUDIOS
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??!?!?!?!?
17:25
well, good thing you can't read it!
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mark twain 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 5:25 PM
oh my god i’m laughing this is so funny
17:25
the internet wants to trigger us so bad it gives chainmail in a language i can’t even READ
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mark twain 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 9:41 PM
i wake up. there’s ANOTHER FUCKING DM FROM RHEM.
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AGAIN?
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mark twain 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 9:42 PM
β€œwhy’d you leave our sys server” fucker.
21:42
i know you’re not messaging everyone else when they left.
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havent messaged us! so.. yeah
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mark twain 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 9:42 PM
i didn’t think so!
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their last dm to us was at the end of february, just for.. reference
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mark twain 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 9:43 PM
i’m TRYING to be autistic here you stupid bitch. i’m not happy with her and like i KNOW it’s not her fault but i don’t like seeing izumi how ey are rn
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i don't blame you, the entire thing is awful and hard on engine
21:44
EVERYONE NOT ENGINE
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mark twain 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 9:44 PM
ENGINE
21:44
SHHHUTIP
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mark twain 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 9:44 PM
the way izumi’s been trying to front to help manage paranoia. as is eir JOB. but can’t because of THIS EXACT PARANOID THOUGHT.
21:44
β€œwhat if arashi tries to talk to me”
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that's awful really i would just.. tell them to shut up but that's rude
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yukichi fukuzawa 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 9:47 PM
They’re insisting on their β€œconversation” over the next few days.
21:47
I did remind them that our therapist said not to speak to them at all, as well.
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i really think they need to just give up on that conversation
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yukichi fukuzawa 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 9:47 PM
I really must agree, this is frankly just pathetic.
21:48
Don’t fucking dog confused emoji at me.
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not the dog confused emoji..
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yukichi fukuzawa 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 9:49 PM
fuckoff
21:49
If we drank, I’d need something after this. /Lighthearted
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you’d still need something after this, honestly
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yukichi fukuzawa 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 9:51 PM
She won’t get Izumi. I feel like she would push for it.
21:51
I told her she gets Leona, and no one else.
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yukichi fukuzawa 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 9:53 PM
Guilt tripping.
21:53
kittyscared
21:53
β€œPutting this off is making our health worse” how is that my fault.
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that’s not your fault? y’all already are struggling with your own issues
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yukichi fukuzawa 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 9:54 PM
Apparently that’s not as bad as theirs.
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that’s so dumb
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yukichi fukuzawa 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 9:55 PM
We’re having a minor panic attack. catflop I hate it here.
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i’m sorry that’s awful
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 9:56 PM
I’m going to kill the next person I fucking see I swear to god.
21:57
That’s a reference by the way.
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i mean it’s acceptable either way
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 10:06 PM
β€œWhy an avenger?” Look at your cheating ass and ask that again.
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wow.. i wonder why......
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 10:11 PM
They’re siccing one on me too. Ha.
22:12
The Akutagawa girl.
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im pretty sure her name is gin?
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 10:15 PM
I don’t know anything about that media. Gin, then. They’re sticking her on me.
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they're matching you guys because they want to seem more powerful / more in control of the situation
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 10:18 PM
Sucks to fucking suck.
22:22
I’m having to explain the β€œOceanus cheated on Fyodor” thing to Hidden Machinations, while also handing Athenaeum. head_slam
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if you need anything, let me know? i’m not sure how much i can help, but explaining things is something i think i’m.. pretty good at, i’d hope
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 10:26 PM
I’m fucking tired already and the conversation hasn’t even started. Our anxiety meds disappeared in the move.
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cut it whenever you feel like you need to, that conversation isn’t more important than your own feelings
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 10:29 PM
I know for a fucking fact that Claudia and Yuzuru weren’t dating in March. I remember her wanting to ask Claudia out.
22:29
And that was in May.
22:32
And Gin has been radio silent.
22:32
Talk, pussy.
22:38
Oceanus is probably gonna be in trouble (HMC doesn’t want to associate with cheaters, and they’ll soon see that Claudia never asked to date Yuzuru)
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 10:39 PM
Ugh, I need my own playlist.
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 10:59 PM
Ha, HMC called Dazai obnoxious.
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 11:06 PM
Gin’s back and is 100% blaming us for lack of communication
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 11:16 PM
Me when I apologize for a trauma response.
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 11:29 PM
Oh hell fucking no, they said our trauma response isn’t approved of by them.
23:33
Oh fuck no, they called us a groomer.
23:36
I’m so fucking done, they did talk to Luca. There’s no way they wouldn’t know this shit if they didn’t.
23:38
I blocked all of them. I’m done.
23:43
I’m more than a little angry. 🀩
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/03/2023 11:54 PM
They said we aren’t Asian enough to have experienced racism, and that we’re β€œignorant on our culture”. Sorry for our only main tie to it being DEAD
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/04/2023 12:41 AM
When HMC is fucking detective sleuthing on us, Hierophant, and an ex friend we haven’t talked to in years because of Ath’s accusation.
00:41
They went to bed though, so we get a few hours to catch our fucking breath.
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/04/2023 1:18 AM
God we feel fucking nauseous. It's the post panic attack sick feeling.
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/04/2023 2:08 AM
The storm keeps making the lights flicker.
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gowther 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/04/2023 3:39 PM
have to take calli with us when we petsit tomorrow. salt
15:40
amanda’s landlord is showing her apartment, so calli can’t be here. she has to come with us to petsit the corgis.
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gowther 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/04/2023 6:23 PM
mmm. sleep time.
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sleepy time
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gowther 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/04/2023 6:24 PM
going to nap. and be cozy. because lord knows we didn’t sleep well last night.
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gowther 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/04/2023 6:24 PM
then. pet sitting the smart (stupid) corgis tomorrow.
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gowther 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/04/2023 10:10 PM
calli when she’s constipated and thus kicks her litter all over the bathroom whenever she tries to shit.
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yoimiya || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 07/04/2023 10:11 PM
Oh, poor baby.
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gowther 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/04/2023 10:11 PM
i know :( she’s making such a mess.
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gowther 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/04/2023 11:39 PM
us when we panic at our text tone now.
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vanitas || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 07/04/2023 11:40 PM
for good reason, though.. are you okay??
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gowther 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/04/2023 11:43 PM
oh, i’m fine! i got a text saying our mobile hotspot was dropping in speed for a couple weeks (used all the fast data for our siblings to watch tv).
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vanitas || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 07/04/2023 11:43 PM
ooh. that makes sense.
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gowther 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/04/2023 11:45 PM
a teensy bit of anxiety, all three of them have our numbers still. i personally don’t feel emotion, at least not strongly, but it scared the others.
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vanitas || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 07/04/2023 11:46 PM
the only way i could think of to resolve that is with trying to give it a positive connotation ... but i don't know how you'd do that
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gowther 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/04/2023 11:46 PM
i’m not sure. i’ve been muting our notification sounds when we sleep, to help anxiety pass.
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vanitas || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 07/04/2023 11:47 PM
that's a good one too
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gowther 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/04/2023 11:49 PM
i want to change our text tone, but i don’t know how to make a new one.
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vanitas || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 07/04/2023 11:52 PM
uh.
23:52
i found the setting but that's all i know
23:53
good luck
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gowther 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 12:02 AM
slowly but surely changing all the old couple wallpapers into different headmates memories of home.
00:02
only two more need changed.
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gowther 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 12:11 AM
the day being nearly radio silent is feeling good, it’s making the anxiety drop. it’s still encouraging our necklace ocd, but i’ll take it.
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amanda left the kids here again. and they’re petty arguing.
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gowther 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 10:57 AM
i’m losing it.
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gowther 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 3:05 PM
the things i’d pay for patience to genuinely shut the fuck up.
15:06
β€œput (calli’s litter box) somewhere” β€œwhere??” β€œaway” β€œwhere is away??” β€œthat’s your problem”
15:06
why are you telling me to do things if you won’t tell me HOW.
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 8:54 PM
Ath’s β€œfriend” is still trying to sleuth around our ex relationships. Ones from five years ago, for example.
20:54
Five fucking years ago.
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:05 PM
Nope, Gowther blocked them for contacting our ex fiancé. That’s too far.
21:07
β€œI don’t associate with cheaters” so why do you need to talk to Tobi, hm? No more Judgement privileges. However, this means L/ca probably knows our system name now.
21:08
Glad we were never close with HMC, fuck that.
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fucking
21:16
they texted us as a middleman for a message from hidden machinations?
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:16 PM
Huh? Oh, fuck no. Nah. Nope. I’m so tired.
21:16
That’s HMC.
21:17
Block them. All of them. They’re being too ducking nosey.
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i dont talk to either of them qiqifallen
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:18 PM
Good reason to block them. hesit
21:18
They shouldn’t even be bothering you, you were never a topic of conversation.
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part of me really wants to get on them about texting me because fuck leave me alone IM NOT??? A MIDDLEMAN? PLEAS LEAVE ME ALONE!!
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:21 PM
Unfortunately that would open you up to being harassed further for β€œthe truth”, and that’s not something I wanna burden you with.
21:21
Not to mention, all parties of theirs are blocked by us and Hierophant.
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im honestly wanting to just type a long message and then block them afterwards
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:21 PM
I mean, shit, why not.
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this just reminded me that they have our phone number..... i'll have to block that too
21:23
"hi! ik we don't talk often and judgement wants nothing to do with us (which we'll respect that boundary) but-" SHUUUT UP
21:23
sorry im so annoyed
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:24 PM
As you should be, they harassed you about shit that stressed you and just dropped accusation after accusation on us before we blocked them.
21:24
They even finished it with β€œI know we’re gonna be blocked” and yeah, they were.
21:27
πŸ‘
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:28 PM
Good for you. I’m so sorry.
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how the fyck do you block someones number
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:28 PM
No idea, that’s why we didn’t block their numbers either.
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i know it's possible but idfk how hang on
21:29
oh it's actually really easy ig
21:29
it's a giant red button
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:30 PM
WHORE??
21:30
it's been that since we got their number dont ask me
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:31 PM
Deserved.
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kinda sucks because we were friends with pleiades and they're the only one we actually talked to
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:32 PM
Even they got involved with the shit, otherwise they were okay.
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right
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:32 PM
Or, they were before everything.
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never really stirred up drama or anything shrugs
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:32 PM
Yeah, I wish it stayed that way.
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i might leave it for now but if ath tries talking to us through them i'll cut it there
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:33 PM
I wouldn’t doubt it, unfortunately, considering they also DMed us while I was dealing with Ath.
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if i decide to do a friend list purge soon they'll be a part of it regardless
21:34
if ath tries to bother us i might go fucking insane
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:34 PM
I just did one the other day, and I don’t blame you. Fucker doesn’t know how to back off.
21:34
What part of β€œdon’t want contact” do they not get, trying to get a fucking middleman.
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at least if you're going to bother someone do it yourself and not through a third party
21:34
put in the fuckin effort at the very least using a middleman is LAZY
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:35 PM
Not to mention fucking rude, dragging in people who don’t want dragged in. head_slam
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leave me OUT OF THIS i haven't bothered yall once this entire time despite what i know
21:35
damn..
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:36 PM
They don’t get boundaries, which says a lot considering they hid a ton of them from us.
21:37
NOT HMC TRYING TO ADD US ON TIKTOK??
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??!?!
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:37 PM
Take the HINT.
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bro i tell them no and they proceed to try to reach out fucky
21:37
DIRECTLY
21:37
FUCKY??
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:37 PM
I’m best friends with the block button.
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honestly
21:40
im so fuckin tired man and i'm not even involved
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:40 PM
Everyone in our actual friend group is tired. Sanctuary too, I just know they’re gonna try to get to them.
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fuck if they try talking to me again i'm going to yell at them
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:41 PM
Good. I literally can’t think of anywhere else to block them.
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me either
21:42
didn't really have them on anything other than discord tiktok and texts either way
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:42 PM
Their AO3 is FromParadisio and their IDV is Paradisio.
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we MIGHT have their idv added but never ao3
21:43
if that bitch actually was to put the effort in to get to us via AO3 THEY HAVE ANOTHER ISSUE !!'n
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:46 PM
They had us on there, I made sure to block them on that, on Genshin, on IDV, and we deleted Twitter before everything otherwise I’d have blocked them there too.
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honestly it's so ridiculous
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:47 PM
Isn’t it? I was more than willingly to take accountability for what we did wrong, but they decided to nose dive into fake shit.
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right
21:47
insane.
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:49 PM
Well, that’s done for. We really should’ve listened to Vanitas last summer, huh.
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😭😭 hes been trying so hard not to say i told you so since he found out (edited)
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:50 PM
Oh no, it’s deserved.
21:50
Hold on, putting the dogs to bed.
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our bad people radar when it's right 90% of the time
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:52 PM
Ours is almost always right too, I don’t know how we didn’t see it.
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i dont know how WE saw it we barely even talked to them before we made that decision
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:53 PM
Well, at least now I know Aesop’s gonna feel like shit whenever he misses his husband back home. Ath poked at that and said him saving art of default Joseph was disrespectful to the one he was dating.
21:53
HELLO?
21:53
NO FUCKING WAY??
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:53 PM
β€œHe looks like Hangover” AND YOU EXPECT US TO FIND THAT??
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it's anotherone of those weird instances where systems dont get source memories somehow
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:54 PM
Not to mention anytime he mentioned his kids as infants in a happy way (IN A VENT CHANNEL), they’d remind him they hate the concept of having kids.
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noooo fuckin way...
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:54 PM
He kept it in an easily muted place, it was always censored, he took EVERY precaution.
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he shouldn't even have to censor it, if i had to put in an opinion... anyone in his place would want to talk about them, i'd think..?
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:56 PM
Apparently not. head_slam But noooo, that’s another boundary they never addressed with us.
21:56
We can’t read their mind, and for someone who harassed Fyodor for not talking about issues, they sure kept them to themself.
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i groan loudly, dramatically, and then slam my head into the table PEOPLE. /der
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:57 PM
Never making friends again. We’re always going to be semi wary of people. Even the sys Caspian’s crush is in, I’m very wary of them.
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that person gives me hmmmmm vibes as well admittedly
21:57
i think its the system headcount that bothers me so much
21:57
something about it irks me and idk how to explain it
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:58 PM
That’s what bothers me too, and frankly how they make very suggestive commentary around minors bothers me too. It’s never super explicit, but they definitely do that from time to time.
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whhhhhhhat
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:59 PM
Otherwise, they seem…mostly fine. But I’ll be keeping an eye on them.
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i'm giving them the side eye
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 9:59 PM
You and me both.
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why is it that like 60% of the people we seem to meet are like
22:00
terrible
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 10:00 PM
I have no idea. I’m sick of it, and just want to meet good people.
22:01
i guess you cant expect much of the internet
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 10:01 PM
Yeah, you’re so right for that. The way HMC unintentionally fakeclaimed us a little too, saying it seemed like Aesop talking when other headmates were around? Sorry we have trouble unmasking.
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we literally have the same issue qiqifallen shhhhutthefuckup
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 10:02 PM
We’re literally autistic and have to mask when texting most of the time.
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exhibit a of why we only usually arent masking in the circle of like 3 conversational system servers (sillies, this and our priv w/ hierophant) and only ever identify in other places if its really necessary to do so
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 10:04 PM
Mhm. We like being open, but I’m starting to think it’s not the best for us. Trying to unmask is hard, Serena’s the only one that can pull it off.
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sometimes its just safer not to
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 10:08 PM
So I’m seeing. sigh No more. I’m going to play source and sit with Calli.
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have fun! pet kitty for me
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 10:08 PM
Scratching her back as we speak. It’s kind of chilly in here.
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better than overheating, right?
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 10:08 PM
The dogs are settled in to bed, and Bridget is being…Bridget.
22:09
I guess, yeah.
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 10:48 PM
Tell me why HMC hunted Hierophant down on TikTok to ask them to tell us to unblock them. Fucker, you spoke to our ex fiancé.
22:48
YOU'RE FUCKING JOOOOKING
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 10:48 PM
I’m dead fucking serious.
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 10:48 PM
It’s on one of their firework videos.
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oh my god
22:49
hasn't it been.. like 3 years.. since you were even WITH that person..? why did they ???????? track them down???
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 10:49 PM
It’s been almost two, our breakup date is like a week before our birthday.
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i'm so shocked
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/05/2023 10:52 PM
I’m not. They asked about an ex from five years ago, talked to two ex friends from 3+ years ago, AND read L/ca’s slander document.
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/06/2023 5:32 AM
Guess which lovely animal decided that, once again, 4 AM was the time to go places she shouldn’t go and wake me up.
05:33
She’s in cat jail (Laundry room) and I’m going to sleep until the dogs wake up (7 AM).
05:38
Rephrase, I’m waiting for her to stop aggressively pawing at their kitty door that I locked, so I can sleep.
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/06/2023 5:46 AM
She’s taken to screaming. Calli pleass.
05:52
I took her out of cat jail. She can wail when the dogs are up, and for now she’s gonna sit on my lap.
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/06/2023 9:30 PM
”They should be back around eight.” Vicki, you’re a saint, but it’s 8:30 and I want to get Subway.
21:30
I won’t get to, they close at 9. kittycry
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/06/2023 9:43 PM
The dogs’ bedtime is 9, so if they’re not home by then I might put them to bed and have Amanda pick us up.
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th.. the dogs have a bedtime?
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/06/2023 9:43 PM
Yeah, 9 PM.
21:43
And they wake up around 8.
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aigis || 🎐πŸͺ· BOT 07/06/2023 9:44 PM
our dogs just fuck off to bed whenever our parents go to bed what kind of steroids are these dogs on
21:44
OH MY GOD
21:44
GOD
21:44
DAMMIT
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/06/2023 9:44 PM
You good?
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I NEED TO CHANGE THIS ONES PROXY BECAUSE I KEEP TRIGGERING IT
21:44
yes
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/06/2023 9:45 PM
Lmao. But yeah, they have a pretty strict bedtime and meal schedule. I asked Amanda if she thought it’d be fine to just leave after the dogs are put to bed.
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that's so strange to me
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/06/2023 9:49 PM
I’m letting them tire themselves out, so they go to bed easier. At this point I might just ask to stop at Walmart to get some noodles, a salad, whatever. Just something to eat.
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thatsa good idea
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/06/2023 9:50 PM
We fuck up Walmart salads. And I can walk the half mile to Subway tomorrow if I want to.
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/06/2023 10:02 PM
Guess who not ONLY is mad about our cat, but is ALSO TAKING US HOME.
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uh oh...
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/06/2023 10:03 PM
AMANDA.
22:03
I’m about to bust out her middle name here.
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I FEEL LIKE SHE SHOULD'VE TOLD HER??????
22:03
THATS LIIIKE...
22:03
???
22:03
wasnt ur responsibility
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/06/2023 10:04 PM
I KNOW. THATS WHAT IM SAYING.
22:04
We didn’t have her fucking number, we didn’t have her information before getting here, Amanda set ALL OF THIS UP…
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/06/2023 10:05 PM
Not to mention we haven’t eaten in TWO DAYS. And I wanted to just buy food.
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thats fucking awful i'm sorry??
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/06/2023 10:08 PM
I’m tired, I’m panicked, I’m stressed, I’m hungry. And I’m this close to physically sobbing.
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i'm sorry this is happening to you guys, but you'll be out of there soon. it'll be over before you know it
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/06/2023 10:10 PM
Yeah and then we’ve got a fifteen-twenty minute car ride with the lady that’s mad about our cat. With the cat that screams in the car.
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it'll be okay
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/06/2023 10:12 PM
I’ll probably just offer her money back.
22:12
I feel like we charge too much anyway.
22:18
β€œDon’t worry about it” I AM WORRYING, AMANDA JEAN.
22:18
Yeah fuck you Im middle naming her.
22:20
that's such
22:20
a white person name..
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/06/2023 10:20 PM
Fitting for a white woman.
22:20
A white woman Im MAD AT.
22:25
β€œA little later than the expected 8:30” It’s 9:25.
22:25
I wanna go home and make cheap macaroni and a can of soup that we’ve stored in the garage. I’m tired of this.
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/06/2023 11:00 PM
We’re home, I kept my money, and we told silly stories of old jobs on the ride.
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/07/2023 1:25 PM
The way I need to make a phone call, but am so god damn tired.
13:26
We haven’t slept a full, proper night in over a week now.
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/07/2023 3:36 PM
TELL ME WHY THEY FUCKING HUNTED AMANDA DOWN ON SOCIAL MEDIA TO ACCUSE US OF GROOMING TO HER.
15:37
Oh hell fucking no I’m PISSED.
15:38
Exes? Fine. Old friends? Sure whatever. OUR MOTHERvc
15:38
??
15:42
I’m so goddamn tired this is literally harassment now.
15:43
How the fuck did they even find her.
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/07/2023 3:57 PM
I’m literally too tired to do this today. If they bother any more people from our family I’m reporting them to the cops for cyberstalking.
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/07/2023 7:43 PM
Thinking about how they either misgendered us to Amanda, or outed us. And I hate both of those.
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leona 𖀐 | 🐚πŸ₯€ BOT 07/07/2023 9:43 PM
Sorry I’m still pissed about them fucking cyberstalking our family. Concern or otherwise you go to the cops for that, not family. Now I’m fucking horrified that they’ll hunt down siblings or extended family.
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