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those are all things i have reiterated MULTIPLE TIMES as a note. but ill leave them there.

I have already said that I will apologize for that ordeal twice, maybe more just today. Once in your dms and once at least in this conversation. I also acknowledged that I would need time to process everything said today and in a day or two I would be happy to come back and discuss/apologize for my faults. I've said these multiple times today, but I'll say them again.

tsumugi aoba 𓂃𓈒 ☽·̩͙💫☆彡 ↩️

Reply to: 1. I want Oceanus to apologise for the entire ordeal that happened two weeks ago 2. I’d like an ack…

we have both said these multiple times. in a row, even. so please. listen and read what we're saying before demanding things like we. have asked everyone who knows us to. because i have explained this multiple times. i cannot fully read and digest that message right now on the tailend of a 5 hour panic attack. i have said this. i have told you it will get done whenever i have time during the workweek if i have spare time (doubtful), or the weekend.

As in, we don’t get checked in on, or we have to ask to be acknowledged when something is bothering us We bring up something that’s bothering us, and it goes unchecked. I understand communicating and that’s why we even choose to talk about things, but i don’t think it’s too much to want to be acknowledged without having to beg for it all the time

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Reply to: define brushed aside in our next conversation because i'd like to touch on that.

4:16 AM

Let’s stop this

4:17 AM

I don’t want part in this anymore. Not being able to voice out why we’re hurting so much because we’re being told we’re the ones not listening is why I don’t come around anymore.

4:17 AM

I can’t do that

4:19 AM

Leave, please. Good night.

i was just reiterating that we've explained that specific thing multiple times. so it was either ignored or not listened to. that was all i said.

And I’m reiterating that those are the things I’d like to be acknowledged when it is, but I will acknowledge that I didn’t openly say that I acknowledged it. I’m sorry for making it seem like I wasn’t listening

it's not. but as stated previously with being busy, (i don't recall if you were in call when is aid this) i have consistently been checking #muted-vc and #bar-lupin with the rest of my discord on a mute. i tap through everything else on occasion, but i don't tend to respond 100% of the time because i'm so busy. i frequently have to ask to be acknowledged, especially when rambling, because i know my vent channel is my private space and if i want direct interaction with another person i go to their dms. that's what i've done, but it seems we all treat these channels differently and there are unspoken expectations that aren't being met because they haven't been clearly defined by anyone other than me just stating what i want from specific things in my channel if i know.

tsumugi aoba 𓂃𓈒 ☽·̩͙💫☆彡 ↩️

Reply to: As in, we don’t get checked in on, or we have to ask to be acknowledged when something is botherin…

4:23 AM

even then. most of the time i know i have those unspoken expectations so i. ask. like hey can someone respond to this can someone help with this. or poke someone

4:24 AM

we're all adults with full time jobs. i cannot be on my phone for 90%+ of my day. it is not reasonable to expect me to answer everything in your channel, especially if no one told us that you wanted that /expected that with typical messages.

4:26 AM

i appreciate the apology, and thank you for reiterating that. in the future, that clarity helps us stop repeating things over and over and also actually tells me what i need to do for any particular conversation or issue. i am autistic. i cannot mind read. i cannot read the "implications" i cannot read a lot of those. so if i said somethkng and the implication/social norm of it bothers you, you have to tell me or else i just don't know. same goes for all things.

tsumugi aoba 𓂃𓈒 ☽·̩͙💫☆彡 ↩️

Reply to: And I’m reiterating that those are the things I’d like to be acknowledged when it is, but I will ack…

4:27 AM

i needed that out. im setting my phone aside

I will take the rest of the week to continue to attempt to parse what you said. Please do not speak to me unless you want to apologize first.

@blue you need to call aurelio and I as soon as you are awake. We need to speak on the phone and I won't hear otherwise.

[END OF LOGS.] for posterity's sake: the next set of images took place over a week later in a different server. i don't have access to the server anymore, so i cannot export it like the others, however, I have grabbed what I can. this is missing some of the beginning, which was me apologizing for being busy and toast saying nothing other than "I need you to be alone when you read this" (I think that's shown in the pictures). Unfortunately, these pictures were taken in the heat of things and are cropped awkwardly at points since i was just sending them to Oceanus/AJ who wasn't home at the time. if i had access to the server, i would archive it properly. however, toast owned it. a link will be pasted below when i have the rest. click here to go onto the next set of messages. (external link.)