Solar Eclipse - oh-fuck-my-soulmates-a-kid

It wasn't that soulmates themselves were a taboo topic, he'd always had explained to him, you're just a 'special case', Kakavasha. As a much younger child, he hadn't understood the nuances of it all. Even now, a lot of the finer details and nuance escaped him. Just under 10 years old, he was finally beginning to mature into himself. He'd turned nine a month or two ago, and already considered himself the top of the world -- much like any young child does.

"You can write to them when you're older." had always been the placating tone he received. Excuses and one reason or another. He realized soon enough that he had free will.

And, there was no way anyone would learn. Right? He tended to hide his arms with sleeves anyway, skin already marred from the chaos of his upbringing. And, honestly, no one could stop him from talking to /his soulmate/ anyway. Right? Even if the rest of the world wanted to keep him isolated. He had no idea /why/. This was his soulmate. Being excluded felt nasty, bubbling in his chest. So, he let it out. He took a washable marker, taking it to his forearm with a shaky grip, likely feeling just as shaky on his soulmate's skin.

"HellO?"

Ratio had given up on finding his soulmate in highschool. If they hadn't written by then, they must have died young. He'd used his arms as noteoads until partway through college, when someone /drew back/ on his calculus notes. Immedistely, the sad thung wasnt that he didn't have a soulmate, it was that his soulmate was so young. They must have been born right before he turned 18

It made him feel sick sometimes.

And thats why nowz after 5ish yesrs of keeping his arms totally clear, his breath hitched watxhinf a slow, shaky "hello" appear on his skin. Should. He respond back?

"Hello."

The sight of the response caused Kakavasha to perk up, giggling as his luck always seemed to work itself out. He ran a finger over the lines as they appeared on his skin, pausing and giving the other individual a chance to put anything they wanted down.

It seemed, however, that they didn't need to say any more than a few words. "hi!!!!!!!!" "i'm vasha. :)"

There wasn't any harm in talking to his soulmate, right?...... Vasha. What a cute name. "It's nice to meet you, You're my soulmate?"

The bright smile on Kakavasha's face didn't fade, and he curled into himself, trying to use his own leg to hold the marker awkwardly still. He was curled into a corner, hidden away from the little room scattered with a kid or two scribbling or coloring or reading.

"i think so!" "whats your name?"

he seems... normal enough?... He's only a kid, yeah? "You can call me Veri."

"veri!!"

He was far too excited to actually get a name from him, having been isolated from any knowledge about his soulmate since he was born. He wiggled a bit, dotting a little :) by his name.

"okay! hi. its good to meet you. i dont really understand things yet. but my favorite color is green and i'm 9! how about you?"

Ogh. /His favorite color is green and he's nine oh my god hes so cute. oh that little :) by the 'Veri' was so cute "My favorite color is.... Yellow, I think. Green is a close second though."

"yellow is a good color! it reminds me of gold. i collect gold coins! they're really shiny... i find them all the time! i think i have thirty three!"

He giggled to himself, pushing some hair out of his face, before glancing up to his teacher to make sure he still had time.

"what do you like? oh!! and are you 9 too? or 10?"

Thank god he was in the privacy of his own apartment. "I don't like to share my age. I like. Math, and science. I love to learn." "Thirty three coins is a lot, congratulations"

:( oh, no age. that's okay! probably safer anyway. he didn't think much of it. "awe.. that's okay! tell me eventually?" "i'm bad at science!! you should teach me. i like to learn some things.. i'm good with money math! and uh. probababilitys!" "mama always said i was lucky. so i wanted to learn it fast. what kind of science? do you like bugs?"

eventually?... he could do eventually. "Absolutely." "I'd be happy to help you." "I like a lot of sciences." "....bugs are nice."

"bugs are cool! my mama and sister hate them. what's your favorite kind of science? are there any you hate?" "mama says my luck is great, so i'll be great at some games when i'm an adult! she says i'm not allowed to learn til i'm older. i wanna learn though!! do you know poker? or the other luck games?"

"I'm not sure. I like a lot of things." "I don't really play them, but i know how. Your luck is that good?"

"mhm! i've always been lucky. pick a number!! don't tell me though :o"

"Alright, picked "

"13? my favorite number is 7, though :)"

"Lucky guess. Seven is a nice number. Technically there's 7 letters in my name."

"veris only four letters though?" "OHH did you give me a nickname!! that's cool. i can't wait to get to know you. there's 9 letters in mine :)"

"We'll talk more, I'm sure." "9 is a nice number."

"i hope so!! we're soulmates. that's fate right? you must be really amazing!!!!!" "mama says i was blessed by our goddess. so you must be amazing if fate has put us together."

"Blessed? How interesting."

9:00 PM

"I hope that i can live up to your expectations."

"you already are!" "a lot of people hate me right away."

"Thats a little sad, you seem nice"

"thank you! that's what mama says too :) kids are mean aparently. sorry i've never written before :("

"Its ok, i didnt realize you could see my writings before."

"mhm! mama said not to write back. so i waited. but everyone else is writing and i felt left out... i got made fun of for it."

"It's probably best nobody know I'm writing with you." "This can be our secret. I don't want to get you in trouble."

"okay! i'm good at keeping secrets. veri promises to keep it safe too. right!" "i won't tell mama either. i just gotta make sure to clean my arm."

"I'll keep it hidden, don't worry."

"mhm! why do you have to be secret, but no one else has to?" "it always feels weird when everyone laughs about me not having anyone :("

"Sometimes the world is cruel and makes good things a bad idea at certain times." "It's ok, everyone thinks I don't have anyone too."

"so i'm a secret for you too!" "the world's mean :( mama says it'll be okay when i'm older. is that true?"

"Your mom is right. it'll be okay when you're older." "We can be secrets together."

"yay!! you like sciences and math right?" "does that mean i can ask for school help?"

"As long as its reasonable, I'll help."

"what's reasonable?"

"I'm not going to help you cheat on your tests or anything, but I'll help with studying and homework"

"yay! i wasn't gonna cheat anyway. usually!" "studying is good too :) sometimes my family can't help me study :("

"I would be happy to help."

"yay!" "awe. class is starting again :(" "talk to me later veri!!!"

"Of course. goodbye, Vasha."

Interactions over the coming years were a bit touch and go, but that much was natural even for other soulmate pairs. The two were in different stages of life, but Kakavasha still made it a point to reach out often. Sometimes while Veri was busy, yes, but he always got back to him. It was quite nice. Still, he realized, he didn't know much about the person on the other end.

He was about 13 when he started reaching out with increasing frequency, pushing for more information about his soulmate. After all, he'd have to know the one he was fated to be with.

"so. i never asked. are you a guy or a chick?" "i'm a guy! obviously lol."

With the man on the other end of his arm getting older and older, Veritas slowly became more open, though it still took quite a lot to get more than a basic answer out of him.

"I'm a man. I hope that isn't an issue."

"nah. they clocked me at birth."

It was.. strangely nice to see Veri begin to open up. Even if it took time, he took pride in the slow opening up between the two of them.

"aaaaand something you've never told me." "how old even are you? like obviously you're older than me. otherwise my mom wouldn't have stopped me from talking to you."

Oh thank god, it was a gay kid. at least the universe can respect my sexuality. it was strange to finally feel... reasonable to share information with this kid. "Definitely quite a bit older than you."

Vasha laughed at that, rolling his eyes. He put a little :// by the text he received, moving below it to respond. "that's not an answer. you've known my age for what. like four years? that's no fair veri :("

It wasn't like he could just open his mouth and say "yes, small thirteen year old soulmate, i am nearly thirty"! "I'm in my 20's."

He could absolutely do it, but he was a coward. He knew his soulmate was going to be older, but he wasn't sure how much older. He'd seen plenty of age gaps between soulmates -- so what was so jarring that it restricted him?

"21? or like 26? or like 29? That's a wide range yknow"

Ugh. nosy kids. "I'm sure you can guess. late 20's though." God, how embarassing to be telling a child you're more than 15 years older than them.

"so you're 29 because you wouldn't be avoiding it if it was 27/28."

Adults liked to think they were more slick than they were. He'd been holding off on pressing for an answer for years. So, he deserved it now.

"i'm 13. you know that, though."

"I would have avoided it regardless, You're 13 and i'm more than twice your age."

He didn't expect to be caught so fast. should have guessed he would be, given Vasha's propensity for luck and skill with numbers.

"so! i'm /right/!" He was far too pleased with himself, counting out the gap in their ages mentally as he considered it. "yeah, you're old enough to be my dad. is that weird? i dunno. fate decided it was okay, didn't she?"

"I never said you were wrong." Get that blush. off of your face. Veritas Ratio. "I think it could be weirder."

"if fate says it's okay, it must be. right~? i was blessed by her at birth, she knows what she's doing~"

No, keep blushing. Vasha /loves/ to fluster him, even if he doesn't get to see it, he can still feel the way his pen stutters and he hesitates.

"so you're 16 years older than me. awe, i kept you waiting~?"

"I'll trust your 'fate'." He didn't notice the way his pen jerked when vasha caught him off guard "I'm sorry you got an old man instead of somebody your age"

"don't apologize! if i was mad about it, i'd have been mad when i found out. not now. yknow?" "it's nice to have someone who isn't immediately making a snap judgement off my looks." wow someone has depression.

"That doesn't feel fair to you. You're just a kid." Its ok, Ratio has self worth issues.

"yeah. but people still do it. they have a good reason but it sucks anyway." Omg! Trauma buddies! Luckily for Ratio, Aventurine has no one to compare himself to because they're all dead ♡

"Now now, there's no 'good' reason for that." Oh boy! Can't wait fir that revalation. Which one! Sure!

"mama says they think they have a good reason, so no one can change their mind. even if they're wrong." all of them! yippee! "i still haven't told her i've been talking to you."

"Its better you don't. It could get me in trouble." so many! "People are cruel. Your mother is right."

"but no one knows who you are? how would it get you in trouble?" "yeah :( people don't like me. i wanna get older and have more people not hate me."

"I'm sure it wouldn't be hard to find the 29 year old who has a child soulmate." "Getting older doesnt necessarily do that, but you have the luck to make it happen."

"then explain why i've had such trouble finding you??" No, he would not explain if that was a joke or not. "[his phone number is written here]"

"For a normal person it might be hard, for the cops?" "I can't take this, Vasha."

":( why not? we're literally soulmates! i won't tell!" He circled the number.

"It isnt safe, Vasha. One day." He toyed with it for a moment.

"one day could be today~ what's the harm! you could see what i look like." At least it's masturbation material if he doesn't go through with it?

"I'll take it. No harm in just... having it." Ratio, what are you doing?? This is madness

":3 thank you!!!" "i don't have many friends anyway lol."

"Me niether. Its alright." "I don't want to scare you."

bun started a thread. 3/17/2025 11:57 AM

"you won't! i'm strong >:)" "i'm not a little kid! i'm 13 now!"

"13 is still pretty young, you know."

"i'm old enough! i'm a teen now, so i'm not a kid!"

"And a teen is still not an adult." "It's not that i don't want it."

but i'm still not "pretty young." cmon! i can do stuff. just cause you're old doesn't mean you're better

I never said i was. I don't want to get in trouble and lose my chance to meet you in the future

ugh.. i guess it makes sense. but who would stop us anyway? ...but i get it.

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1:16 PM

I don't know I don't want to risk it.

then we don't risk it. when i'm an adult is okay, then? just have to wait

More than fine when you're an adult, Vasha. I feel like it will come faster than we think.

that's so far away! you really want to make me wait sooo long? :(

We can still talk, no? It's okay. Ratio doodled a little laurel branch on his arm. See? even doodles work.

Okay, the little branch made him smile. He giggled softly to himself, drawing a little bird upon the branch. it just sucks that everyone else is always talking to their soulmate and i'm talking to a brick wall of info

I hope I'm at least enjoyable to write to. Oh, the bird was cute. hm. lets add a second bird.

He drew his hair on one of the birds, giving the bird a little arrow with 'Vasha' written next to it. you are! it makes me happy to write to you

He added glasses and tiny eyebrows to his bird, making a little <- Veri next to it. I'm glad. I don't want to be a boring soulmate....

some kids in my class have boring soulmates who don't have anything they like. just waiting for their soulmate forever. i don't want to be like that. fate's defined enough of my life.

That's incredibly unfortunate. You should tell me more about what you want.

i want to be able to make enough to help my mom. i dunno. my head hurts if i think too hard about the future

I understand, nothing to worry about right now You're still young. There's time.

you sure? everyone around me wants to know what i want to do how long did it take you to figure it out?

It's a pretty common question at your age. Me?... I still don't know what exactly I want. I love so many things.

you're grading. are you gonna teach? or is that not something you're into?

I'd love to teach. I just don't know what field.

why not science? or math? you like them both, right?

I do, but they just get so specialized after a while, and I would want to be at college level. I'm thinking Chemistry for now.

chemistry sounds cool!! is that what you're working on now?? or is it something else? what makes you like it?

That's what I'm working on now, yes. I like subjects where science and math are both equally important.

ooh. that makes sense. what other subjects have that? you could be a doctor!

Well, I /am/ working on my doctorate right now. Not quite the same as a doctor, though.

oh he's GONNA be a doctor! got it. that's cool, though!! that seems like a lot of work...

It is. It's not for everyone, but I enjoy it. It's nice to have someone be excited for my accomplishments.

i'm proud of you!! that's a ton of work! is your mom not proud?

I like to think she is.

!!! i am proud too :) i'm sure my mom would be proud too!

Thank you, Vasha.

It had been some time since Kakavasha had had the ability to contact his soulmate. Thrown through hoops and forced to jump, he'd grown very used to the isolation that the death of his family had caused. His arms had been restrained for most of the last two years, and on the off chance his hands were free, it was unlikely he'd had access to a pen. Veri likely tried to contact him over the years, but his sleeves were frequently down, attempting to isolate the blonde boy even further. The two likely hadn't spoken for nearly two years at this point, and as Aventurine settled into the (strangely plush) seat he had been led to, he found his hand faltering at the thought of writing again. It wasn't that he'd forgotten how to write, it was just... After two years, the muscles he used to write were no longer used to it, the pen feeling like a foreign intrusion in his hand. He stared at his arm for some time, trying to figure out what to write. And in shaky hands, he put pen to skin, lines trembling under his pen. /Sorry to keep you waiting, doc~/

Veri wrote frequently. He knew Vasha wasn't in the best place, after all, and two years of silence was devastating to the man who had already had nothing come to him for the first 20 years of his life. So he wrote I hope you're still alive I miss you Please be safe. Small messages like that day in and day out, never erased until they were faded off and then replaced by a different one. He had finally gotten his doctorate, and had started on another one. Anything to keep his mind off of what was happening. To wake up and see that on his arm, Veri couldn't grab the pen fast enough. Vasha- You're alive-

The response came quickly enough, and Kakavasha let out a sigh of relief to feel that familiar scrawl on his arm. He curled back into the seat he was in, as if he could vanish into it all. of course i am~ think you could lose me that easily? He almost did. Aventurine decided to keep it vague, after all, saying "I'm the last of my clan and the only one in existence in the world." was a bit much for someone he (technically) didn't even know. how's your big boy degree going~? distraction!

Let me worry about my soulmate. Ratio laughed at the sudden change of topic, deciding to play along. Theres always later to fuss. Got the chemistry doctorate, working on number two now. how are you doing?...

i have never been more decorated! He laughed, feeling a little delirious still. If he didn't laugh about the injuries and scars, he'd probably have to cry about them. And he wasn't too keen on crying over any of this. well. we'll call it decorated. i'm safe now. lots of stuff you'd never know about going on in the universe.. what's doctorate number two? going for something super different?

You being safe is all that matters to me. Share the rest in your own time. It's physics. More math science, I know, what a shocker. ....ratio did his best to stifle the reloeved tears rolling down his face. He knew nobody could see or hear him, but... It was better if the ink didn't smudge.

Vasha grinned at the message, relieved to see that Veri still seemed to be living life as he would have otherwise. He knew he'd worried him, but getting to speak to him and see him as normal felt far more important. He put a little heart by his previous messages, little smiley face next to 'math science'. good luck! He paused, writing a lot smaller when he picked up the pen again. i. lost a lot. i lost my family.

I'm sorry. Reading that made Veri's heart wrench. He knew what it was like, unfortunately. That's very. Hard to go through I lost my family a long time ago. If you. Need anything. Please.

thank you. i lost some of them a while ago. this shouldn't have been a surprise for me. i lost everyone while alone. i missed you. are you okay? He was very good at changing topics.

Still doesn't mean it's easy. I missed you too. I. I'm alright now that you're back.

now that i'm back...? did i worry you that badly? ugh... i'm sorry, i couldn't reach you.. i didn't have a uh. way.

It's okay. I assumed something was going on and it. Wasn't safe. Apologies. I probably seem a little overtly attached. I promise I'm just relieved.

it's okay. i. assumed that was it i'd feel the same way. i think? i don't know. i know our situation's. confusing.

The whole thing is a little. odd. I'm just glad youre alive.

very alive. very confused? i don't. really know where i am.

Thats okay, just let me know how youre doing.

i'm in a largee plush chair... i feel. weird? i think they gave me a pill? woozy.

At least youre comfortable. Please. Be careful. I don't. Know where you are or who you're with, but I don't want to lose you.

i don't know either? someone brought me here and sat me down and gave me a pill and water... mmm sleepy

Vasha, that worries me. Please be careful Please don't let anything bad happen to you

can anything really be worse than what just happened? He struck through that thought, as if trying to get rid of it. m comfy.. they seem like nice people. ip something

The IPC?

huh? that sounds right.. i don't know. i was just with them when i woke up after leaving. something.

You should be safe with them, if they helped you after leaving. I know that group. They will keep you safe.

They said. to trust them. i didn't have a choice. i trust you..

i love you, Vasha. thank you for trusting me.

i love you too veri. wonder what they gave en eme. woozy... wonder if youre somehow nearby.. i miss you

I miss you too. i hope we're closer together soon.

i wish i knew where i was. i don't know what happened to home. no one will tell me :(

I'm sure someone will tell you soon. its got to be scary. Not knowing.

i wish i knew anything where are you? how are you?

I'm at home, I'm safe. no matter what you know, i will be right here.

you're safe? you promise?

i promise. curled up in bed writing to my soulmate.

okay. holding you to that. oh. i'm handcuffed. legcuffed?

bun started a thread. 3/19/2025 3:21 PM

Cuffed. Hm. I'll be safe, Vasha.

my ankles. cuff. my hands are free.

That tells me they don't think youre dangerous. maybe they're just worried about you leaving.

where would i go anyway...?

7:09 PM

they took me off the planet. home was destroyed.

i don't know. It's always hard to leave home, no matter how.

m tired, veri.

Rest, but please. Please be careful

don't wanna sleep. no one's told me what's gonna happen to me this time.

I'll leave a note on your arm, for them. regardless, they should keep you safe.

i don't trust them. but thank you i think they drugged me? did i already say that?

You mentioned they made you take a pill. i worry about you.

awee he worries about me~? i've scraped by this long~ i've got it, doc

I always worry, Vasha. I trust you. Stay safe.

always am safe~ this place is a lot better than the last couple of years. you at least been comfortable?

As best I can be, yes. I'm glad it's at least better.

i'll tell you about it one day. not exactly a small talk topic maybe you'll see me and it'll make sense. lol.

Perhaps. I look forward to hearing... more about you.

Not going to happen, doc~ Tit for tat, the more I learn about you the more you'll learn about me. (edited)

Damn. I thought perhaps i would get more out of you. Its almost like i chronically never talk about myself

Great minds are soulmates. Or think alike. Whatever. How have your quiet years without me been~? Ah, just as much of an ass as ever. Even at 13, it seemed he'd gotten a bit more bold.

Long. I'm glad that you're okay. Even if it's just minimally. Hm. his Vasha had changed a bit. that's okay. He liked his Vasha just as well any way he was.

I'm alive and the IPC has me. What's the worst that could happen? He paused. Don't answer that. Any more degrees, titles, long math discoveries?

If only I was lucky enough to discover something. Just the one I was working on last time we spoke. I'm just starting my second. I'm glad that they have you, of anyone. At least they can handle... more than most could.

Trust me. They handled it. Also, I made an offer that was hard to refuse~ A lot better than shitty chains. So when do I get to finally learn what math you do.

Well. I'm just working on baby math science right now. nothing too intense I'm glad that you're going to be okay. I am. so deeply glad.

Although he didn't quite understand the sentiment, he wrote a little heart by it. He wasn't meant to survive, he knew that. But that wasn't information to share so casually. Just got lucky is all, doc~ Now I'd be luckier if you'd give me your number finally. They gave me a phone.

You've got a phone again? He wasn't. sure if he should. I. I don't know. The IPC can be. something. Lord knows he'd only run into his Vasha in the bleakest situation in the world if the IPC knew he was his soulmate. I'm sorry. I know I'm a recluse.